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Perfect day with Castle yesterday :D This guy rocks my world. http://www.polyamory.com/forum/picture.php?albumid=941&pictureid=3629 I'm starting to - not stress exactly - but think about what it will be like when Castle isn't here in Dallas as much. His family stuff is going to be handled...

I keep waiting to have time to write a long in depth post... Time is not something I have much of these days! I've been spending at least a few hours every weekday with Castle - and sometimes way more than that. Which basically means that between work, friends, dogs, workouts, housework, Andy...

Thanks Mags! We do :) I am beyond happy these days. I'm going to have to take back everything I ever said about not getting crazy NRE... Give me a relationship that feels normal and natural and BOOM it's insane :o I'm even getting that whole spillover effect on my relationship with Andy. Mostly...

It took a few days but I'm feeling better about Andy-sex stuff. The fact that we aren't always on the same page with sex doesn't bother me ... But sometimes it bothers him, and it bothers me that it bothers him. Sigh. I guess after all these years I feel like we should just accept the...

Apologies for the nsfw post but I REALLY need to vent right now ... Andy and I were trying to have sexy time tonight and - you know, I just don't think you could find two people less compatible in bed if you tried :( He started talking about all the guys I have slept with ... Like, literally...

I got an unexpected Andy-day yesterday - he was home when I came home from work mid-afternoon. Apparently the caterer at his meeting poisoned everyone :( Andy was in the middle of presenting after lunch when he had to clamp a hand over his mouth and run out of the room puking... Then a few...

I hate adulting in summer :p I don't miss being a kid, but I miss being a teenager and young adult... When summer meant sleeping until ten, getting paid to sit by a pool and call it babysitting, then drinking all night by a beach or a bonfire. The fact that it's summer and I still have to get...

Awwww what a sweetheart - he's gorgeous! And I almost started crying reading about you and Tater crying (damn hormones!)

I have been thinking on this all day... It's like I don't think I *deserve* Castle. Not because there's anything wrong with me, but because I'm not giving him enough in return to warrant how well he treats me. There is this narrative in my head - what nycindie would call a worm - that says a...

What do you do when what you *should* want and what you *do* want don't line up :confused: I have spent endless hours thinking and processing and analyzing ... And writing here on this blog ... I know, with my rational brain, that the kind of non monogamy that would work best for me is a casual...

Damn this guy is perfect... Yeah the NRE is crazy right now. I don't think I've felt like this since I first starting dating Andy. My more recent relationships, no matter how fun and exciting, came with a huge amount of scheduling stress and processing emotions - stuff that made it hard to get...

Ok, the boy :) Castle. My smart, funny, fascinating, incredibly sexy new guy. He's older (early 50s) but still does Iron Man triathlons. Works in real estate and is doing grad school too. He lived in my part of the world for a long time, then he and his wife moved to the east coast once their...

Thank so guys :) I keep meaning to write more about Castle but I've been busy hanging out with him and being ridiculously happy ! Tonight is Wonder Woman with Andy, K, and R. Life is just good these days. I think I finally got over trying to poly the 'right way' or the way others do. It's a lot...

Hello blog, it's been a while ... Things are good, and I've been wary of messing them up by coming here and overanalyzing them! I'm seeing someone new, he's completely wonderful, it's only been a few dates, but I'm definitely in NRE land. Well, as NRE as I get - I actually rearranged my lawn...

Hot Boy canceled our lunch tomorrow because of work stuff... I'm kind of relieved. For reasons I don't quite understand, hanging out with him has brought up a lot of -weird- feelings for me. Envy, mostly. If I dig down and face it. I'm envious that he has a hot sex life with his wife, while I...

Oh yes. I definitely grew up in a world where men were "providers" and women were "takers". Not just of money and material things, but time, energy, support, care. The crazy men in my family were easy to spot - they were walking around the neighborhood barking, or dressed as Jesus babbling...

In "poly updates"... I am SO fickle and distractable in the early stages of dating. I'm still talking to Hot Boy, seeing him Thursday, but I've also started chatting with another guy. And I'm suddenly waaaay more excited by this person I've never met than by Hot Boy. I think there's a part of...

I am really lucky in the dad department - he's my best friend in the world. My maternal grandfather was amazing, too, and I have a couple of uncle types who I love like dads. With all the crazy in my family, there were several stable, strong men around, and they held us all together. Sometimes...

I wish "fuck off" was an acceptable response to "Happy Mother's Day" :cool: I mean, I sincerely hope all the moms out there are having a wonderful day, and being celebrated by their kids and coparents. Yay for moms! But I HATE being wished happy mother's day by strangers. I'm not a mom. Do they...