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  1. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    When I first heard of Mono's cheating, the first time, I admired and was jealous of the cat, Georgia. She would waltz into the room and greet him face to face on the couch where we sat, full of love, while I was tormented by the anguish of the demons I discovered that he knew were there all...
  2. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    My ex, PN, wrote a post on FB asking what we look for in a relationship. I took it upon myself to really consider where I'm at with anyone coming into my life. I have added to and released people from the list I made subconsciously. I have become more certain about what I want in my partner from...
  3. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    Thanks for your concern. I don't mean to make anyone worry about me. I talk about my death more often than most. It's a running joke at work that I tell everyone what to say at my funeral: "She's an absolute joy!" hahahaha! Cause I'm not. ;) I was seeing several therapists last year and stopped...
  4. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    Death is a funny thing to observe. I've experienced a lot of it these past years. Several friends, several pets and several ends to relationships. My observation has been that if someone dies, then support comes in the way of gathering together (at a funeral or celebration of life) to surround...
  5. redpepper

    Humble suggestion

    You're right. They do owe it to your niece. I agree. Good for you for being the bigger person. I applaud you. I am glad your niece has a friend and confidant in her uncle and that you are big enough to rise above your concern to attempt to meet her where she is.
  6. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    double post
  7. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    New love in my life? My motorbike. I ride the same route almost daily, if I can, even when the weather sucks. I find that I am completely grounded and focused when I ride. The tourists are gone now, and so are the cruise ships. But there are always people by the ocean and commuters coming home...
  8. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    My mother says she's worried about me because I seem depressed and lonely. I spend a lot of time alone now. That is vastly different for me. I do struggle daily, but I'm doing okay. This is part of what I wrote back to her on grief: "I'm watching myself change and my life change with it. I...
  9. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    I can speak to a few things. I have no idea about a lot of it and would be guessing. Here's what I know and feel is okay to share. PN is now female. Leo's around and we chat from time to time. Derby-- no idea what she's doing but I know she dated Brad for some time after we broke up. Brad--...
  10. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    "I believed our relationship was a palace, a fortress, capable of withstanding everything. I thought of it as a mystical, misty, gemstone-covered, mountaintop retreat. And you, you made a mockery of it by what you did, made it into an IKEA showroom, complete with people coming and going from our...
  11. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    You know what the really good news is? There is someone out there who will rock my new little world like no one ever has, and I can feel that growing. So excited! :D In the meantime, I am content to ride my motorbike, enjoy the love in my life already, build my strength up, do stuff I have...
  12. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    First of all, thank you for all the replies. I love reading them all. I just don't respond that often but I do see them Thank you for this well thought out list that describes many of my thoughts. I appreciate that you took the time to write it out and to put yourself on the line for a little...
  13. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    It's been over a year since I kicked Mono out of my life, folks. Soon it will be a year that PN left and then a year since she started her journey to womanhood. It's almost been a year since I've been in my own house, in my own world that revolves around me, a year of facing my demons alone. I...
  14. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    LB finds out about his dad, PN's transition to female today. I'm really having a hard time coping. My coping skills are nil these days. Too much change.
  15. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    Double post.
  16. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    I really like your point here. I understand more clearly now. Thank you. I asked him about this, and he said he believed at one point that all women would do him wrong. It was almost a reactionary thing. His sister says he had a chip on his shoulder and he agrees. He had an accident earlier...
  17. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    I'm not sure I understand what you are saying here.... could you elaborate please? thanks. ☺
  18. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    thanks. I hope so and can see the possibility. ☺
  19. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    I have had someone in my life now for 6 months. I have been cautious about talking about this man, but I feel prepared to share more about him now. He has been single for over ten years. He has kept himself busy working (driving truck) and attempting to get time with his son. He has fought with...
  20. redpepper

    Redpepper's journey

    My boy has turned into a man, complete with moustache, stinky towels on the bathroom floor and a deep voice that bellows through the house. He is protective of me. I feel my age now as I grow shorter and older before his eyes. I have to wear reading glasses to help him with his homework! The...
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