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Generally working out helps keep me centered for the most part. I also enjoy writing and creating with my hands. Photography, painting, etc.

Feeling much better tonight. Zed and I fought earlish in the day but it was brief and I was able to get out a lot of my frustrations I've been having that have been the culprit of making me feel less than important. Dean was there for the initial breaking point and later went to the gym with...

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I've been feeling particularly isolated lately. Zed and Pixie fought really bad this past weekend as well as off and on early into the week. The distraction has made me feel really far away from Zed. He vents his frustrations to me but becomes really aggressive and irrational, which turns to...

I definitely feel like I need a pen-pal type poly buddy. I have very few poly friends and it's very hard for them to relate in my confused moments. I'd also just like to have a close poly friend besides my metamour to talk to. Ya know? I dunno, guys. Feeling kind of lonely right now.

I also have a thing for mouths. I'm not sure where that one comes from. When I was little I had a huge thing for Steven Tyler. Large lips, prominent teeth, smile lines. Needless to say, lip rings also drive me crazy. And tattoos.

Finally got our hose replaced for our washer in the new house so I've spent all day catching up on laundry. Zed cooked an amazing dinner of salmon and risotto and had Dean and Pixie over to try it. They've both been getting sick so it was nice to feed them this evening. Kind of sad because...

That's always way exciting. 😊

Quite a few changes have happened since my last post. Changes that I hope will continue to be positive, but I know I only have so much control. It's something that I am having to learn to exercise in appropriate moments. Essentially, I decided to give this thing with Dean another chance. I...

Not really sure what's wrong with me lately. I feel off and distant. From everyone. Not really sure where it's coming from. Maybe I'm just tired from the move, but there's a lot of emotions running rampant right now and I'm not sure what they are or where they're coming from. I feel boring and...

Long hair. I adore long hair on men. Dean has red hair to his waist. *nom*

Yes, I am. So long as he can help me maintain those boundaries I set for both of us.

Yes, that is correct. Zed is my husband. We've allowed this to establish a hierarchy when it comes to these things. We are still new in this and try to be very careful about each other's insecurities and try to have an eye open to protect each other. Zed isn't near as close with Energy as he...

I just hope I made the right decision and things don't become weird. And I hope that Zed can trust Energy on the same level he once did. I don't want animosity and assumptions to dictate the way Energy and I have to react to one another.

I definitely don't see a flaw in his thinking other than not thinking about long term consequences. And I tried not to make him feel that way. Things seemed to end on a good note as he reminded me again before we got off the phone that I can call him anytime if I just need to talk, about...

I'm okay today. Trying to get going... Mind is still on shit with Energy...(see my post in Relationships Corner) It's not like it should be. But it is. Now to go pack and clean so I can finish moving....

Thank you for all your input. I agree with most of what you all are saying, but there are a few other things I should clarify. One of the reasons this is a red flag to me is because of past experiences with Energy (the best friend, this will be his surname from this point forward). I've seen...

Last night I got a call from my best friend. It was a pretty normal "shitty night" convo which extended to an hour and a half of conversation. To understand our friendship, it's really important to establish some history. We've known each other about 6 years. We shared the same best friend who...

Zed and Dylan

He certainly seemed that way when we met him. He let us get a picture and he told us that never happens, so Zed is pretty proud about that. :)