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    A New Life

    Going ANYWHERE was cause to feel guilty... The last 17 years of my life. I never really thought about it. I thought it was my duty as a wife and mother to be home with my family (and my spouse was NOT social). Now that I am not in that relationship I find that there are a host of things I can...
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    Polyamory and the "cave".

    My current partner is extremely introverted. He can manage about 3 days a week in ANY sort of social setting with 4 to himself-and I mean ALONE or he gets moody and anxious and has a pour attitude. More than 5 days a week in social settings and he is impossible. We have worked out a schedule...
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    A New Life

    Haven't Had much time to be on here. Between manor projects at school and warm weather. I have been riding the motorcycle(after doing maintenance on it) and today I cleaned up the yard and prepped the garden. We will likely get moresnow before the end of May-so all the starters are in the front...
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    Doing an essay on polyamorous relationships

    You are welcome to pm me as well.
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    Have you lost anything from being poly?

    My two life loves. But I found myself.
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    A New Life

    "Healthy" Peanut butter isn't unhealthy or dangerous or deadly! It is if you are allergic to peanuts. In fact just having third party contact with a smidgeon of peanut oil can trigger anaphalactic shock..... Likewise; it is unhealthy and deadly to "cage" wild animals (feel free to do your...
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    Jealousy, Envy, Insecurity, etc.: Merged Threads, General Discussion

    I have written oodles on this topic in various threads over the years. I cheated. I came clean. I set clear outlines for my own change and growth. I changed my attitude and behavior regarding lying/cheating/sneaking/secrecy. I spent five years proving myself honest, trustworthy, etc. By all...
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    A New Life

    Peace Currently curled up in the Sexy Beasts arms. He is sleeping, long week, rough weekend, he needed a nap. I love these moments. When its quiet. He's asleep, relaxed. I find it calming. When I arrived, I gave him a back rub (then play) before curling up with him. I love the feel of the...
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    Just LR

    That pretty much sums it up. Unfortunately these sort of asshole moves are exactly what gives men a bad rap in regards to parenting.
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    A New Life

    Valentines Day weekend was spectacular. I can't even describe how much I needed it. We met after classes and watched a flick, hung out at his place. Then went to the hotel to shower and get ready for dinner. His treat we went to a really nice dinner. He bought me an orchid as a gift. It is so...
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    A New Life

    Yesterday was break day. It was a LONG day. Up at 5am and home to bed by midnight. But the powerful sense of rest one gains from being off line, no phone, no school books, in a quiet place is astounding. Today was up at 6 and running all day. Helping little one tet ready for Valenties party at...
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    A New Life

    Enough rest seems to be the current name of the game. Sigh Holing Wednesday I can "run away" for another day alone with him. Its very quiet and peaceful and slow at his place. To a large degree I am certain, its the difference of children vs no children.
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    A New Life

    Exhaustion reigns. I curled up beside him and crashed hard. My body and my mind are exhausted. He just held me. Probably won't see each other except maybe a passing kiss, until Next week. I just have too much going on. Trying to get my home set up in a way more functional for me. Its a lot...
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    A New Life

    This weekend has been lonely and overwhelmingly filled with duties. I am exhausted (and tomorrow is Monday...oh fuck). I am emotionally sensitive. Feeling the pain of loss. Really could have used a few "kid-free" hours curled up in the arms of someone who gives a shit. Instead I was dealing...
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    A Primary Says...

    Would I consider a ldr primary. I wouldn't consider anyone primary at this point in my life. In the case of the oartners in question-both relationships have been terminated. So no. But additionally; I have chosen to alter my relationship style to a solo approach since. Regardless; I...
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    A New Life

    I am laughing. But I'm glad you like the quote. Maybe I will hang it on my wall. I can envision a nice way to paint it. Hell-maybe I will just paintit directly on the wall. :) That actually sounds appealing. I spent far too many years caught on an escalator I knew I hated before I ever got on...
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    A New Life

    No-it is not unusual as far as I am aware at this point in a relationship. But we don't intend to alter that regardless of how long the relationship goes. There is a conscious intentional decision that we will not live together or mingle finances etc at any point. There is no interest or...
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    A New Life

    I definitely agree, but I would raise the ante to "need". I need a partner(s) who respects my autonomy. I am not a piece of a person, I am a full person in and of my ownself. I have a full and busy life with many people and activities that are deeply important to me. I don't mind sharing my...
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    A Primary Says...

    To a large degree, you answered your own question. It CAN work that way. And then there are also those "game changers" in life; where someone makes a decision or encounters something that completely changes everything-often unexpectedly and whatever existed before is knocked off it's rocker...
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    A New Life

    Busy days. But it was brutal cold today and I knew he would be walking to/from work. So I rearranged my day to be able to give him a ride home. Only had a few minutes to spare. A hug, a kiss, a 5 minute drive. Then I was off again to handle life responsibilities. He thanked me. Today is four...
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