anamikanon
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I'm not very prone to jealousy as long as I am not directly harmed in any way. So it was a bit hard to read through this thread and really understand what you were saying. I'm not sure I understand it still. My mind keeps going to "yeah, I've had lousy sex where partners did things I didn't like. Some improved. I moved on from some. Where is the big deal" In the sense of a sexual encounter that didn't work still being just one sexual encounter that you want to repeat or not unless you keep it alive beyond the end time. Which you are.
It makes me wonder what that sexual encounter enacted that resonated with things about your relationship/feelings with them that you were not able to articulate ebfore. Because clearly it isn't even just jealousy, even though I admit to not being an expert on jealousy. Even if it were jealousy, the concrete affirmation that they both want you and a repeat is unlikely would have ended the matter.
Similarly, the ex-es are situations that you came to terms with at various times. I would tend to wonder if you have issues with one/both relationships that you haven't addressed that somehow got enacted in that encounter, which is why you can't stop objecting to it, because that issue/issues bother you and you haven't been able to speak them out. Whether you believe one/both are not trustworthy or not appreciative of you, or take your consent for granted or something else, but I'd guess it would be something that played out that night as well. I'd also guess that it might be something you find difficult to say directly, which is how it is happening through hanging on to the distress of this encounter past stated concerns being addressed straight on. It might help you if you can identify it and speak with one/both about it directly.
It makes me wonder what that sexual encounter enacted that resonated with things about your relationship/feelings with them that you were not able to articulate ebfore. Because clearly it isn't even just jealousy, even though I admit to not being an expert on jealousy. Even if it were jealousy, the concrete affirmation that they both want you and a repeat is unlikely would have ended the matter.
Similarly, the ex-es are situations that you came to terms with at various times. I would tend to wonder if you have issues with one/both relationships that you haven't addressed that somehow got enacted in that encounter, which is why you can't stop objecting to it, because that issue/issues bother you and you haven't been able to speak them out. Whether you believe one/both are not trustworthy or not appreciative of you, or take your consent for granted or something else, but I'd guess it would be something that played out that night as well. I'd also guess that it might be something you find difficult to say directly, which is how it is happening through hanging on to the distress of this encounter past stated concerns being addressed straight on. It might help you if you can identify it and speak with one/both about it directly.