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So much for my bucolic existence. MtG went well, but afterward I mentioned that I had heard a "Not A Sex Party" (even though at this point with the amount of sex that goes on at them I should just call them sex parties) was coming up, since Spice had mentioned it, and Guitarist asked me if I...

Life continues to go well. We're having Magical and Pea out tonight for some MtG. I think I might actually play this time. On Monday, I graduated to every-other-week therapy. Even with the Guitarist stuff, I've managed to stay surprisingly stable. Hard to imagine that about a year ago, I was...

I've been out for almost as long as I've been open with Guitarist. I just can't stand being closeted. The secrets. The fears someone will find out. I have to live my life authentically, it's very important to me, more important to me than maintaining my straight couple privilege. The only place...

I'm still in a very zen place, even though I slept like crap last night. I have counseling tonigh, grocery shopping with Guitarist tomorrow, a date night with Raven Friday, and then a funeral for my former coworker Saturday and maybe a poly meetup. This is how boring my life gets when I'm not...

Yay!

My hormones have been all over the place. Turns out Raven is having her period early. Since we're basically on opposite cycles, that means I'm ovulating. Ugh. The older I get, the more ovulating starts to feel like Period Time Light (only in the senseis shorter-lived), complete with sore boobs...

I normally don't try to give advice on blogs, but I have some thoughts and you seem responsive to feedback here... so I guess just let me know if I'm overstepping. You seem to be protecting a lot of "should"s on Rider right now without giving a full benefit of the doubt to what he's actually...

I tend to post less when things are going well, or at least normal, don't I? I guess that's because this is mostly a processing blog for me. It probably gives the impression that my life is one string of drama after the other, hahaha. Lately, things have been... I don't want to say boring...

So Guitarist says that the thing with him and Magical is "an interest thing." I'll take obvious for 100, Alex. But at least they talked about it. I'm very excited to have Spice and Spicewife out to my house for board games. Even if nothing else, it would be a great excuse to pick up pizza. But...

I did want to add that the only things it seems to lack are a victory point tracker (so it's hard to see who is ahead and by what, which I suppose plays into the less competitive aspect of the game) and a victory point tally sheet (come on guys, all the other kids are doing it!), so I'll...

It's a fun worker assignment game with a sort of D&D-esque storytelling element. It's kind of simple, but I really like it. And it's easier to learn than A Feast For Odin, which is another worker assignment game and my current absolute favorite. It's also not highly competitive, so while there's...

I'm dubbing Guitarist's new interest Magical. I'm going to have to give her partner a different moniker than the usual naming scheme because MagicalPartner is just too long and awkward. I think I'll dub them Pea. So yes, the friendly MtG game and coffee turned into a what are you doing next...

Wauuuugh my period hit like a ton of bricks. It's impossible for me to get comfortable and I'm so very tired even though I slept a solid 8 hours. Yesterday, I ate everything in sight, but today I don't want to eat anything even though I'm going out to lunch with Poker. Raven is the best. Instead...

Hormonal like crazy. I want to eat everything and also blow everything up. Fortunately, I know better than to make major life decisions when in this mode. Tonight is Guitarist's date night with Spice. For me, that means some delicious home alone time. He also mentioned going to play Magic...

Having one of those days. Last week was intensely socially busy, after a huge socially busy weekend. I think I did something social every day except Tuesday, which was my sole relaxation day. I'm not going to relate all the things, but I played a lot of A Feast For Odin, which is an amazing...

My office neighbor died unexpectedly over the weekend and I have to go to work today and I'm really dreading it. Life is so short and fragile.

*dances around to the sound that is new car* Also I had zero panic attacks while driving three hours to the dealership that my brother-in-law works at, even though driving to a new place in holiday traffic would have previously given me like seven. Therapy and medication are amazing...

I'm both extremely tired and feeling better than I have in a while. My weekend is going to be a lovely mix of down time and social time. First, I've planned for a couple weeks to see Tiny on Friday. Friday is Guitarist and Spice's date night this week, so we're all going to hang out together...

Maybe write him a long, heartfelt letter? For me, writing things down is a lot less anxiety-provoking than trying to talk to someone in person about something. PS. As someone with anxiety who is actually getting treatment now, I'll say that treatment is really great and the things that I...

The weekend went pretty decently. It was nice to see Raven on Friday night, even for just a short amount of time. It pretty much always is now that my brain has moved on from its wanting to force that relationship into a different mold place. I also had a great time with Emma. We hung out...