Search results

That sounds tough, Reverie. *hugs* You have big decisions ahead of you. Best of luck trying to figure out what you want out of life!

I've been thinking about Jasmin a lot recently. We've been texting a bit, I guess that's why. I miss her, and I miss what we had. Whenever I compare my past relationships to each other, the one I had with Jasmin comes up at the top of the list. She made me so happy, she was pretty much the whole...

I feel like I'm contradicting myself a lot these days. My feelings around poly and what I want out of relationships are kind of all over the place. Whenever I think I've reached a conclusion around this, I write it down here. And then something happens and I want something else again. I...

My visit to Noah's was lovely. :) We had great conversations, lots of cuddling and some nice sex. It was just really nice getting a bit closer to him. But it does definitely feel like a friends with benefits situation. I enjoy our physical closeness and we definitely like each other, but for...

I had an incredible evening with Marco yesterday. We went to see a great, sexy play and when we got back to my place we had really intense, bonding sex. It was a bit tantra-like, at one point we just slowed down a lot and looked into each other's eyes and just felt our bodies and each other. I...

I agree. There are people who are fine with doing this and don't find it difficult, but with your personality I can see how it's challenging. It would be for me too!

Also, I'm going to name Marco's nesting partner. Let's call her Paige.

Today I'm not anxious at all. My housing stuff is sorted, I got a place for myself, so for the first time in this city I'll be living all alone. Quite a change! I'm moving next week. Then me and Olivia texted some more and came to the conclusion that we don't want the same things out of this...

Thank you so much, PinkPig and Reverie, for the validation! I needed to hear that. When I talk to friends about this, they have differing opinions. Some think I move too fast in general and this Olivia thing was just one example of how I should just keep my cool longer. Some think like you two...

My anxiety has been through the roof the last couple of days. There are so many things happening at the same time that I can't seem to cope. I need to find a new place to live, I'm changing jobs going from an employee to a freelancer and I also have a hobby thing that I need to spend time on...

I'm back from the friend trip and it was... weird. Olivia had cancelled on me twice just before the trip, so I was feeling quite insecure about us. On the trip we basically behaved like acquaintances who had never been on dates with each other. It felt super strange and made me feel even more...

Thanks opalescent! :D

I mentioned earlier that the only people I want to have sex with at the moment are people I'm dating and a few friends who I have sexual feelings for. About that second category... There are only 3 people on that list really, and 2 of them are a couple. Last night was the birthday party of one...

It's nice to read about your latest news. It all sounds pretty good! :) I'm similar than you in wanting relationships to 'go somewhere' so it is really hard to just see how things go with someone without having a plan about how it could look like in the future. I wish you luck in going with the...

I had a birthday party last week. For the most part it was really nice. :) I only invited my closest people because I wanted a chill, intimate evening. I invited both Marco and Olivia, and this would have been the first time they would have met, except Olivia didn't come. She cancelled on the...

I agree with icesong. It's totally fine to take space if you need it, but do put a time frame on it. I've done that in previous relationships, and it has been really helpful.

I've almost said 'I love you' to Marco twice now. No matter how much I rationalise about should I love him or should I say so if I do, I think in the end the feeling will just come and the words will just flow out of my mouth and I can't stop them. One of these days I just can't help myself...

I had a wonderful date night with Marco yesterday. :) Good chats, amazing sex yet again, and just being close to each other the whole night. He really seems to adore my body, which feels great. I think Marco might be the best lover I've ever had. And I've had quite a few. It's not that the...

I'm sorry to hear about your recent struggles, Reverie. :( I hope it all works out somehow! *hugs*

I've had a very interesting two days. I had a date with Marco two days ago and one with Olivia yesterday. Both dates were kind of important in the narrative of these relationships. With Marco, this was the first time we saw each other in almost a month, and that made some feelings come up for...