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  1. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    Yes I am in shock. It's the most cowardly thing I've ever seen him do. He is refusing to speak to me (I mean...really????) so I had to tell him via my dad (really?!??) that he can stay at their house tonight and I'll see him in the morning. I hope I can sleep. Thanks to you guys for being there...
  2. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    He has betrayed my trust and 'outed' me to my parents including my bisexuality without my permission. I can't actually believe it.
  3. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    His emotional cow involved him calling my parents and telling them. When I specifically asked him not to talk to them about me. I'm off in emotional brain too
  4. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    I hate hurting the people I love to be who I truly am. I wish I had figured all this out years and years ago.
  5. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    Well aside from the religion stuff I just told husband about me being polyamorous. He didn't take it well. He said "heck no" to an 'open relationship' and left the house. I feel horrendous right now. That kind of 'what have I done' feeling, but I had to be open and I had to be authentic. Can...
  6. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    I am dealing with evangelical/charismatics. I guess the UK equivalent of fundamentalists although I've never actually heard that word! Everything is all about the Bible, love the sinner but hate the sin, care for the community and bring them to Christ. There is no freedom without Jesus. Power of...
  7. Journeyofawakening

    The Notebook of JaneQSmythe

    I hope the talk goes well. It's okay that this situation is making you feel anxious, it just shows that you care right? X
  8. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    I don't want to bash the Christian community because ultimately, that has been my life and I understand where they are coming from. The people in my church are not bad people, they're doing great things for their community and they believe their beliefs are 100% correct. And that's fine. I just...
  9. Journeyofawakening

    Greetings from England

    I can't join Facebook groups just yet because of my in-the-poly-closet situation right now. But I'd love to chat with anyone, you're welcome to pm me :)
  10. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    Probably. But my husband thinks my desire to explore my sexuality with the same sex is due to a chemical imbalance. Really...I just find some women attractive and would quite like to have that experience with a woman I care about. but that's a whole other conversation!! Have I already...
  11. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    I know what you are saying, but how can I be in a trusting, happy, healthy relationship with someone who thinks that about me? That's my issue. I know he loves me, but how do you get over a hurdle like that? I can ignore letters from people in the church. They are well meaning. but when your...
  12. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    Realising now how narrow minded the people around me are. Talked with my husband about what I believe now. He wanted me to open with him about it. He now thinks I am mentally unstable or influenced by the demonic. So...that's nice right? :(
  13. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    And yes I completely feel that his letter was reflecting his feelings rather than tapping into mine. I guess my questioning my faith reflects on them as leaders as though they haven't done a good enough job to keep me there. But really, I just woke up to a new truth.
  14. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    I have a few friends online who understand the place that I am in right now. But they live far away. Locally, not so much. Although I haven't had close friends for support since I got married. Or before then even. I connect much better with people online than in person. Perhaps it's the area in...
  15. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    Well on the church front...things for me are going well. It's nice to have Sunday mornings to myself. The kids didn't want to go to church because it's too loud but they have fun at the kids group when they go. I asked my son what he liked about it and he said playing and doing crafts. So he's...
  16. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    This is the kind of info that should be taught before you have children! Thank you Karen, I really appreciate your thoughts, views and philosophies
  17. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    And that is what I will aim for too. Thank you for laying that out in such a clear way.
  18. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    Thank you all once again for great advice and encouragement. I'm taking it all in...
  19. Journeyofawakening

    Beginnings

    Impregnate? Breed??? Women are not animals... Do you realise how much hard work it is to carry a baby, give birth and raise a child?? It's not a game...
  20. Journeyofawakening

    How do I even start to explain??

    By the way, I realise that this has moved from a polyamory topic into a 'beliefs' and 'relationship' and 'parenting' one but this is the best place for throwing my thoughts out there. It's wonderful, thank you for the opportunity. The polyamory topic will resume once I have told my husband how...
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