Thanks everyone for your feedback, lots of great advice and perspectives for me to think through.
I agree with all of you that I do need to do some work on loving myself more, whether in or out of a relationship and not out so much pressure on myself, which is hard because I’m a perfectionist...
My husband and I have been together for 3 years. He’s been in the lifestyle for years, but it was all new to me. He also struggles with Sex addiction. He was always up front and honest from the get go about who he was and what he wanted, and I told him I thought I could handle this life.
But...