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I have hit a really weird, and really really painful place. I think I'm losing my goddamn mind. I have always considered myself a pretty forgiving person. Like, I've forgiven a lot of shit that I should NOT have, and have certainly not taken time to be angry before forgiving. After having...

I can't wait until the basement's finished, so Grams has her own space. I NEED some peace and quiet, or I'm going to have to kill someone. :mad: A whole fucking MONTH at home, with no homework, should be a blessing - not a curse!

Thank you so much for the advice - all of you! :)

I've never been good at sticking to schedules. I'm too sporadic for that. I like just arbitrarily deciding to go out and do something, or whatever. I also remember having a difficult time making sure everyone's time lined up right when we had multiple school schedules to consider. I'm used to...

I suck at balancing time. Always have. I have very few friends. This has been true for a long time. I'm trying to change it. Those two things mean that I'm trying to make more friends, spend time with them, and not double-book myself every Saturday night. Before I met Karma, I went to school...

Been super agitated the last couple days. I had wanted to go spend the weekend at J's, mostly so I could have a Grandma-free couple days. Then stuff started fucking exploding in two towns near him, and it took them awhile to confirm that it was, in fact, not a terrorist act, really, it was some...

So happy for you two! :D

I've been so busy being sick that I haven't had time to post much. I'm most of the way out of the woods, though. I've had two viruses in as many weeks, and still have lingering feelings of ick. The journaling has kind of gone on hold in the meantime. A random observation I'd like to make...

I'm totally the wrong person to give advice to you or Karma on this particular topic. I'm shamelessly biased and probably being unfair because the people I care about were treated badly. I never clicked with Panda, never liked her, never trusted her. I have a hard time trusting women, and it...

It's not that I think they have nothing in common, and it's not that I think J has done nothing wrong. They both did things that really hurt the other, and I can see both sides. Both felt pretty betrayed once they got done trying to tear each other up. J has tried to apologize and tried to...

I typed up a huge update last night, and didn't actually post it. My distracted mind is not super functional, lately. I just shut the damn laptop and killed the whole thing. I've been journaling a lot, and I realized today it's a LOT harder than it used to be. I used to be able to simply write...

I didn't mean you criticized me for him taking on my problems, I meant you criticized me for not fixing them myself - I just didn't word that well. I'm not asking you to change how you feel. I'm just asking you not to call me juvenile and stupid because you're angry with my choice.

Karma stated not long ago that he needed to take time to handle his own issues, and needed to stop taking on other people's. That's something you'd been telling him to do for a long time too. Given the opportunity, I'll hide behind him when faced with harsh realities. I'm taking that chance...

Mohegan, you've admitted you don't get where I'm coming from, you've expressed your anger with me. I respect that. I am truly sorry for hurting Karma, and as a result, you. For once, get off your soapbox, and stop talking about me like I'm a child too stupid to make their own decisions. You're...

Lately, I've felt completely overwhelmed just about everywhere. I feel like I'm way overextended, and have spent energy I didn't really have in the first place - physically and emotionally. School has been a rough adjustment - the work isn't harder, the kids aren't smarter, there's just more...

My sort of ex-girlfriend and I have been back in touch, recently. We parted on good (or at least not bad) terms, and kind of fell out of contact. Lately, we've been talking more. She told me the other night that she still loves me. I still care about her a lot, but I'm terrified to lose one of...

So, Grams got sick around Thanksgiving, and I dunno if living alone for 20 + years made her forget how to handle that when living with others, or what. When I get sick, I generally quarantine myself, or at least don't do things like volunteer to be the one to set the table, or anything like...

Still running constantly. On Monday I've got a paper, my mask, coil pot, and possibly three dishes and four pods due. Tuesday I have two papers and some other homework due, plus I have to finish this recording debacle from the interview and send our interviewee a transcript for her to review as...

I thought I told you at Hound's birthday thing. Like, I'm almost positive. Right now, what she needs is to rest, I think. She does the same thing as me when she's stressed or grieving - doesn't eat or sleep for days at a time. Her friend did attempt - she went from the Pediatric Emergency...

Group projects still suck. I'm gonna be doing shit on my own, I guess, but make no mistake, I'm throwing ALL these bitches under the bus. One of the girls in my Farsi class (the awkward one) is apparently in the hospital, and has been since last Tuesday. Feeling hella guilty for being so mad...