So as they say....let's start at the beginning....
As a teen I couldn't stay in a relationship longer than 3 months as I was interested in more than one person at the same time and would end up fooling around with another boy and then ending things or ending it before I cheated.
There were a couple of main players throughout my teens and early 20's that played a significant part in my development or are people that I still remember fondly.
Throughout high school I had two male best friends - The Hulk and Thor. The Hulk always made it known he was interested but I just never felt that the spark was there. It was Thor that held my fascination and for years my heart. I dated other boys, lost my virginity to one just after my 15th birthday but it was Thor that I always pined for.
There were two other significant boys that seemed to come in and out of my life as a teenager. Sid Vicious was one of those guys that you never really had any intention of dating but somehow ended up with anyway lol.
He dated nearly every female friend I had and we finally worked out how he did it years afterwards. He always prayed on us when we were at our weakest - rejected by other boys and sad and lonely, Sid would swoop in with a shoulder to cry on, a sympathetic ear, a quick pash and a grope and the next thing you knew you were dating him lol. He was fun and all very punk rock and took nothing seriously which I think is why none of us girls took the relationships seriously either. We dated for about 3 months initially and then I kissed a MUCH older man and felt I had to end things with him. Two years later we dated again for 3 months until Thor and The Hulk both made a move on me and out of guilt, yet again I ended it with Sid. We continued to be friends into our early 20's and used to reminisce and laugh about our brief stints together.
I heard recently he had gotten married to a girl he was dating on and off for years - I wish them well
Jock was a year older than me and the complete opposite of what my type was back then. He was heavily into sports and part of the popular crowd whilst I was a goth hanging out with all the misfits and freaks
We dated for 3 months and then he cheated on me and we ended things. It was strange that back then I could never really hold a grudge when it came to fooling around behind each other's backs. Six months later Jock and I were headed towards hooking back up but I kept holding out for Thor. Eventually I got sick of waiting and Jock and I started dating again.
The whole time Jock and I were together, Thor flirted, teased and cajoled me until my resolve finally broke and we fooled around.
Jock and I broke up not long after. I wanted to keep them both but it went against everything that I knew at that time about relationships. This seemed to be a pattern that would continue to repeat itself throughout high school. I'd start to date someone and Thor would want me. We'd hook up, I'd leave the current boyfriend out of guilt and then Thor would back off. Thor and I discussed all of this many years later and he acknowledged how much of a prick he was. He regretted how he had treated me and wished that as a teenage boy he had the insight he had as a man. We would of made a great couple but unfortunately he was too into playing games.
He will always be the first guy that I gave a blow job to (and received instruction from), my first taste of bdsm and in all honesty my first love. We never had sex and for years it felt like unfinished business.
High school was also when I had my first crush on a girl. I worked an after school job at a little take away store and became friends with one of the older girls that also worked there. Karma was 24 (I was 17) and I think she had me enthralled from the first time I met her. She was a compulsive liar and a complete cocktease but she was fun and made me feel important and liked. I had my one and only (to this date) threesome with her and a mutual friend of ours. The male friend and myself were both much more into Karma than each other but the only way she'd agree to have sex with either of us was if we did it all together. I think it really messed with the poor guy's head afterwards (and to be honest mine as well). Not long afterwards we all fell out over Karma's lying and scheming. It just got too hard to keep up with all the lies.
By the end of high school I think I'd realised I wasn't really cut out to have a traditional relationship but where did that leave me?
Next chapter - The Hulk re-enters my life...
As a teen I couldn't stay in a relationship longer than 3 months as I was interested in more than one person at the same time and would end up fooling around with another boy and then ending things or ending it before I cheated.
There were a couple of main players throughout my teens and early 20's that played a significant part in my development or are people that I still remember fondly.
Throughout high school I had two male best friends - The Hulk and Thor. The Hulk always made it known he was interested but I just never felt that the spark was there. It was Thor that held my fascination and for years my heart. I dated other boys, lost my virginity to one just after my 15th birthday but it was Thor that I always pined for.
There were two other significant boys that seemed to come in and out of my life as a teenager. Sid Vicious was one of those guys that you never really had any intention of dating but somehow ended up with anyway lol.
He dated nearly every female friend I had and we finally worked out how he did it years afterwards. He always prayed on us when we were at our weakest - rejected by other boys and sad and lonely, Sid would swoop in with a shoulder to cry on, a sympathetic ear, a quick pash and a grope and the next thing you knew you were dating him lol. He was fun and all very punk rock and took nothing seriously which I think is why none of us girls took the relationships seriously either. We dated for about 3 months initially and then I kissed a MUCH older man and felt I had to end things with him. Two years later we dated again for 3 months until Thor and The Hulk both made a move on me and out of guilt, yet again I ended it with Sid. We continued to be friends into our early 20's and used to reminisce and laugh about our brief stints together.
I heard recently he had gotten married to a girl he was dating on and off for years - I wish them well
Jock was a year older than me and the complete opposite of what my type was back then. He was heavily into sports and part of the popular crowd whilst I was a goth hanging out with all the misfits and freaks
We dated for 3 months and then he cheated on me and we ended things. It was strange that back then I could never really hold a grudge when it came to fooling around behind each other's backs. Six months later Jock and I were headed towards hooking back up but I kept holding out for Thor. Eventually I got sick of waiting and Jock and I started dating again.
The whole time Jock and I were together, Thor flirted, teased and cajoled me until my resolve finally broke and we fooled around.
Jock and I broke up not long after. I wanted to keep them both but it went against everything that I knew at that time about relationships. This seemed to be a pattern that would continue to repeat itself throughout high school. I'd start to date someone and Thor would want me. We'd hook up, I'd leave the current boyfriend out of guilt and then Thor would back off. Thor and I discussed all of this many years later and he acknowledged how much of a prick he was. He regretted how he had treated me and wished that as a teenage boy he had the insight he had as a man. We would of made a great couple but unfortunately he was too into playing games.
He will always be the first guy that I gave a blow job to (and received instruction from
), my first taste of bdsm and in all honesty my first love. We never had sex and for years it felt like unfinished business. High school was also when I had my first crush on a girl. I worked an after school job at a little take away store and became friends with one of the older girls that also worked there. Karma was 24 (I was 17) and I think she had me enthralled from the first time I met her. She was a compulsive liar and a complete cocktease but she was fun and made me feel important and liked. I had my one and only (to this date) threesome with her and a mutual friend of ours. The male friend and myself were both much more into Karma than each other but the only way she'd agree to have sex with either of us was if we did it all together. I think it really messed with the poor guy's head afterwards (and to be honest mine as well). Not long afterwards we all fell out over Karma's lying and scheming. It just got too hard to keep up with all the lies.
By the end of high school I think I'd realised I wasn't really cut out to have a traditional relationship but where did that leave me?
Next chapter - The Hulk re-enters my life...