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Interruption, current retrospect in my head I’ve been thinking about why did I block out a lot of what I wrote here after meeting Sir. The biggest slap in my face is actions and words said to the kids without mentioning it to me first. That’s where Bassman and I went wrong. I know I tried my...

this is so true Magdlyn that is so true. I sense it in myself as well versus how I was 5 years ago.

The real next chapter Hmm, where to start. After realizing while going through grief from the breakup of my D/s relationship it hit me I had never finished the grief process of my marriage ending with Bassman. It was the day when I was mourning the loss of trips the Dom and I use to take was...

This is a great discussion and after reading all the articles and comments it hit me that as we “relationship” differently (we are of course all independent individuals) we also “love” differently. And what we forget is that’s okay. I love each person I’m in relationships with, whether...

Thank you Leetah! It’s nice to feel welcomed. I will heed your advice. A timeline sounds appropriate. Jan 2015 Bassman officially moved in with Wild Orchid Jun 30 2015 he texted he wanted a divorce my response was “ok” Jul 19 2015 started dating a Dom until May 2017 Divorce finalized jul 2016...

My last post from August 2014 I just stopped reading, writing and learning. I went into survival mode. I will admit the months between then and 06/30/15 did not get better. By July 1st 2015 I accepted his text request for a divorce with an “ok” back. Now I’ve found my journal there’s so much to...

Hello everyone! I’m Ali. I was here previously in 2013 to 2015, had just opened my marriage to poly and posted often. I’ll get my “journal” updated. 😊 life has been interesting through divorce, the few relationships I experienced since then to now. Let’s just say I ran from polyamory with my...

Check out fetlife. You'll find some groups there. Also facebook might have a few.

Hi...it has been awhile. Lots going on.

wrong way to phrase Hmm...I don't think poly is bad for kids in general, just the issues in my marriage, that came from poly, have affected the youngest and it's not just poly, but a ton of things that has caused some regressive patterns for her. She's now back in daycare, which her big sis has...

Ugh. I don't think I'm poly. I'm not sure how one "decides" that they are capable of loving more than one or not. A year ago I felt that I was. Yet in retrospect, I know bassman and I needed to work on us. Hindsight does me no good now. What I fear is my new guy will sweep me off my feet and due...

Life with bassman is going good. Repairing our relationship is definitely a lot of work with tons of patience on both sides. I started reading The Five Love Languages. It is very insightful and the concepts are amazing. I believe bassman is a words of affirmation love language and I'm quality...

poly hell It's interesting to me how an article I read about a year ago http://www.kathylabriola.com/articles/are-you-in-poly-hell is forgotten while actually living it. When I first read that, bassman was in it (and I wasn't even dating anyone) and in a few months, the roles reversed and I...

Fingers crossed this last month of my marriage is over to we're working on it back to over is done for good. Hubby does love me, does want to work on it. He had a very intense bad dream Thursday night in which a friend was trying to kill me. He killed the friend. When I picked him up last...

Thank you copperhead. Last night was horrible for me when princess came home. She kept telling me she wanted wild orchid, that wild orchid is her family. I let bassman know this and he said no one told her that. Um so somehow a 3 year old was not told by anyone during her time away from me that...

Its so hard to fall asleep and stay asleep. I was fine at work until bassman called me, yelling at me. I only answered because I thought it was princess. Yesterday my mother-in-law called. Bassman had told her we're separated. She let me know how much she loves me. I start crying and was asked...

Mags I'll be your break up buddy. I have so much empathy for you right now. Hugs I've started a new blog and in there, today, it is over between bassman and i. I know it's for the best even if, in moments, it's hard to accept. I need to grow and find myself. He needs to really pull his head out...

The title....bassman did leave me his key so I won't be "worried" he'll try to take it. Come on just sign the title and put me on it. Why string this out? I just remembered we'll need a witness to our signing the separation agreement. Hmm...may have to get wild orchid to be such person. How...

Heartache, worries and what not. We, Bassman our kids and their friends went camping on July 29th. A few days before that I made a post called "Feeling Trampled On". As I said in that, I was in a place I could not post under this username. It seemed like up until today the relatonship with...

My last post on this blog It's been quite tumultuous around here. The weekend was long with tons of grieving. I haven't had much time with bassman all last week. He needed the weekend for thinking, me for crying. Sunday we went over a ton of things: resentment, not forgiving truly letting go of...