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Ugh Ganga is feeling overwhelmed and I’ll need to link my post about emotional codependence I posted in the general section. Here’s my text to him just now: Hi Ganga, I've been thinking a lot about things. This should be in person but that would defeat the point of my decision. I...

He and I spoke last night. He’s definitely needing space to sort where he’s at out. How he is feeling is all over the place. Our in person conversation was good. He expected me to yell at him (not in context to this post but I let him know his comments to me Monday evening regarding seeing him...

Thank you. I have shared the article in that thread with Ganga a few weeks ago. I do not know if he’s read it or ignored it. I did discuss in the email more of what my “love” statement(s) are my feelings and they’re deep and intense yet without expectations of changing my autonomy nor his. I...

Is it possible to become emotionally dependent on someone even if you don’t live with that person? My partner Ganga mentioned prior to meeting in person that’s what he likes about polyamory is it frees him from that. Last night he discussed with me how he’s feeling, over extended. It is 3...

11/04/18 the fwb pono to 12/25 To keep myself focused I’m writing out the timeline with Pono and some details of why he’s not in my life as a fwb at this time. Day 16 until Day 17 of meeting Ganga, no interaction with Pono. Day 23 11/11 Pono texts, we chat. Day 24 another Pono text “So horny”...

Adding more while in NRE, maybe not Background on the 29th of Dec Ganga and I went to WR a local swinging club. WR GUY is in the kik group organized by Cute B and Ms Kitty. WR Guy doesn’t kik much but I checked out others profiles. I found him as one of a few men I find attractive. At WR he...

the drive home Sat 01/19/18 Ganga and I went to Violator's (while at her house I decided I needed to change her name...I've forgiven and don't want to recall her from this day forward violator anymore...but she will be that in my tale of NYE - so what I will call her is Ms Kitty). Ganga and I...

Day 12 10/31/18 to.... Day 12 I sent Ganga a text saying Happy Halloween, enjoy and stay warm. Day 13 still no response from Ganga...and that was okay. Like he said, if I ask a question he will respond but a statement etc like I sent...well he may not respond. Day 14 Friday 11/02/18 I text...

Hook I was just reading from April 2014 in my little quirks journal. Hook out of the blue contacted me on pof. Took me a bit to remember him. We flirted this summer via kik but that was it. Prior to that he contacted me right when I met the bf dom. It’s weird but former lovers are...

couldn't edit INSERT THIS IN THE PREVIOUS POST WHERE I MENTION JUBILANT KISSING GANGA ON MY BIRTHDAY ANOTHER EDIT: Oh yeah...the next day she texted me but did not mention the kiss. JUBILANT: Good morning, you. Hope you had a great night. heart emoticon (Well duh...both my...

Day 11 & a few days ago Day 11 - 10/30/18 A Monday and Ganga has his kids. No contact with either Ganga or Pono. I went out for a drink with Jubilant. I bought her dinner and drinks. You know, she said she'd buy me a birthday drink and as of today, she still hasn't reciprocated. I'm okay...

Ali & Ganga the first (how many days I can write until I have to start a new post) Back to Ganga and Pono.... Great thing for texts to jive memories or make them clear instead of slightly hazy. Day 1 was 10/20/18. Day 3 of meeting, I send a text letting Ganga know I've been thinking about our...

10 more Junes Maybe sooner since Princess (the 2nd grader) will be graduating high school or sooner when Bassman and Wild Orchid will not be an intrical aspect of my life. Today’s trigger. A little about my industry. Income taxes. This means since last Monday the 7th of January I’m working...

You’re welcome I briefly thought about changing ex hubs name due to the confusion it could cause. You’re welcome. The links are definitely helpful since the past is part of the present, at least for now and the future. If no children then my past might not be so needed to remember. Hopefully...

blog from temp profile So for the full encompassed history, here is my other block under a different name. I explain why I had to do that in this posting. But it's still a part of me so I want to include it here, again, for myself. Going back over my history is making the present feel so much...

wrong bassman Mags - my "Bassman" is someone different here now. In my blogs I didn't use his profile name from here. My ex's profile here is "blueeyeddevil" http://www.polyamory.com/forum/member.php?u=94119. I saw a user profile with the name "Bassman" but he signed up after I had here...

link to first blog I thought I'd put the link to my first ever blog in here for reference. I may write about things from the past. I'm so over that but for learning more about myself, reading this helps me constructively deal with current feelers. Now I hope I put this in here correctly. I...

Ganga and he's just yummy Ganga...where to start? So the Sunday before the scheduled date with Adonis I felt an urge to check out locals on okc. The profile name said "john" (now a days okc makes us put a name rather than a username on our profiles) and I clicked in to read his profile. The...

Bye bye Adonis I met Adonis the Monday following Labor Day. It was lots of hot sexy funafter we ate the dinner I cooked. We cuddled and chatted a little after. I sensed a difference is best I can describe it as we were making plans for our next date. A day before date he rescheduled. By that...