Random Thoughts

[Inthedark]

Its tough when you start to believe that you don't have a shot. When you begin to think that there is no way to play against a deck that is stacked against you. It makes you want to give up. It makes you want to cut your losses. It makes you want to quit fighting. Even though everything that you hold dear is on the line, just the thought that the only outcome is failure makes it so difficult to keep fighting. Even when things seem like you're sliding back two steps for every one you take forward, it is possible to feel like you can still make some forward progress. But when you struggle and struggle to make progress but you remain stationary, that's when you just want to stop. I can't stop though. It's not in my nature. I just keep thinking that if I keep on grinding, keep on driving on, maybe I have a chance. But I think its over. I don't want it to be. But there is nothing I can do. I just don't think I can overcome this obstacle. Its just too damn tough.