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    Wide Awake

    It is 3 AM, and I cannot sleep. I have so much on my mind. I need to get my heart under control. My past is like a tear on a vintage, bespoke Versace gown that a seamstress has been unsuccessful in repairing permanently. To the outside world, it looks flawless and ready to wear. To me, I know...
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    Confessing a Past Affair

    My moral fibre and conditioning are whispering, "Tell, tell, tell." However... In either scenario, if he tells her, he will cause an unbelievable amount pain, unnecessary hurt, and possibly lose his marriage and family. If anything, he might feel even more guilty after telling her. (I have had...
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    Wide Awake

    The adoption rate is sad. For known adoptions which includes foster carers, step-parents, or a relative, the total number might have been 5-10 for the year. The number of all adoptions for the entire state is usually under 60. I have never lived in a country where adoption is the last resort. If...
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    Wide Awake

    Can I Breathe Now? Thank you both! Yesterday was stressful, but I am glad it is over. It was interesting and informative. There was nowhere to hide, and all eyes were on us. We were forewarned that even if our social worker had recommended us for approval, it would not matter if they were not...
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    Wide Awake

    The meeting is in a few hours. Nervousness has taken over. I had the chance to talk to other adoptive parents who succeeded at gaining approval. Most say the home study has nothing on this. One described their panel as all over 50 and likely to have not parented any child in this generation...
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    Wide Awake

    I generally have an aversion to holidays. I am learning to make a big to do about them because of my children and their insistence. If I had my way, we would be tucked away at a resort in the middle of the ocean with limited to no cell coverage, WiFi in the room only, spa treatments, plenty of...
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    Wide Awake

    Good morning. Happy Easter to those in the States and Happy Easter Monday those who celebrate it. I am in excellent spirits for no other reason than the fact that I woke up today and was given the chance to try my hand at this thing called life again. We are back in Oz after a whirlwind hols...
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    Wide Awake

    We made it to London on Sunday afternoon, and it has been wonderful to be back. I have especially enjoyed visiting our old haunts like shopping on King's Road, waking up and seeing Regent's Park, Bubbleology, LouLou's/5 Hertford, our friends, our family, and our home. We are staying in our...
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    Wide Awake

    Not much going on. I have pneumonia again. I found out after about five days of feeling bloody horrible. My symptoms are quite similar when I have a cold or allergy/sinus issues, so I was not overly concerned until I started sounding like a wheezing dragon. How the hell did this happen again? I...
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    Truth & Consequences

    I am following your story with great interest. I love the way you write. It has pulled me in and caught my attention. This: When you get to that light, it is the best feeling. I found joy at the end of a very dark tunnel. Nobody can take it away from me because I fought for it. I made some...
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    Tales from the Time Share Wife

    I suppose it is an adjustment of sorts for Nate. Maybe in due time he can forge a friendship with Sam. How much interaction do they have? Is it always awkward, or are they a bit more at ease now? As with all things, give it time. I am happy that you are happy, and I hope it continues to go well...
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    Wide Awake

    Yes, it rings true. I am somewhere between two and three. I let go of the pain when I was able to release it and stop holding it in. I could jump up and down on the furniture in my therapist's office and and yell until I am blue in the face, but it was more of a release to actually say the words...
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    Wide Awake

    Matt's great aunt said that last weekend. My SIL asked her if she was looking forward to the royal family visiting in her city, and her response was, "Everyone in that family and all generations bred from old money have won the lottery. Take what's-her-name. She delivered the future king. Women...
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    Wide Awake

    Adding that to the list of reasons why he continues to be my fave. He has sweet moments. I agree wholeheartedly. I certainly feel better now that I am not carrying that weight around, and it has been almost 24 hours later. No sudden resurgence of anger. Disliking her was hurting me more than...
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    Wide Awake

    I wish it was an egg. Cadbury would be after my heart. :D $180 for a chocolate bar. I was seriously considering buying one. My dentist would have a fit if she saw that. I did something yesterday that needed to be done. I finally had a sit down discussion with my ex. Si e-mailed me weeks back...
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    Wide Awake

    I have heard of people getting rejected for the most mundane of reasons, so I know what we are up against. Our hearts and minds said yes. Nothing in my life has followed any sort of path the past year. The only thing that was planned was moving half-way across the world. Other than that, I never...
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    Wide Awake

    It is $135/day for our son's nursery. He goes four days a week, and they only give one free week per year. Quick math will reveal we pay more for him to go to a nursery than some students spend on tuition at uni. It is cheaper to have a nanny here. We only pay the nanny for what she works. If he...
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    Wide Awake

    I thought about it quite thoroughly. What is worrying going to do or change? I was worried because I was unsure of what certain people would say. I omitted a whole damn book in my romantic life. How would it look if brother-in-law dearest mentioned that one ex that we all failed to mention? He...
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    Poly and aspergers syndrome

    I am sorry that happened to you. Your request to be in the loop was realistic. Especially when it is something that could affect you. You have the right to be upset and hurt. I hope you heal from this and do not let it sour poly for you. Hugs.
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    How to deal with mono partner? tips for him and me please!

    I second and third the aforementioned advice. My advice: keep going to therapy and quit pushing. Your husband has told you he is not happy with the arrangement. Thus, him dating another woman is not the answer. Especially if he is mono. You are not accepting him or his stance if you think dating...
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