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I've been thinking about not writing this blog anymore. There are a few reasons for this. 1) I feel like I'm hiding something from my partner(s) if I don't tell them that I'm writing this but at the same time I don't want to tell them because it's so private. I have ended up telling quite a...

I thought so too. :)

My situation was a little different, and I played a different role in the scenario, but I also have a bad experience with the kind of situation where there's one person who has developed a deep relationship to two people (your boyfriend) and then those two people become really close. My two...

Aaw, your NYE sounded really nice! I'm glad you had such a good time and that Willow and Oak seem to be treating you well. :)

I had the most amazing evening and morning with Marco. <3 :o It was his birthday the day before, so we celebrated together yesterday. I made him a candle light dinner with dessert and all and gave him his presents. We also exchanged Christmas presents since we didn't want to do that so early in...

Happy New Year everyone! I spent my NYE home alone. Well, I did see Marco for about an hour in the city, but then I went back home. This was a conscious choice. I was invited to two parties, but I didn't feel like partying. Marco had plans with Paige. I wanted to practice my self-reliance skills...

I'm glad you've updated us on recent ponderings and events, fuchka. Congratulations on the new baby, it sounds like you're very happy. :)

Thanks for your comment, fuchka, I really appreciate it. :) You make a good point, and I've also been pondering that: what do I want out of relationships. I do think that is a more important question than the specific model. Whether I'll be okay with poly long-term with Marco depends on what...

I've been doing a lot of relationship pondering while I've been away from home. I've had so many good, insightful conversations with friends and gained new perspective, although sometimes also conflicting advice. I feel like I'm more in tune with myself, able to listen to my needs better...

Thank you Leetah. :)

I'm now in Home Country, have been for a week already, and I'm here almost until the end of the year. So this will be another long break for me and Marco. We've been texting every day and it's been really lovely. :) He shows genuine interest in Home Country and said he'd like to visit it one day...

Marco had a date with someone new yesterday and I had feelings about it. And it immediately made me second-guess my decision to not do anything about the new interest I wrote about in the previous post. I don't know, I think I got caught up in an NRE bubble with Marco for a bit there, where I...

I've developed an interest in someone new, but I'm trying out this new thing of...not doing anything about it. :p I really don't want to spread myself too thin and I already have a lot going on. Marco recently asked me if I'm planning on going back to OKC in January when I'm less busy. I said I...

Nothing new to write about, I've been very immersed in my work and main hobby this week. But I felt like I wanted to name the couple I went on a date with because I think we will see each other again and I want to acknowledge their individuality and not just call them "the couple". I'll call the...

I had amazing two days with Marco. :) First we went to see two films that were from my home country. Marco noticed that they were showing this double bill and suggested it a while back, so we've had tickets to it for some weeks already. I love how thoughtful he is, planning and suggesting things...

When it comes to Hank-related feelings, I messaged my best friend and asked her to remind me of all the reasons why me and Hank broke up. She did a great job with that, that list of things was like a cold shower of realism, which is exactly what I wanted. So even though the feelings are still...

Thanks for your comment as well, icesong! Timing can be so important sometimes, so I totally understand if that affected the whole of the relationship.

I saw Hank today. We've met up a few times now over the last three months, ever since he reached out to me. Some of our conversations have been hard, talking about the past, but actually really constructive. He's been in therapy this whole year since we broke up and it's really done wonders. It...

Thanks for the comment, opalescent! It's always nice to hear that someone else feels the same as me. :) Some types of people are just not compatible with each other and that's okay, there's nothing wrong with either type.

Oh my god, the date with the couple went really well! We spent the whole day together, getting to know each other, sharing vulnerable things about ourselves and getting intimate. One member of the couple has had some bad threesome experiences in the past, so we wanted to be really careful around...