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This weekend was largely low-key. I spent a lot of it, including the wee hours of Monday morning, being in serious pain from period cramps. So that was no fun. And the irritability turned Sunday gaming with five dogs into a massively frustrating chore instead of a fun event. I reactivated and...

In 3.5 weeks, I'm leaving to see Flame for a week. Just like with last time, I feel massively under-prepared for this trip, though at least this time I'm less nervous and definitively looking forward to it. Spice is coming over tonight. Guitarist is going to cook mini pizzas and we're all going...

I ended up not going to the goth-themed meetup. I was very tired last Friday and feel asleep at like 8 pm, woke up at 4 am Saturday, and was up. I tried to take a nap at around 4 pm to have enough meetup energy, and I ended up having nightmares about the meetup instead. I also realized that...

Good on your partner for bringing his feelings and desires to you! Contrary to the previous poster, I'd argue that sexuality and sexual orientation (with monogamous/polyamorous being an orientation spectrum) is not demonstrative. I knew I was bisexual long before I started having sex with men...

I decided at some point this week to put myself out there more, so I joined the women's/nonbinary subset of my local polyamory group and posted an introduction there. I'm also considering going to the local meetup on Saturday. Pros: it's at a location I've been to several times. Also, it's a...

This past weekend was totally crazy, again. Bee came out to see Guitarist on Friday, which wasn't very stressful for me, but it was still people I don't l live with existing in my house. I always get self-conscious about my aversion to wearing pants when I'm at home. There were no other issues...

Getting ready to go to Twilight Imperium game day. As of last night, Guitarist and Bee have a thing. I went into the kitchen and saw them both cuddling and was like, AWWWWWW.

Today's random thought: I don't need the "love" of anyone who doesn't love me for who I am.

Oh man, if only there was one coming out, or one way to be out. I had more of a dilemma over this on coming out about being a big ol' queer. My parents are very Christian. Ultimately, I ended up being outed anyway. I also know some people for whom it isn't safe for them to be out. One is a...

This week has been one long, literal headache. I hate allergies. I hate spring. I like trees, but at the other end of the year, when they don't make my face into a pain face. It seems like everyone I know is having relationship trouble lately. Guitarist came home last night telling me how...

These have been my experiences as well. Sure, I could be rolling in easy sex, if that's what I wanted. But what I want is a loving, long-term, committed relationship with another femme person, and it seems like I might as well ask for the moon at this point.

On Monday night, Bee came over for board games and decompressing with Guitarist about the end of both their things with Magical. Random thought, Bee has the most delightful honey tone to their hair that I got to admire since the sun setting was setting it off. Anyway, I had a good time playing...

I had a nice, relaxing weekend away from poly drama. I spent most of it between my family, since my niece had a birthday party and then it was mothers day. I get vaguely irritated by mothers day every year. It's supposed to be an anti-war holiday, not the patriarchal and vaguely patronizing...

Nevermind about Guitarist's thing with Magical being resolved. He felt treated poorly by Magical in front of the new girlfriend on their usual Tuesday night game again this week. He raised it to her during a visit with her yesterday, and apparently she was very dismissive of his concerns or...

No, they're all nicknames. Guitarist's stuff with Magical has resolved in a satisfactory way for him. They're going to remain friends, though her whole situation is fraught with drama. Guitarist is planning on going over there tonight for his usual games night stuff. I'm worried that because...

It seems that Guitarist and Magical have worked things out. By talking about them primarily over text. I'm utterly shocked by this shocking development. It sounds like she apologized for being hurtful and thought that because they had joked about their breakup in the past that it would be okay...

How weird is it that I was watching this episode last night? My favorite is still Fifteen Million Merits (Daniel Kaluuya utterly nailed it, in my opinion).

So Guitarist came home very upset from his gaming night over at Magical's house last night. Apparently he wasn't able to have the full talk he wanted to have with her, and ended up feeling very rejected because he didn't even get a goodbye when he went home. And possibly for another reason, he...

I had a conversation with Flame a few days ago about how much I want to know if he starts seeing someone else. I told him as much as he usually tells me. That's one of the things we've always talked about, his interests and who he's seeing, and it would be weird to put an artifical barrier on...

I'm still around, still no major updates. I'm planning a trip out to see Flame in July, probably over July 4th. Guitarist and I are continuing to be awesome. I haven't seen or heard much from Raven, which is fine by me, and I'm not really in a place where I want to start seeing anyone else. In...