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So I think it was about a week or so I mentioned being in the hospital because of bleeding. Wednesday I my OB/GYN to have a follow up. Been doing som research and since this has been going on (bleeding or period issues) for 7 years I'm going to get her to give me an endometrial ablation.

I don't know. I support people with developmental disabilities and it was one of them who did that. There is going to be a meeting with his home staff to decide what to do but until then I was told if he approaches me I'm to walk in the opposite direction of him, even if it means leaving the...

I need to stay out of hospitals. Now sitting in a work related care center because a person I support at my job hit me in the head four times and pulled my hair. And may have given me a concussion. I don't make enough there for that.

Okay, maybe not as bad I thought. He apparently talked with Lamian about the fact that what she has been doing to me is unfair and doing nothing but hurting me. I added on when he was telling me about this that with how she's acting makes it difficult for me to have time with Seven without...

So I lied, one more post before I fear things explode. I doubt I'm even going to have the chance to say what I need to say (which actually IS something that can make things work out with all the people in this group) because I think I'm going to be vetoed just because A) I'm upset (I guess I'm...

I'm reaching my breaking point. Don't be surprised if the next post I make in this blog is about the end of my relationship.

Right now the only thing I'm curious about is what behaviors you are finding risky/unprotected. You said they are using condoms for sex and any toy use and that they are not having oral sex. What of her behaviors with her boyfriend has you fearful that you'll get something from your shared...

Sometimes I wish my hearing wasn't as attuned as it is (or that it was ever more so) because when I catch random parts of something sitting in a room next to people whispering then my mind goes haywire. Seven and Lamian were talking. Seven mentioned that he had been trying to quell how he...

Currently sitting in an er. Been bleeding for two weeks heavily despite my birth control. In May this happened for a week and a half and my gyno recommended taking two pills for two days. When I tried that this time it didn't work and when I called to set up an appointment they told me to go to...

This is crazy powerful. I'm really interested in the rest myself.

Finally had a chance this morning to reconnect with Seven. And he is working on making sure we have time together. We had a little bit this morning because even though he was only gone for a week for both of us it's felt like we've been apart for longer. Then tomorrow is a day complete for the...

Just finished a show tonight. One fire number, one burlesque number. First time a routine has broken me. It's more or less a depression recovery piece to Pink's Fucking Perfect. Considering I've had it my whole life difficult routine complete with words I've heard and thought that helped get me...

Seven comes home today. I've missed him. Hoping we ate okay still.

Woke up to a text from Seven today. That was helpful. Broke down last night. Not just about this but a lot of other things also. Hopefully also helpful.

One of the things I hate right now is mentally I'm still completely falling apart and a mess but I'm also drained from being like this the past month I can't physically let any of the hurt out.

A strange twinge of hurt. Yesterday he sent me a text telling me good morning and that he was thinking of me/loved me. Today I didn't get that and if he was at home this is our evening together day.

Taking my first step to what I want with my life. Did two applications for full time photography jobs.

Okay, while all this drama is going on I'm going to try and also use this to not lose myself. Ask me various questions about who I am (either in here or PM) and I'll give them a post talking about it. But to get myself started: I'm a homemaker trapped in a 9-5 business world. Any time I work...

More messy feelings today. So Seven left today. My ear is horribly clogged so all the upset about the following I was able to pass off as just being in pain from that. 1) I'm scared about the fact he's leaving for a week while we are not in a good place. 2) I feel like he's disappointed in...

So I talk with Seven today on the way to the Shut-Ins. Wasn't the most productive I guess, but it was something. He doesn't know if he's going to be able to do the thing I asked because he doesn't know if Lamian will go for it. He also mentioned he's still working on trying to figure out how to...