Recent content by thebizarre

So... I think I need to take a break, from everything. Just a few weeks ago, I was reeling from the pain of a breakup. I started dating a few guys, which felt rather serendipitous, as they all seemingly reemerged when I was in need of a distraction. I've just realized that's pretty much why...

Sooo... it's been a long and exhausting past few days. Lots of socialization, dating, ending relationships, exploring new ones, etc. Typical "me" stuff. Friday (the 24th), I met with a friend for lunch. FWB is more like it. I did say that I'm not really into FWBs, but Eric is a rare...

Alright, so I promised to talk about my date with Chi, but first... I broke no contact with Jon. He called, I answered. We talked - the details of the conversation aren't important, but I just felt... nothing for him anymore. I'm surprised that I'm over him so quickly, but I am. Now that the...

I started writing this entry last night but I got really sleepy and had to stop. Ahh... three dates again this weekend. Maybe I was PMS-ing or something last weekend, or still kinda feeling hurt after the breakup with Jon, but this time around, I had a different perception. It was a lot of fun...

I've been a busy gal :p Those three consecutive dates wiped me o-u-t. I'm a textbook introvert, so after socializing, I need at least a day to recover. I promised myself I wouldn't line up three dates in a row like like that anymore. But surprise surprise, I did it again THIS weekend...

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How did you get here? Nobody's supposed to be here I've tried that love thing for the last time My heart says no, no! Nobody's supposed to be here But you came along and changed my mind... Well, I went on a date with Ken last night. All day, I was a nervous wreck, but also really excited...

I never talked about my date on Tuesday with Chris. We had a nice dinner and afterwards walked through the park and chatted. *Shrug* I wouldn't turn him down if he asked me out again and I didn't have anything better to do, but I wasn't into him in more than a platonic way Speaking of dates, my...

Well, my "gut" feeling was right. Curiosity got the best of me, and I had a peek at Jon's FB page. I wont go into specifics of what I saw, but suffice it to say, he'd been lying to me about a lot of things, in particular there was one thing that I suspected, and it turned out to be true. It...

What your father says is very true - you don't ever really "move on" from someone you love, rather, you learn to live without them. I've been through several breakups, and it never gets easier, no matter how many times it happens. But it does get better. It's just so hard to see it when the pain...

So, I had a great weekend. Watched lots of movies with Vicky. We bonded, it was fun. I was starting to feel like I was getting somewhere, then randomly while listening to music, a nice love song came on. The stupid music player told me Jon was listening to it recently. And I saw that he'd...

I could write about my day, but it was exhausting and frustrating. Just want to put it all behind me now. I'm feeling a little better about the breakup. I can't wait to feel even better. I feel like a kid waiting for christmas. I'm sure it'd be worse if I wasn't getting outside every day...

This Is Your Brain on Heartbreak That was validating to read. So breakups suck because the parts of your brain that are activated during physical pain are also activated by emotional pain. And you're literally addicted to the relationship. I already knew this, but it was nice to have the...

Well... meditation was challenging. Mostly because I've fallen out of practice (it's like exercise - if you do it regularly and stop, when you start back, you're going to be crap at it for a while). My mind just kept drifting to random things, existential thinking, thoughts about Jon, etc...

I went on a date last night. A guy I'd met via another website I frequent. He seemed bright and open-minded in the discussions we participated in, not to mention he looked insanely attractive in his pictures - very much my type. Coincidentally, we happened to live nearby, so we exchanged contact...