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It’s been almost 4 years since I’ve heard his voice. We officially called it off in September 2020. The wedding website showed he met her June 2021, they were engaged October of that year, and married on the courthouse steps in January 2022. Seven months from hello to I do. I want to believe...

Getting back together won’t happen. He is far too hurt and angry. He won’t even reply to my random texts asking how he is. I mentioned I had sent him a text a few weeks back about the depositions. His reply was “K.” I am still friendly with my ex-fiancé (before Steel). I am still friends with...

“The best way to get over a man is to get under another one.” This may be true, but not for me. I’m just not ready. He was a nice guy, mannerly, funny, very easy on the eyes. Basically, he checked all the boxes, except for one. He’s not Sarge. Maybe I’m not really poly. Maybe I was just...

I have not spoken hide nor hair to Sarge in a long time. I had to text him regarding a deposition. We were both witnesses to an accident, and the depositions are coming up. But it was very professional and short. I can still feel his hurt and anger through texts. I have just resigned myself to...

Thanks, Kevin and Pink. I keep having these dreams where I “catch” Sarge with another woman. They wake me in a cold sweat. My logical brain knows he will meet someone. Hell, I even hope he does, and soon. But my heart hurts at the thought of someone else sleeping in my spot, or using my drawer...

I suppose I owe it to myself to close out this story. One day, I’m sure I’ll look back over it, and want to see the end. The end. Sarge and I had a wonderful five-night vacation in an exotic, tropical location. Lazy days in the sun, deep talks of the future, it was truly the most connected...

I can’t even process these words. I’m sorry you’re hurting.

Thank you! Same to you. Thanksgiving was a success. Sarge and J10 came, and it was fine. J15 was left at TED’s house, even though it was Sarge’s holiday. We knew he wouldn’t have any fun here, and would be too much for my parents. He was fine with it, since TED lets him do whatever he wants and...

Long time since I’ve caught up here. Life is moving along. Steel and I are wonderful, as usual. The Dumplings are fine. The house is done except for the inground pool we are about to put in. That should be a huge mess, and I’m looking forward to it being completed. Sarge and I are wonderful...

Poor Sarge was still hurting on Sunday. I got to his place around noon. We had a quick lunch, did some grocery shopping. I cooked dinner, and we were asleep by 9pm. He was still taking opiates around the clock and very uncomfortable. At 7am Monday morning, TED dropped the Juniors off. They are...

Thanks for the free diagnosis. My score is zero. I grew up the favorite child/grandchild of a very wealthy family on the UES of Manhattan. My parents are still married to each other, and I was never abused; mentally, physically, or sexually. If anything, the only childhood trauma I endured was...

Sarge had blood and urine done yesterday while at his at his PCP, since it’s been six weeks since his unprotected sex with random OKC woman. Results are in, and he is negative for everything they tested for, gonorrhea, chlamydia, syphilis, HSV 1 and 2, and HIV. I feel comfortable resuming sex...

I took a Sarge to buy a car Saturday. My cousin is the sales manager for our local Nissan dealer, and got him a great deal on a new car. By the time we were done with that, he was exhausted, so spent one last night at my house and headed for home Sunday. He was still in terrible pain and...

While I was driving my Dumplings to school on Tuesday, Sarge texted to say he was in a car accident and was on his way to the ER. I dropped my kids off and headed to the hospital. Holy shit. He was not in a fender bender. He was in a major crash. TED was at his bedside when I arrived, since...

Things with Sarge continue to be wonderful. We have spent time on FaceTime each night we haven’t been together, and it definitely helps us feel close when we can’t be together. I am wearing the ring he gave me on a necklace for now, it’s about half a size too big, and I need to drop it off at...

It hurt more than it did on day one. I messaged him. He was cold and distant. He warmed up a bit after a while. We talked. A lot. He was heartbroken, had done some stupid behaviors in his pain. He drank too much, met a woman online, had sex with her within hours, unprotected, even! It felt like...

I’m getting better, but I still hurt. We tried to be friends... to talk normally. It didn’t go over well. There is too much blame from me, directed at him. Why couldn’t he be stronger? Why couldn’t he see that his shitty parenting is the reason we can’t be together? Why does he allow TED to be...

It’s over. 37 months we made it. I have a lifetime left to go on. My heart is broken. Today it feels like I’ll never smile again. But I know I will. One day. Junior13 is just a lost cause, sadly. I can’t be in a relationship with someone whose child I cannot be around. A mother? Sure. A...

Things are not great. Sarge and I are taking a break. It 100% has to do with J13, and TED. Unfortunately, J13 is off the rails. He is becoming more like his egg donor each day and I just can’t stand it anymore. Last time I saw him he complimented me on my weight loss. He then followed it up by...

Sarge’s sweet cat is now on the other side. I am so glad I was able to be there. I have never had the strength to stay with my own animals in the past, but knowing Sarge couldn’t be there without having a breakdown made me stronger. When the time came to pay, I took his debit card to the...