Recent content by poly4015

It is so true. The honesty of the situation is that no person or relationship is coming to save me from myself and my own basic aloneness. In this way, what grace and love and honesty life has shown me by letting so many relationships come and pass. It seems that my life is my most benevolent...

Mmmhmm..This taking respknsibility is no new concept to me, and maybe it seems like I place too much blame on festival girl in my writings here (and maybe I do), but I figure even if someone does come out and blatently do something aggressively hurtful towards me in intimacy, (wasn't festival...

The healing happens a little bit every day. :) Thank you for your kind words!

YES!!! Thats the part that makes it feel impossible to work on sometimes-the emotional scarring is so deep yet so fundamental that many of the problems that arise from my adoption (feeling disconnected and without my tribe, always wanting to either cling or run like hell, etc) have always just...

its a troubling thought but entirely possible...

Actually I was an alcoholic for 15 years or so, and I havent has a drop to drink in over 13 months. At this point, drinking doesn't even cross my mind 95% of the days, and when it does, it is a very fleeting thought so, I would say, and even feel like I am being honest when I say that in...

I think the peice of me that feels the most shattered is the piece that wants to find that kind of partnership, and the part of myself that feels able to identify/discern when that has been found. That part of me thought it had made a laser like discernment about this one, and thought it had...

I admittedly haven't been poly that long Really, I am in my first real open (I tend to identify more as open than poly) relationship currently. My primary and I have been together for 4.5 years and in that time had a couple secondaries each which really haven't caused too many waves in our...