Well I thought this would be a good place to get my thoughts out and just daily stuff.
Current life situation:
B: 30yr straight male, boyfriend
M: 29yr old Female, B's wife
Me: 28yr old Female panxeual
L: 5 yr old son-from a previous relationship
J: ex L's father
Oh where to begin. I have been poly for about three years but never had such luck in finding a good stable relationship with people until recently. I've been in and out of mono relationships even when I knew I was happier being poly. I struggled for a little bit sticking to the "norm" (mostly because of fear of what my parents would think but they are very supportive) and being in one failed mono relationship after another. I took some time off from dating anyone until my son was older and I learned to love and appreciate myself and my life.
That's when I first met my current partners. I met them through a friend on a mmorpg about 2 years ago. I went to Nebraska for my friend's wedding last year and that's when I finally got to meet everyone I've made friends with through the game and them. Myself and B hit it off really quick, almost like we have known each other for years. But alas I held back because well the man was married and didn't think they were interested in poly so I kept my mouth shut. But I had an amazing time nonetheless.
Fast forward a year and B and I really start talking and getting to know each other better. The connection, the fire, the willingness to openly talk about everything, the...the just everything. We've learned about each others faults and still are. I've battled with severe depression and anxiety ever since I was 2yrs old and he's the first person who has actually helped instead of saying its a phase it'll pass. I hate that shit so much. We'll as time has passed I can't help these feelings I've had for him since day 1 but once again I kept my mouth shut. That's when suddenly he asks if I would be interested in being in a relationship with himself and his wife M. At first I was a little wary because the last 2 poly relationships just failed horrible because of lack of communication between the husband and wife. But after talking with M a quite a bit, she convinced me, she let me know they've been talking about opening their relationship for several years but never found the right person. But they chose me to open the relationship with and I felt honored and ecstatic about it. Its been about 2 months so the NRE is still in full swing and things are going pretty good, actually better than I thought they would. I've never had a relationship with a couple that had such an open communication and its wonderful! Myself and M are getting to know each other a little more and more and I swear she could be my twin. Our mindset is the exact same and sometimes we say the same thing at the same time... Its a little scary because I'll be talking on the phone to B and make a comment and she says the same thing haha! I feel sorry for B sometimes lol. I currently have a trip planned to go spend some time with them in July. They've even offered their home for me to stay at while I'm their so that's a major plus! Not only do I get to spend time with both of them but they also saved me about $400 for staying at a hotel. I really could go on and on about these two but I won't bore you
Any who, I've also come to realize that I would also like to be with someone who lives closer but I'm in no hurry because I want to be able to focus on my current relationship with these two. So maybe down the road it could happen. Who knows. I've been on a couple dates but they just don't have that same connection as I do with my partners. But that's the life right now and I really couldn't be happier.
Current life situation:
B: 30yr straight male, boyfriend
M: 29yr old Female, B's wife
Me: 28yr old Female panxeual
L: 5 yr old son-from a previous relationship
J: ex L's father
Oh where to begin. I have been poly for about three years but never had such luck in finding a good stable relationship with people until recently. I've been in and out of mono relationships even when I knew I was happier being poly. I struggled for a little bit sticking to the "norm" (mostly because of fear of what my parents would think but they are very supportive) and being in one failed mono relationship after another. I took some time off from dating anyone until my son was older and I learned to love and appreciate myself and my life.
That's when I first met my current partners. I met them through a friend on a mmorpg about 2 years ago. I went to Nebraska for my friend's wedding last year and that's when I finally got to meet everyone I've made friends with through the game and them. Myself and B hit it off really quick, almost like we have known each other for years. But alas I held back because well the man was married and didn't think they were interested in poly so I kept my mouth shut. But I had an amazing time nonetheless.
Fast forward a year and B and I really start talking and getting to know each other better. The connection, the fire, the willingness to openly talk about everything, the...the just everything. We've learned about each others faults and still are. I've battled with severe depression and anxiety ever since I was 2yrs old and he's the first person who has actually helped instead of saying its a phase it'll pass. I hate that shit so much. We'll as time has passed I can't help these feelings I've had for him since day 1 but once again I kept my mouth shut. That's when suddenly he asks if I would be interested in being in a relationship with himself and his wife M. At first I was a little wary because the last 2 poly relationships just failed horrible because of lack of communication between the husband and wife. But after talking with M a quite a bit, she convinced me, she let me know they've been talking about opening their relationship for several years but never found the right person. But they chose me to open the relationship with and I felt honored and ecstatic about it. Its been about 2 months so the NRE is still in full swing and things are going pretty good, actually better than I thought they would. I've never had a relationship with a couple that had such an open communication and its wonderful! Myself and M are getting to know each other a little more and more and I swear she could be my twin. Our mindset is the exact same and sometimes we say the same thing at the same time... Its a little scary because I'll be talking on the phone to B and make a comment and she says the same thing haha! I feel sorry for B sometimes lol. I currently have a trip planned to go spend some time with them in July. They've even offered their home for me to stay at while I'm their so that's a major plus! Not only do I get to spend time with both of them but they also saved me about $400 for staying at a hotel. I really could go on and on about these two but I won't bore you
Any who, I've also come to realize that I would also like to be with someone who lives closer but I'm in no hurry because I want to be able to focus on my current relationship with these two. So maybe down the road it could happen. Who knows.
I've been on a couple dates but they just don't have that same connection as I do with my partners. But that's the life right now and I really couldn't be happier.