floundering
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I am finding that writing gf so many times is weird. So here is a chart.
me=me
my primary love= Bea
Bea's new gf = Carrie
Last night, Carrie broke it off with Bea, because we made a demand that Carrie meet me before she went on another date with Bea, because I was having terrible times, and wanted to meet her to try to see her as a person, not a monster. I don't know if Carrie will stick to the break-up. But I hope for another chance to make just Bea and me work.
I don't feel like I "won." Winning would have been if Carrie would have met me and we could have worked things out. But now, just too many mean things have been said about me by Carrie, including that she is afraid of me. I don't even want to meet her now. So I may be finding myself again alone with Bea and the relationship I need to work on. I can't fuck it up this time.
Previously, due to fear of losing my kids and a major loss in my life, I withdrew from Bea. I can't ever do that again. I need to work on this relationship. I just wanted to let you all know that in my previous thread, "help me, please," you were all so supportive and helpful. I hope and pray that the things you have taught me will serve me well in making this most important relationship work.
Thank you all for your help. I am always willing to get advice on being a better lover, partner, friend, etc. Best to you all. I don't plan on leaving here just because we are going to go mono. You are all too kind to leave.
me=me
my primary love= Bea
Bea's new gf = Carrie
Last night, Carrie broke it off with Bea, because we made a demand that Carrie meet me before she went on another date with Bea, because I was having terrible times, and wanted to meet her to try to see her as a person, not a monster. I don't know if Carrie will stick to the break-up. But I hope for another chance to make just Bea and me work.
I don't feel like I "won." Winning would have been if Carrie would have met me and we could have worked things out. But now, just too many mean things have been said about me by Carrie, including that she is afraid of me. I don't even want to meet her now. So I may be finding myself again alone with Bea and the relationship I need to work on. I can't fuck it up this time.
Previously, due to fear of losing my kids and a major loss in my life, I withdrew from Bea. I can't ever do that again. I need to work on this relationship. I just wanted to let you all know that in my previous thread, "help me, please," you were all so supportive and helpful. I hope and pray that the things you have taught me will serve me well in making this most important relationship work.
Thank you all for your help. I am always willing to get advice on being a better lover, partner, friend, etc. Best to you all. I don't plan on leaving here just because we are going to go mono. You are all too kind to leave.