xxRenaxx
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Hi, my name is Rena. The past few years I've been involved with a man who is poly. Prior to meeting him, I really had no knowledge of the lifestyle. A lot of mistakes were made in our first attempt at a relationship and saying that it ended badly is putting it lightly. While I suffered through heartbreak that I never thought I would feel again, he and I kept in touch as friends. This was very hard on me as I still saw him as so much more. Towards the end of the relationship I began going to therapy and was diagnosed as being bipolar and suffering from depression. On top of this, I also suffer from low self esteem and being insecure. Eventually, I was going to therapy regularly and put on medication. It helped some, but my problems made me do self destructive emotional things to either myself, him or one of his girls.
After the breakup, I tried to piece myself and my life back together. Some days were good and others not so much. At the same time, I tried to conduct a friendship with him. Several times we tried to get closer again and once more my demons would rear their ugly head. We didn't talk for a while and then one day he reached out to me. I could be wrong, I may have messaged him first. I can't quite recall. Anyways, we talked and I found out that one of his girls had left him and he found that she never loved him. I was angry that she had hurt him and at the same time I wanted to hold him in my arms. Things kind of just restarted from there..us just talking. He talked to me about her and I shared what I had gone through after our break up. There was a lot shared, good and bad and a lot of tears shed. Weeks and months have passed and now we are together again; granted its not quite like I want. But, I also know that things can change..its just going to take time. Being patient has never been my best thing, but for myself and for him I'm doing my damnedest this time around.
Sorry, for being so long winded, but I just wanted where I've been and where I'm at to be known. I'm really looking to make some friends. I am a bit shy, but once I feel comfortable I have no problems opening up.
I hope to speak with some of you all soon..
Rena
xo
After the breakup, I tried to piece myself and my life back together. Some days were good and others not so much. At the same time, I tried to conduct a friendship with him. Several times we tried to get closer again and once more my demons would rear their ugly head. We didn't talk for a while and then one day he reached out to me. I could be wrong, I may have messaged him first. I can't quite recall. Anyways, we talked and I found out that one of his girls had left him and he found that she never loved him. I was angry that she had hurt him and at the same time I wanted to hold him in my arms. Things kind of just restarted from there..us just talking. He talked to me about her and I shared what I had gone through after our break up. There was a lot shared, good and bad and a lot of tears shed. Weeks and months have passed and now we are together again; granted its not quite like I want. But, I also know that things can change..its just going to take time. Being patient has never been my best thing, but for myself and for him I'm doing my damnedest this time around.
Sorry, for being so long winded, but I just wanted where I've been and where I'm at to be known. I'm really looking to make some friends. I am a bit shy, but once I feel comfortable I have no problems opening up.
I hope to speak with some of you all soon..
Rena
xo
