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Hey Kevin, Recent update . I dont think l was needy or demanding but Kile has gone silent on communication, up to 4 days, l resorted to calling him on a public phone, l got through. Said he would call. But didnt. I dont think l will get an explanation. We had one meetup over a week ago. I had a...

Hi Ryan. How are you. What kind foods do you enjoy eating? Whats the last movie you saw & resonated with you.

I guess l can ask. Whether l get the truth or whatever comes l will have to accept. I struggle with irrational reasons why it didnt work. Most of it came down to lack of respect, prioritising & communication. Ive had issues with self blame, some relating to child abuse. I am working my way out...

Looking at the qualities that require a positive poly relationship from Polysecure book, we hadnt really sat down & asked why? Expectations, made assumptions, that being the fact l didnt feel l was given much priority or respect. As l didnt get any response still haunts me, silly enough to want...

Sadly he has neither reached out to me via phone or text. I will leave one message. And cut my losses & go. I thank all of you on this forum for your support & kindness. I dont think l carry enough emotional resilience to be in polyamory relationship. But perhaps Kile is poor example of a...

Yup. One more question. Will have to ask him today. Time to move forward. Cheers

I hope to get some clarification tonight. I did consider that bandwidth challenge. Thanks Evie.

You may be right. As when he had the time he gave willingly. His Words of giving me priority seemed genuine . I got sucked into the poems & romantic prose. How do you figure the level of someone being genuine. Was he just messing with my head. I do feel like crap. I am talking to him tonight.

I have read the article. I know l have rights but its lot different when the person l love & adore is not applying the fundimental principles of value, love & respect 100%. to consent is different to actually doing. I want this to work but a few hours once a week wont build a meaningful connection.

The word secondary seems to say it all. But that doesn't mean l am not entitled to be treated with respect, consideration & courtesy. We shall see.

Yes. Np gets amazing amount of attention. Do l have the right to expect that from him. I can only ask for more time. Which he may not want to give or is unable. Which leads to me exiting. Even as a secondary l warrant more prioritisation. Hard truths. Moving house today & need to focus on...

Again. Thank you. I am going to have a better chat with him sometime today or tomorrow. Fooling myself thinking this is enough. I know it wont be easy walking. The longer l leave it the harder it will be. It already feels like it now. Even though its been 3mths.

Thanks for those kind words. I know l deserve more. Yes it would be amazing to be given top priority. Yet l came in knowing l was sharing him with his np. But l never thought id be getting scraps off the table. Feeling malnourished. One moment l feel strong enough to walk away another l feel too...

He keeps saying with things settling when l know he has said so much bout making time, just may not be possible. l am too kind or stupidly optimistic . I have given myself end of March. ive asked in the nicest possible way bout extended time. psyche said too many moving parts, it is seriously...

Lao Tzu words are beautiful. You sound like somebody that would be great to meet & be around, & show depth. And l love poetry & philosophy. To be transparent I am connected to a hinge here in Australia, l want more time with him but his tight schedules are not giving that. I am sad & frustrated.

Looks like the once week is in. But l know its a stretch as he completes a late evening shift, sees me quite late. I get up really early for a shift. I didnt manage to ask all the questions as it never seemed right at the moment cos l wanted to use the time to be with him. I am wondering if this...

I am chinese, 60 yrs. I am serious but l know can be fun. Have got a sense of humour. Love working with clay. Adore cats. Enjoy cooking for loved ones. I am curious about people & how they tick. Little interest in philosophy. Love meaningful conversations. So much still to learn about this world

Hey. I didnt think you were serious. The UK is not that small. Surprised you havent met anyone over there. Huge gamble to travel over to Australia to meet someone. Tell me more about you?

It was good to chat with psychologist & felt supported. I am catching up with Kile tomorrow. I have put down some questions to ask. The once a week seems to be ongoing thing. Vague is not what l want

Hey. You are sweet. I dont think. Even lf l am an amazing human being for you to travel to Australia. Have you tried some of the dating sites locally & being open about your choice of lifestyle. I learnt the hard way bout trying to keep long distance relationships going. I am not doing that...