On again---off again---on again???

Ummmm...We are definatly NOT "on" again. S and I work together. Thats all.
 
@TL4- I apologize. I responded to your original post which I now realize was done back in March and there have been a great deal of things that have changed in between. :)
 
No problem. LOL Yes, a LOT has changed and happened between now and then. Unfortunatly. :(
 
Well damn...I have just now accepted that I am most likely bi-polar. :s EEK! Makes it a bit more difficult to have a "normal" relationship doesn't it? Sure am glad my wife puts up with me! LOL We DID say "for better or worse"....So maybe that's what it means. LOL Sigh......

The other day...I just gave completely up on every trying to talk to D again. in fact, if she says "hi" to me, I'll likely just walk away and not say anything. I've been nice and cordial, and TRIED to start up conversations. (the few times I've seen her in the last two months) and she has no part of it. Sooo.....moving on now.

I used to think that if someone was special enough, you try until all efforts have been exhausted. Well.....NOW...I feel that all that does is make you tired! LOL :D And now I'm moving on.

If I had the money today, my family and I would probably move to another state. Now I'm on a mission to get the money up to move. Not out of state, but move and not let S or D know where. If we see them at the store (not likely, but possible) we'll probably look the other way and walk away quickly. Of course, since I WORK with S...it makes it a bit more difficult...but I'll figure SOMETHING out I guess.

Now...am I supposed to be depressed today? or happy and excited? I'm so fucking confused! :p Right this moment, I'm just tired.
 
Holy crap! A day of clarity!

Today I am neither manic nor depressed. :D I am "normal".

With that being said, today, my motorcycle wouldn't start, so....I was forced to not go in to work today. (Oddly enough, after I called in, I got it figured out and started) Not working with S was nice for once. Not thinking about D was even better. :D

Plus, I have a woman who is interested in meeting me on Sunday, off OKC. :D Got my 65 Mustang running and drove it around a bit today. I did that as a back up in case the motorcycle won't start again tomorrow. :rolleyes:

Anyway, not sure if my next mood will be manic, or depressive.....but until then, enjoy me as a "normal" person. LOL
 
LOL Jade, if I could I would. ;) My wife and I are actually so close, that when she has a headache, I can often take it from her. Kinda weird, but it's true. All I have to do is think about it. I've done it on more than one occasion. :D
 
Ok, Today...S and I were working together....as we always do. I asked him why D never really "talks" to me when she comes into the shop. He said that she didn't want to "piss anyone off". I told him that he was the only person who would get pissed off. He held up his hands in a defensive posture and said "Oh, I wouldn't be upset at all. She won't piss ME off." I told him that HE was the reason why everyone was not talking anymore in the first place. Then I turned around and walked away before I got REALLY upset. I need a new job.
 
Ok, after today...I've decided to close this part of my life.

Not the poly part....No...The S & D part.

Today, D came to the shop...again. I avoided as much as I possibly could. I deliberatly didn't look at her, and wouldn't talk to her. However, I was forced to see her eventually. It seemed as though S was deliberatly trying to place us in the shop together....GRRRRRR!!!!!! I made the mistake of actually LOOKING at D. She looked at me, smiled and winked. I turned around without any kind of expression, and walked out of the shop. I need a new job......

A little background on me: about 4 years ago, I placed my adoptive parents into a vault in my mind. I don't contact them or even really THINK about them. I figure that the phone rings both ways, and if they REALLY want to get in contact with me, my phone number is all over the internet.....It's not hard to find me.

I'm at that point with D now too. I have placed her in the vault....and as soon as I find another job, I'll place S there too.

I will not respond in this thread anymore after this post.

So...Good by D.............I loved you. :(
 
rumble........rumble........hmmmmmm.......Thought provoking
 
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