BirdbutnotaPenguin
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I recently moved to Thailand to be a teacher, and im absolutely loving it. For the summer I was teaching Preschool, but for the rest of the year I teach chemistry and physics. I became really good friends with the other high school science teacher, and she introduced me to another teacher about to start- ill call him Teach for the purpose of this site.
So Teach and I hung out a few times while my other friend was present, but it was very clear that there was an intense attraction between the two of us, so we started flirting back and forth. I told him im poly, and he loved that about me, and has the same views on love an relationships, though not exactly poly.
We ended up sleeping together, and hands down- best sex of my life. Its EXTREMELY new. Like a little over a week since we started sleeping together. And im riding that NRE train hard.
But school has started and we aren't telling people at work because its literally been a week, and we dont know what the gossip culture is like. We hang out a lot and I feel really comfortable talking to him about my needs and expectations. He also agrees that what he have is really intense and worth it.
The problem I am facing is that while we are at work, we obviously still talk and hangout- but im having to subdue that NRE giddiness: if you know what I mean. And its creating this emotional drain on myself. Because I want to go up and hug him and kiss him but obviously I cant. And we go out and do a lot of group things off campus with other teachers, but I still feel like I cant be myself. Its just a feeling im not used to- since my past two serious relationships were long distance.
He is also a very attractive man, and the other female teachers are very clearly interested, which doesn't exactly bother me. Yesterday myself and another teacher went to his house to meet his dog, and shes made it very clear shes interested, so I even left early to give them alone time if they wanted it. Which felt really good- I like to be able to actively practice my values.
But this issue comes from that my partners in the past have been like 'oh im with Bird so you know..' but I dont know if thats going to be the case here. Its something we clearly have to talk about. But it is so new, and im not trying to overwhelm the poor man.
I guess because we aren't telling people, im afraid that I will be left out. That I won't be known, and because of that, some of my needs will be neglected. Personally, I dont like taking new partners while in NRE with someone, so that I have the proper attention to devote to building and forming the connected, but thats not something I expect from my partner. this is just a strange situation, where I cant be totally myself because work presents a problem.
Thanks for reading !
So Teach and I hung out a few times while my other friend was present, but it was very clear that there was an intense attraction between the two of us, so we started flirting back and forth. I told him im poly, and he loved that about me, and has the same views on love an relationships, though not exactly poly.
We ended up sleeping together, and hands down- best sex of my life. Its EXTREMELY new. Like a little over a week since we started sleeping together. And im riding that NRE train hard.
But school has started and we aren't telling people at work because its literally been a week, and we dont know what the gossip culture is like. We hang out a lot and I feel really comfortable talking to him about my needs and expectations. He also agrees that what he have is really intense and worth it.
The problem I am facing is that while we are at work, we obviously still talk and hangout- but im having to subdue that NRE giddiness: if you know what I mean. And its creating this emotional drain on myself. Because I want to go up and hug him and kiss him but obviously I cant. And we go out and do a lot of group things off campus with other teachers, but I still feel like I cant be myself. Its just a feeling im not used to- since my past two serious relationships were long distance.
He is also a very attractive man, and the other female teachers are very clearly interested, which doesn't exactly bother me. Yesterday myself and another teacher went to his house to meet his dog, and shes made it very clear shes interested, so I even left early to give them alone time if they wanted it. Which felt really good- I like to be able to actively practice my values.
But this issue comes from that my partners in the past have been like 'oh im with Bird so you know..' but I dont know if thats going to be the case here. Its something we clearly have to talk about. But it is so new, and im not trying to overwhelm the poor man.
I guess because we aren't telling people, im afraid that I will be left out. That I won't be known, and because of that, some of my needs will be neglected. Personally, I dont like taking new partners while in NRE with someone, so that I have the proper attention to devote to building and forming the connected, but thats not something I expect from my partner. this is just a strange situation, where I cant be totally myself because work presents a problem.
Thanks for reading !
