Recent content by transitapparent

I made it home on Thursday. Mama has broken it off with the bf. Not sure where we're gonna go from here. If we continue down the poly path, I know where to turn.

ugh...day of departure moved back. no longer 5 days, it's now closer to 2 weeks. bummed.

got the unofficial word today that I'll be home on the 30th :D:D:D I'm so ready!!!

I was lucky. I did 2 6 month deployments in 4 years when I was in Brunswick. 16 months between. this one is only a 4 monther but it's so much worse. kids, the wife, location. there's so much more stress. I don't figure I'll be home longer than 6 months and I'll be back out this way again...

being so far away definitely doesn't help. distance is supposed to make the heart grow fonder, not the other way around. I'm ready for the first few days....I've been studying up on my porn for new ideas :D lmao

Minxxa, you snuck in while I was typing. you seem to always know whats in my head, maybe it's because you are the military wife. she is going to have to put "you worry too much" on the shelf right next to "it's all good" because thats what she used to say. we would have a long conversation and...

ok, now that I'm at work and I've eaten my dinner....lte see what I can get off my chest. I'm gonna call the ex/FWB B from now on SN - I think I was looking for something to say to her without sounding like I'm accusing her of doing something wrong. you just gave it to me, thanks. I don't know...

thanks guys, this is by far the hardest deployment I've done in my career. I had a horrible time trying to sleep today. I have to go to work where I'll respond a little better but real quick.....I sent mama an email this morning. it wasn't hate filled and scathing like the last one. I just...

I'm not giving up yet but if she is continually falling into the same habits that she has been. theres only so much I can do.

I've got a bad feeling that my marriage is might be heading this way. I can't say for sure, I don't want it to, but I've got this gut feeling right now.

well, I talked to mama on the phone last night. I don't feel any better. she had a friend babysit the kids so she could go to a local zumba class. I'm fine with that. then she told me she went to BF's brothers house (who knows about them) without the kids and BF was there. she didn't say if...

today has been an ok day for me. mama is back in NY again. I know she says she isn't going to do anything with the ex BF/ new FWB but I'm not entirely sure I trust her. I feel horrible for saying that but she has gone behind my back with him more than once and it's something that still bothers...

Sounds about like my surgery. I had to wear an athletic supporter for two weeks to keep my boys from bouncing around. I wore a cup too, because my kids are insane lol. Both of my kids were born in a hospital. I liked the hospital in Maine a lot better because it was a "civilian" hospital. They...

I'm also shooting blanks. me and mama decided from the beginning that condoms would be used with anyone outside of our marriage.

2 bags packed and thrown in the tri-wall (navy terminology for big shipping box) to be sent home. down to the bare essentials until I leave. hopefully I'll be home and in my own bed in 2 weeks....hopefully