Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love

The kittens did great at the vet, and I am going to go pick them all up with PunkRock when he gets home after 3 pm today. One crazy thing, my favorite, Penny, is a boy. He's been renamed Conky for the week, so that's the name he'll be listed as at PetSmart this coming weekend!

Last night DarkKnight, PunkRock and I had our State of the Union meeting and it went really well. Everyone is on board with my plans and figures and next year looks great! I have a list of stuff to follow up on, but it is all things I had already listed and planned to do already. :)

I need to color my hair, but all I currently have at home is a bottle of developer and no actual color. So at some point I will need to run over to Sally Beauty Supply and buy some. My gray roots are back! I need them gone before I travel and see everyone in NY this weekend.
 
Yesterday was pretty great. I finished up working on my master list for my WarMachine models. I made a spreadsheet showing every single model I own, what state it is in (needs based, primed, painted, etc.) and if it was broken or missing a piece, I made note of that. I also have columns that list what I don't have, and how badly I desire a particular model. :) This is really important, as PunkRock is putting in an order with Privateer Press soon, and I have a bunch of bits and cards that I need. I am also getting the Silverline Stormguard upgrade kit. Plus, I have that $35 gift card to spend at the game store, so I have a good idea of what I'd like to order from there as well.

Anyway, I had been needing to make this list, because I have SO many models. I had actually forgotten I owned quite a few, and was excited to see them. lol I think this is good sign that I have a problem! lol I am hoping to make time this afternoon to finish up painting a few of my models and decide which one gets started next. I am not finished with the My Little Ponies, but I am sort of burnt out on those at the moment, so I am going to focus on something else for the time being. I think I will paint my newest caster next, because I have been playing her unpainted the entire last journeyman league, and if I play in the league in November, I will be using her again.

Enough about WarMachine. :)

Last night was pretty amazing. PunkRock came home from work and we left immediately to pick up the kittens. We got them resettled in their room in the basement. Penny (now Conky) was SO out of sorts and not like himself. He was startling at every little thing and just so jumpy. The others were crazy hyper, which is what I had really expected. So, yeah, we dropped them off, gave them some loving, and then went to dinner. Mission BBQ opened in our town, y'all!

This is pretty great because PunkRock and I had our first date at Mission BBQ in Glen Burnie. It was neat to go eat there, but at a different location. Holy shit, I was so into PunkRock last night! We were eye fucking each other from across the table, and talked about our first date and our NRE and how we are so happy to be together now. I was wiggling in my seat!

We had gone out to that end of town to get my hair color and some mice for the snake, but the pet store was out of mice. We went home and PunkRock chillaxed on the couch while I went upstairs and got my pajamas on. When I came back downstairs, I climbed up into his lap and we made out and had some playful snuggles. I got REALLY turned on, and he was pretty excited too!

I had to break it off though, and I then went and fed the kittens and played with them some more. Penny was much improved, and Jambi fell asleep on my lap. That cooled me down considerably, though PunkRock was naked when I went up to bed. We had some parallel screen time, and then we watched some fail videos together until DarkKnight came home from his choral practice and said goodnight.

Then, yep, yummy sexy times commenced and oh my was it wonderful.

I've actually been very satisfied with my sex life this week. After I was sick last week and stuff, things had cooled off between me and my guys. They are always so considerate about that when I am ill. Like, I never feel guilty or pressured to perform. They just roll with it. I feel really good about that. Anyway, this week has been eventful - I mean, last night was amazing and PunkRock and I had just had a hookup on Sunday. I think I was with DarkKnight on Saturday - yeah, I feel content with the frequency at the moment. That said, I would be happier if it was every day, but I am not displeased. lol

I feel loved, and desired, and understood.

Things lately have been good all around.

Today PunkRock actually called into work. I got up though, and had breakfast on the couch with DarkKnight. Good news - the last auto deposit I had been worried about with my bank funded this morning, so my banking issues with WarMan are no more. Which honestly, was how things were supposed to go. We have our system set up so if we need to make changes like that, it should be relatively painless. And it was, except for him gaslighting me and trying to tell me that I had told him everything would be separated in a single month. Thank goodness I had my message history to prove to myself that I had never said that! So yeah, anyway, the deposit happened flawlessly and I am glad of that.

I paid my student loan this morning but then realized I couldn't pay any other bills, as my debit card is upstairs in PunkRock's bedroom. I'm too lazy to go up and get it, and that's ok because he is sleeping and I'd be a jerkface to disturb him. So I will have to schedule time this afternoon to finish paying things. I think it's the water bill (around $400) and the internet bill ($80). I need to reserve a hotel room for PunkRock and I to stay at in Baltimore later this month, for his cousin's wedding. DarkKnight already took my portion of the cash toward our trip to NYC at the beginning of next month. Oh yeah! I have to order yard waste stickers - our garage is full of leaf-stuffed bags and grass clippings. I need to schedule a pick up date with our trash company on those.

So, bills today. I also need to color my hair. I will do that after lunch, and then shower, and then pay bills. That sounds like a good plan. I need to grade my Astronomy class quizzes. Since we don't have class this week, I have been slacking on doing that! But mostly, I do want to get painting done. I was also talking to my daughter about decorating the yard for Halloween. The bin is up in the attic, so she'll have to get up there and drag it out. I am scared of heights, so she is the ladder climber in this house! lol She has been doing next to nothing as far as anything around the house lately because she's been working. It's ok though, as I've had time to be a little more domestic. :) Yesterday I decided to focus on two things that would make my guys feel good - I put away all of their laundry, in their respective bedrooms - and then I loaded and started the dishwasher, and cleaned off the kitchen island. I am SO not a housewife! Still, it made DarkKnight really happy. His love language is acts of service, so me doing household chores is something that will always bring a smile to his face!
 
Got caught up on the show WestWorld last night with both my guys, and we played my new Joking Hazard game that just arrived as well. I had bought in during the Kickstarter, and it's always exciting when a package arrives! :)

Tonight the kittens will have their last visit at the clinic to get microchipped. I have to set up their adoption folders and the large travel crate for Jambi and PeeWee's trip to NY. I am already sad about traveling all that way by myself! Still, it will be over before I know it, so I am not stressed.

I am going to do some running around today at Sam's Club and the grocery store.
 
I have so much to write about and so little time! I have a few minutes so I will write about my upcoming trips, since that is fresh in my mind.

I booked my hotel in Baltimore already, for my overnight with PunkRock on Nov 29. His cousin is getting married that evening. PunkRock and I are sure we want to go to an art museum the next day, but we need to nail down which one and our plans. There's this Hawaiian Burger place we love, and we might do lunch or dinner there on Sunday. Right now, I have the cash but no time to go get an outfit for the wedding. Maybe this Tuesday?

DarkKnight and I just booked our hotel for our NYC trip - Thurs Nov 3 to Nov 6. He is super excited because he has never been there. We are going to drive up and stay in Newark, NJ after DarkKnight finishes work on that Thursday at 3:30 pm. The hotel is set so now we just have to plan everything else! We figured out the cost of an uber back and forth from the train station on Friday and Saturday, and the cost of the train into the city. All told, the transportation is around $100. Craziness, but it is what it is. The birthday party we are attending is Saturday night, so it's exciting that we will have all day Friday and almost all of Saturday to do the touristy thing in the city. I need to get a block of time to sit and plan where we are going and what we are seeing those days! NYCIndy maybe we could say hi! 😀
 
Omigosh, I'm so glad you gave yourself a good chunk of time to be tourists. I always recommend a Circle Line boat tour around Manhattan - a little pricey but no matter what the weather is like, it's a great way to spend a couple of hours. I'll let you know about other things I think you might enjoy. My schedule is wide open now, and I don't know what it will be in November, but I'll likely be able to meet up and hang with you for a bit when you are here. Let's PM closer to the date about it.
 
The Staten Island ferry is free, doesn't require reservations, provides a majestic view of Manhattan and goes right by the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island. You'll also be down near Ground Zero and can visit the very moving and well designed 9-11 Memorial (which is free) and the Museum (which costs), should that interest you.

If you're in the Gramercy Park neighborhood, stop in at my favorite store, across the street from my second favorite store. The first store is a great place to grab a bite or a drink. It has a wonderful lower level eatery that few tourists know about.
 
I make sure to go to Ground Zero every time, but I've never done the Staten Island Ferry. That sounds perfect - can't beat free! :)
 
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Right now I am waiting for it to be around 2:30, because that's when PunkRock will be home. He's bringing me lunch, as he gets off work at 2. I'm starving and trying to wait for him to arrive with food! DarkKnight is currently at D&D, and my daughter is at her sex ed class.

I don't even know where to start with Friday and Saturday. My extended family - seriously. Sigh. Ok, well, I left more or less on time for my drive up to Canandaigua, NY, and things went smoothly with the two kittens I was transporting. I met up in the library parking lot around noon, where I handed them over to their new owners. (One of which was my oldest daughter, who was standing in to grab little Jambi for her best friend. She told me my Tshirt was amazing, and that's always nice to hear!)

Anyway, after dropping off the kittens, I went over to my mom's apartment complex, which is the same rent-controlled old folk's home where she used to live with my dad before he died. She's in a different apartment, since she moved in with my sister for about half a year, before moving back because she couldn't take the drama there. (In case you don't remember all that nonsense and stress.)

My mom was REALLY glad to see me, and she got me started almost immediately on the Medicare/Medicaid paperwork that she had asked me to look over for her. She was very anxious and worried and just generally a mess over it, but I made her be calm and quiet while I read over everything. It literally took me one phone call and about 20 minutes to get things straight for her. Thank goodness, because I had thought I'd be there all afternoon! Most of the papers were advertisements trying to get her to use different medical services, and were just straight trash. Anyway, the end result is that my mom will start getting Medicare on January 1, and since she is poor, Medicaid will pay the entire premium. My call out was to her current Medicaid social worker, to confirm this fact. So yay! I helped my mom and it was relatively painless. :)

My mom asked me straight up if my door was still open. Right now she is really worried about being alone during a Hillary presidency. I kid you not. She had Fox News blaring a couple of times during my visit, and it made me cringe, and not just because of the volume. (My mom has really bad hearing loss.) She told me she never sees my sister, and only gets to see her grandkids from her when my sister needs a sitter. This is not a surprise to me. She also said that she thought my brother was going to move with his girlfriend and 1-year old daughter to a town 20 minutes away next year, and then she'd never see them either. So, she doesn't want to be alone and wants to know if it is possible for her to move back in with me.

Guys, this hit me like a ton of bricks. She was laying on the Catholic mom guilt hard, and all I could do was focus on how lonely and sad she was. I was freaking out in my head, but I told her calmly that she knew that we were buying a house next year, so I wasn't sure what the bedroom configuration would be, or if we'd have room, but if we did, then yes.

After saying this, I was like, what the fuck?! Why did I say that?! Then I texted both DarkKnight and PunkRock. PunkRock was like, I don't even know what to say, and DarkKnight told me that we would have to have a family meeting and that he recommended that we not have her move in because it would cause my mental health to deteriorate.

That was the end of that conversation, for a while, for reasons I will share in a bit.

I then took my mom grocery shopping, and I went to Wegmans for a late lunch. We went to where my dad's ashes had been spread out in the lake, and we sat and talked for like an hour there. It was really nice out, and it is SUCH a pretty spot.

After that, we went to my brother's apartment and visited with him and his little family.

Will return with a new entry soon.
 
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Oh, the Ferry is great, too, especially since it's free. But there's no tour guide. Circle Line has a few different options, but the one I like best takes you all around the whole island of Manhattan, and the tour guide is on loudspeaker telling the passengers about the history and trivia about the buildings and land while we pass by them. I've also taken their Statue of Liberty cruise. The tix range from about $27 to $38 or thereabout, but they're so good! And there's a snack bar.

Once I took my stepson on the Circle Line and a thick fog rolled in at a point where we had cliffs on one side and an old marina on the other, up by the Spuyten Duyvil Creek, and we couldn't see any buildings. I felt like I was seeing the channel the way the Dutch settlers did (except for the graffiti on the cliffs). My sister went once on the Circle Line and the boat had to stop on the East River until the police finished fishing a body out of the water! :eek:

They do have different types of tours:

https://www.circleline42.com/

https://www.circlelinedowntown.com

You'd probably really love the Shark Speedboat: https://www.circlelinedowntown.com/shark#2017-05-27/2347672
 
Sorry, my mom called in the middle of my writing.

Um, anyway, we visited with my brother and then went back to my mom's. I ended up not seeing my sister at all because her family is down with the stomach flu and I was not about to get mixed up with that nonsense! Instead, my mom and I spent the entire evening online, looking through ancestry records together. It was super-enjoyable, and she was very excited to see how I actually work on the computer to find the information I share with her. It was actually very helpful, because she usually tells me on the phone that she doesn't understand why it takes me so long, and why aren't things finished? lol At the end of the night, she was like, oh my goodness, we spent all those hours on 3 people! lol She totally gets it now!

The next morning, we said goodbye and I met my oldest daughter again, this time for breakfast. We had a good couple of hours talking about her plans and life and I was so glad to be able to see her!

That said, in the beginning of our meal, my mom called to tell me that my brother had called her, and that his girlfriend was moving out, saying that my brother was a drug addict and back on heroin. My mom was really upset, saying that this is all a lie, and that my brother loves his daughter too much to do drugs. I cut my mom off gently, and told her that I would have to discuss it later, but that in my opinion, his girlfriend was in the best position to see what was going on in my brother's personal life. Certainly more so than my mom or me.

GAH! To be honest, I was actually VERY uneasy when talking with my mom on Friday, because she shared not one, not two, but three stories with me about how my brother had recently asked her for money that just didn't make sense. One was that his truck had broken down and he needed money because he spent grocery money on the tow. My mom gave him $100. Even though, you know, his girlfriend's dad has AAA and they could have gotten a tow for free. We know this because that's what they always use. And, after his truck was supposedly towed, it magically repaired itself and started working with no further issues. Hmmm.

The second instance was that he went grocery shopping with my mom, and then he couldn't use his debit card, because his bank balance was zero. My mom paid $200 for his groceries on that occasion, and she said that apparently someone had "hacked" my brother's bank account, and the bank later gave him a new debit card. I just stared at her. I asked her if he had filed a police report, if the bank had researched where his card had been used, and you know, they usually are insured for this sort of thing. My mom said that no, all the bank did was give him a new debit card. Though, she didn't actually see the new card. It's just what my brother said. I told her that if suddenly my bank balance was zero, I would be calling the police.

So yeah, his stories get more outrageous and don't add up whenever he is using. I think he probably is.

This is important, because if girlfriend moves out, and my brother can't afford anything, my mom won't even consider wanting to move away from that shit show. She will support his downward spiral 100% in the sad spirit of enabling. He will NEED her, and that will trump her own - and his - best interests.

I am so glad to be back home, two states away.

Don't get me wrong, I love my brother very much. I will drive him to rehab, and do whatever he needs, if he were to try to get clean and get the help to straighten out his life. But there is nothing I can do to help otherwise.
 
What else is going on? Three of the five PeeWee's Playhouse kittens have found homes, but we still have Reba the Mail Lady and Conky. (Conky is the kitten who used to be called Penny, until we found out he is a boy!) They have moved upstairs to DarkKnight's room, so we can use our new steam mop on the basement room and clean it thouroughly for the next set of kittens we will be fostering. I am spamming the hell out of my Facebook in hopes that someone will adopt one of these little goobers. Conky went to a PetSmart adoption event on Saturday, but it didn't happen. Apparently he was really stressed and didn't interact with anyone there. Since I was in NY, we sent him with a worker from the shelter. To be honest, I was glad. He's my favorite and I really want to keep him. Sigh. I am such a terrible foster mom! Anyway, I should hear tomorrow about other adoption events this month so I can get these two last bitties re-homed. Maybe Tuesday or Thursday we'll pick out our next batch to stay with us. I want them a little older, so they will be gone from here before Christmas.

DarkKnight finished reading to me The Time Machine yesterday, so tonight at 8 pm, PunkRock suggested we all watch the movie from the 60s. I've never seen it, so I am looking forward to that. The three of us played a game of Joking Hazard tonight with my son, while he was here doing laundry. We talked more about him coming up to NY with me at Christmas. Oh! And DarkKnight picked up the new Betrayal at the House on the Hill expansion for me today! PunkRock had a $15 credit at the other game store in town, so while DarkKnight was at D&D, he spent $10 cash on it. :) Whenever i told PunKRock he was a little miffed, but I said, you know the word Betrayal is right there in the title! Lol

I think we are going to carve pumpkins this weekend. Today I decorated the front yard for Halloween while everyone was gone, and then tonight I set up Halloween Town on my dining room server. We love the Nightmare Before Christmas, and ever since PunkRock moved in, I make sure to set up his super cool miniature village. What I love about it is that we can put it out at Halloween and at Christmas! Oh, and also today I went to Sam's Club, and bought our Halloween candy to hand out. Three boxes of full size candy bars - 72 bars in all. We just will shut our light off when we run out! I like spoiling kids on Halloween.
 
Oh! I am awake! Back to the grind of my Astronomy classes. Actually, the only part that I find ugh is the grading of the quizzes. I have a stack staring me in the face that I'd rather not have to slog through, but oh well. This week's classes are dark energy, dark matter and the end of the universe. I love this lesson, because so much of it is very new to the kids usually, and I can see it generate so many questions and just this sense of wonder. I mean, most kids come to me with either zero knowledge of Astronomy, or with a LOT of information about planets and space travel. But none yet have arrived with a firm grasp on the math of cosmology. I think it's the most fun part of Astronomy! So, I love this week. I downloaded a 2-part BBC documentary to watch that was aired this year; one is the beginning of the universe, the other is the end. We'll watch the end today.

I need to send my daughter out this morning to buy AAA batteries for my pumpkin trees - the Nightmare Before Christmas village isn't complete without the pumpkin trees! I also need to pay the water bill, but my checks are in my purse and I can't locate my purse. That's a little bit of an issue.

I went through my closet last night an decided NOT to buy something new to wear to the wedding at the end of the month. I have a dress and some leggings that I think will work. Honestly, I hate the idea of spending money on new clothes for this size of me. Blech. I say this after eating two donuts and some chai for breakfast.

I just spent a good 15 minutes reading a forum about mortgages and I got excited again about house hunting. While I was in NY, DarkKnight got a letter from TransUnion (one of the credit reporting agencies) that they had deleted the last medical bill tradeline from his report. So that credit report is completely ready to go now. I was jumping up and down excited about that. The only thing I can do now with that report is to improve his utilization on his credit card and the way that I do that is have him leave a $2 balance on it. I messaged him this morning, but he already paid this month's statement in full. Having the card report zero is NOT the best way to go, so he knows now to let $2 carry over next month. I am awaiting a response from the two other credit reporting agencies. Both reports have one more negative to disappear, and I am hoping that they will respond back this week.
 
Squeee! I received both credit report letters last night in the mail, and both deleted the negative information! I was bouncing up and down excited and happy. Now I need to pay $50 to get DarkKnight's credit scores and new copies of all of his reports. I REALLY don't want to spend the money, but I am also dying to know how much the scores have improved. The only thing for me to do is let his new credit card age until we are ready to buy the house, but I may take a look and try and tweak some other things, if I have the time.

Last night PunkRock and I went and picked up our new foster kittens. This time we have a 3 year old mommy named Cookie, and we named her four babies Waffles, Scrapple, Biscuit and Cheerio. They're about 6 weeks old and were born at the shelter. We looked at the other kittens, but they were the largest litter and I felt sad they had never seen anything but a cage. The shelter really is at capacity too, so us taking them meant a spot opened up for another cat or group of kittens. I think this will be our last group until after we move. I am hoping they will be big enough to be adopted out at Christmas.
 
Dammit. I spoke too soon. I just purchased the scores and reports, and one credit bureau only deleted ONE of the medical tradelines, instead of the pair. An oversight on their part, but one I should have anticipated, since another credit bureau did the same thing a few months ago. So, today I need to write yet another dispute letter. At least I know it'll come off. Just another month waiting though.

Overall, I am super happy. DarkKnight's scores are up by at least 60 points across the board - with the FICO 8 scoring model - and when I look at the scores mortgage lenders use - he's up a hundred. Stupid medical debts that shouldn't even exist! Glad we had the time to sort these out before we went for a mortgage. The interest rate savings will be enormous.

That said, keeping track of all of this is a pain in the tookus. I've been shuffling papers and computer screens for an hour and now I need to start writing the dispute letter!
 
I took a nap yesterday afternoon and then went out with PunkRock for dinner. Panera Bread - I hadn't been there in a while and I loved my Autumn Squash soup! Afterward, PunkRock and I walked around the craft store, followed by the Halloween store. But we didn't buy anything. We ended the night out with a trip to Sweet Frog. It was a nice, low key evening.

We returned home for some snuggles on the couch, and then DarkKnight arrived, fresh from his choral practice. The three of us watched the latest episode of WestWorld - wow, things are certainly going to shit there quick! - and loved on all of the kitties that wanted to sit near us during the show.

It was my sleepover night with PunkRock and it had been a few days since we had had sex, so we got reacquainted with each other's naked parts when we retired to bed. Mmmmmm. I love this man's body and the way he knows how to work mine!

So, that was my evening yesterday! Today I don't really have a lot of plans yet, other than I will be teaching from 12:30 to 3:30 this afternoon. I am about to go hangout with a DarkKnight during his morning break and figure out what we are doing for our date night tonight. If it's as nice out as it was yesterday, I'd love to go do some Find-a-Grave walking. I guess we will see!

The new kittens and their mom are settling in fine. They are much smaller than cats we have had in the past, so that's super adorable! They will need to go to the clinic tomorrow night for their first set of distemper shots, and for deworming. We haven't had any issues, but the shelter does it for all the babies, apparently.
 
DakKnight and I left the house as soon as he finished work yesterday and spent the entire afternoon driving around the area, looking at houses I had saved on Zillow. In our town there is now only one I would consider, and it isn't the best option because it only has one bathroom. Depending on the layout though, we could destroy an extra bedroom and enlarge the existing bathroom and create a second in the space. We only looked at the outside and at the neighborhood, so who really knows. It didn't have me jumping up and down, anyway. Which I suppose is a good thing since we wouldn't be buying for a couple months yet.

After all the looking, we went to dinner at Boston Market. It was still light out when we finished eating, so we decided to drive to a neighboring village and take a look at a new listing I had just saved recently. We both really liked it, though it did have some drawbacks. I have been thinking about this house on and off since then. It's on the main drag if this little town, and though it is zoned residential, it lists in the ad that the owner can apply for a commercial variance - it used to be a mixed use building the last time it was inhabited.

The main floor of the house has a twin sort of set up - when you open the front door, there are rooms that mirror each other to either side - both were used as a store front. Those rooms both open up into another set of rooms of a similar size. Like, the house is divided in half by a staircase as soon as you open the front door, and to each side of the staircase there is a living room and dining room. Then, on the one side, beyond the pair of rooms there is an ok sized kitchen with a breakfast nook that would work to use as the only dining room, if needed. There are 4 bedrooms upstairs and 1 1/2 baths total in the house. The size is good for us.

If we didn't use the house as a storefront, we'd have a living room/dining room on one side, and then probably a game room and PunkRock's art studio space on the other. But if we DID want a storefront - it's a good location to consider as a cat cafe, that we have kicked around as an idea for a while now.

After I posted about seeing this house on facebook - just a comment that we saw a house in this town but we're going to keep on looking, a homeschooling mom that I am sorta friends with (we just have different aged kids so we don't interact a lot, not that we dislike each other!) responded and said she had looked at that house and would be interested in renting the storefront space and that we should talk. Lol Honestly, if we held off on the Cat Cafe idea for a while (a couple of years) while we were updating the house, we could rent the storefront out in the meantime, and it would bring in extra income...though i never really wanted to be a landlord.

More than likely this house won't be available when we want to buy. I responded to my friend that we weren't going to seriously look until after Christmas. Which is true. No use getting worked up and making plans until then. We haven't signed on with a realtor to look inside places because it's such a waste IMO to bother with that when we aren't ready. Oh, and it looks like the house is actually priced under value, so i am sure it won't sit. It's at the top of the price range we wanted to spend anyway.

Still, it has been interesting to turn over the what ifs in my head! PunkRock and I are going to go to look at it this afternoon - again, not because I am super serious about this property, but because I really want input from both my guys whenever I see something that might work. When I have their input now, that can help me rule out properties in the future. :)
 
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I've been positive and upbeat all day, but as of the last hour, I've been anxious.

PunkRock and I had a nice afternoon. We looked at the house DarkKnight and I visited last night. He seemed to like it ok. While we were there, the old owner (not current owner, but the one who sold the property to the current owner) walked across the street to talk to us. He told us all sorts of things - he was a very nice old man. We came away feeling more positive about the house, but neither of us feel like we need to rush our pre-approval process with the bank or go nuts trying to secure this place.

We also went and looked at the one-bathroom house, but again, not much to say. Oh! It has a hot tub out back, and we were discussing how much it costs to remove an old hot tub, and how any purchase contract should definitely include the property owners having it removed. I lifted the cover, and a smell of chlorine wafted out, along with HEAT. The house is vacant, yet the sellers left behind their working hot tub. I seriously wanted to climb in right then. I mean, they weren't home. lol Anyway, that made this property higher on my LIKE list. :)

DarkKnight and I took the new batch of kittens to the shelter clinic tonight to get their weights taken, and they all got a dose of dewormer. They are too small for their first shots yet - all but one weigh under a pound. We arrived 20 minutes early and were second on the sign-in list, and it still took us an hour and a half to process through the place. By the time we got home, we decided to say fuck making dinner and instead, we picked up PunkRock and went to dinner at Ledo's. I was craving chicken wings! What was funny that we saw our friend from WarMachine there with his wife, so we sat near them. Apparently, PunkRock was voted the best sport in our latest Journeyman league! PunkRock was shocked, and I have to say I was a little surprised. Though, honestly, he's awful nice when he loses. lol When I think about it, however, he did lend out some of his painting templates and offered lots of advice to newbies. So it's not like he doesn't deserve it.

So, we had a nice dinner, and then we came home. I have been researching and reading up about mortgages and the thought of all the paperwork and issues ahead - I am just crazy anxious now. I am trying to calm myself, but I keep thinking about all the things that could go wrong, and what if we don't get approved. I am stupid though, seriously, because the absolute worst is that we'd just sign a lease and rent for another year somewhere if something did go wrong. It's not like we'd be penniless and unable to find a place to rent.

It makes sense to be anxious and nervous about buying a house - we're about to be tying up almost $20,000 in cash in a downpayment and choosing a place that we plan on living for many years, if not the rest of our lives. It'd be surprising if I wasn't anxious, right? Mostly I am excited because I think of all the positive parts, but I get sidetracked when I think of things fucking up, because it'd be my fault, since setting everything up is my job, you know? Sigh.
 
Sooooo weird today. I woke up when DarkKnight got up for work at 5:30, and I stayed awake until 8:30, just sort of aimlessly websurfing on my phone until then. I decided to take a nap until DarkKnight went on break, at 9 am. Well, he didn't wake me up! He came in on his lunch break - at 11. Now I am all out of sorts, and my phone is like a brick, because it died and now it doesn't want to take a charge. It's been plugged in since then, and it's now almost 1 pm. Stupid battery.

My to-do list for today is on that phone. I am trying to remember everything I wrote, but you know, I wrote it down so I wouldn't have to remember! I'm going to go upstairs and shower soon and hopefully the phone will turn back on and work again finally. This is sort of ridiculous, and I need to just go take it someplace already and get it fixed.

I am feeling a little less anxious about mortgage stuff today. I talked to PunkRock about my feelings last night, as he went along with me when I drove to pick my daughter up from work at 10:30 last night. He told me I just needed to realize that there is nothing I can do - my worrying will have exactly zero outcome on anything involved with our mortgage. And, yes, if we fail to find a house, or if financing gets screwed up, he would be disappointed, but that life would go on and we'd rent a place and try again.

I KNOW that is a completely rational response, and it did help a little bit. Hence the little lass anxious part now. That said, I feel out of sorts about my phone, and having to pay bills and budget today, and having to run errands when I can't remember what all of them were. lol Today is just going to be one of those days! I also feel achy, so some of this may be due to the change in the weather - it's overcast and rainy, and my arthritis hates that. Oh shit, am I old? Ugh.
 
Um, ok? I'm not looking for any relationship at all right now. The two I have with my husbands are actually really good at the moment.

Yesterday I was out of sorts with DarkKnight. I was upset about my phone and he was not helpful, saying all the wrong things. I told him to just stay away from me for awhile, because I love him lots but my attitude was terrible. I think I bummed him out, but it really was the best thing. I knew I was being irrational and I didn't want him in my line of fire.

PunkRock took me to the AT&T store to have the phone looked at that afternoon, he got some WarMachine paperwork laminated, and then we went to dinner at Red Robin. The evening was great - I was much improved, as I realized my sour mood was being enhanced by my lack of eating anything all day. When we returned home, the three of us played Catan, which I hadn't seen on the table in AGES. I won, but the game was a good time for everyone, I think.

So, my phone is completely dead. I have to call a repair place in Chambersburg on Monday and they are going to replace the battery. $59. I have insurance through AT&T, but they'll just mail me a new phone for $50. With the repair place I have at least a chance at recovering all of the photos and notes that aren't backed up to the cloud. That is my main concern - I have a lot of writing and poetry that is local to the phone, so if I just get a new phone, it'll be lost forever. I figure for $9 more, I'll pay it to have a chance at least!

I am not quite sure what my plans are today. I might go to the game store tonight and see if I can get some painting done. I still haven't spent the $35 gift card I won through the journeyman league.
 
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