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Yes, very much so. People around me often remark at how fast the "unwinding" process can happen for me a lot of the time, and some assume that this means that the unwinding is superficial or incomplete (and sometimes it is), but I truly feel like a lot of shit was released. I'm in no way under...

Hi kdt, Absolutely... am slowly making my way through these and so far what I have read has been very helpful. I actually feel like I turned a corner early this morning. I was really acutely feeling some jealous and insecure feelings when I got off work at 6am today and usually I would do...

I think I am going to sort of use this thread to journal a bit. I look at the entire polyamorous lifestyle as a spiritual path, so it seems fitting to chronicle mine in this thread. I am fucking struuuuuuuuuuuggling today man. Holy shit. I am entirely blown away at how easy it is for me to...

When I look in the mirror I see a scared, insecure, needy child. I'm trying to learn to love and accept that poor little guy. Love, Carson

Hi kdt26417, Yes, most people I meet are like this for sure. To each their own. Personally I seem to have some masochistic tendencies and I don't seem to have the luxury of keeping anything hidden, especially not from myself. I can deny deny deny for years, but eventually life will put me...

Hi Central, That is sort of how it feels to me. The conditioning that is related to sexual (only) relationships seems to be more superficial than the conditioning that is triggered when engaging in multiple emotional relationships. After exploring the idea of swinging I have come to realize...

Thanks for the welcome. :) Bluebird: my wife won't be writing under this name. She will often read what Ive written before I post it, especially if I'm talking "we's" and "us's," but if she wants to post her own questions she will definitely create her own username. I'll mention to her that if...

Hi central, That's definitely what I'm finding. I found out today that I still have active insecurity issues stemming from a previous relationship. I totally thought I had already worked through it all and that I was completely okay with being alone should that be what happens, but...

Hi kdt26417, I agree. Talking about things, whether on a forum or in person, helps me with integrating and processing as well. Totally... this is exactly what I'm talking about. For example, I had quite a severe emotional reaction today when my wife told me that she was hoping to go out...

Hi nycindie, Yes, of course. Every relationship is without a doubt an opportunity to learn about yourself. So is every moment if you are attentive enough. ;) I was more meaning to ask whether or not there were other people here who were using a poly relationship to purposefully seek out...

I'm curious to know if others here are using their poly lifestyle as modality for self-realization. Having spent a significant amount of time and effort earlier in life trying to "achieve enlightenment" (through religion, psychedelics, music, yoga, meditation, tantra, regularly inducing...

Well hello there all you beautiful poly internet peeps. :D My name is Carson and I'm writing to introduce my family and I since there is a pretty good chance we will be coming here in the future for some advice. We've been perusing the forum for a while but have yet to introduce ourselves and...