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Infinity ended things with Mustang. My triad is over. So many thoughts, feelings, and emotions going on right now. We are transitioning to a functional V.

Pretty eclectic in what I listen to. Currently I bounce from Rob Zombie to Adele to Rascal Flats, some Eminem, Awolnation, Otis Redding, Drowning Pool, a little Nickelback, various country artists, and some Godsmack

Letting go and letting what will be, be. Not giving up, just not forcing anything. Not easy to do but i have realized i have to let things happen naturally and that I can't persuade Mustang to care for me more by doing what I have been. Going to be focusing on putting some energy into Infinity...

Let's go slow and see where it goes. Think that is one of the hardest lines to hear from someone you have feelings for and want a relationship with.

Yesterday and today have been very rough for me emotionally. I'm dealing with a lot and working on and through.

Well heck!!! I have been missing the forest for the trees. How did I not realize this before now! We have all been told if 1 relationship isn't working it affects them all. The realization of this has just sunk in. I knew it but it had not sunk in. I seriously have light bulbs going off...

Over the last few days I have bounced between frustrated and ok. Hopefully will have a date with Mustang this weekend. Last time we got the chance to spend time together 1 on 1 it was a really good day. Infinity and I have been up and down for the last week. It's mostly my fault because when...

I used to be like that. I made myself do it and I'm good with it now. I have moments but for the most part it doesn't bother me. I just had to do it more until I was comfortable with it.

Why can't people just say what they want?

Yes, I completely agree. Have experienced that myself. Currently I am struggling with one of my partners and it's difficult for our other partner to have to just watch it play out as we try to fix it.

Could it evolve into a v? If so you could still maintain both relationships. Not saying it will be easy to navigate at first because I'm in a very similar situation to what you describe.

Things right now are good. Life seems to be settling some and the chaos I was feeling has lifted at least for the moment. Christmas this year was spent apart. Hopefully in the future that will change.

Thank you.

Right now, I just don't know.

Confusion reigns!

Decided I'm not going to give up on my relationship with Mustang, but I am going to handle things differently. I'm at a new place after spending some time thinking. I'm a fairly serious and straight forward person. I don't play games with people. I have made it known to Mustang previously how I...

Today I am calm. That is a good thing.

Today is going to be hard. Coming to terms with the end of the triad I have been in. Trying to figure out how to supportive of both my partners and myself as we deal with the emotions that come from it ending. Hoping that Mustang will not decide to end our relationship also and if she doesn't...

Today I'm forcing myself to contemplate what life may look like without Mustang in it as my partner. I know that is a possibility and I'm someone that prepares for the worst while hoping for the best. Honestly don't want to consider what it will be like to fall back into a friendship only while...

So I had a previous blog here. I have decided to leave it be and focus more on where I am in my life. Basically use this as my journal. I'm sure some relationship stuff will come up but this is to help me sort through what I'm feeling and get my thoughts out. I guess the best place to start...