Closing my blog
Don't know that I'll be around the forums. I'm not wired poly. I tried. I kept trying because he loves her and I didn't want to be the reason he ended it. It was killing me. There are certain rooms in my house I just don't go into now, I kept it from him, how much I was truly hurting. I felt dead inside.
I love him enough not to ask him to end things because I don't want him to hurt. He hurts watching me hurt. And now I get to hurt because he's hurting. It's just a fucking shitstorm of pain all around. I am hurting because I have caused hurt. I have caused pain.
I see how it can work, and how good it can be, but I am wired for emotional monogamy. I thought I could re-wire my brain, but I just can't.
Thank you to all who I have connected with. If you have me on FB or email and wish to keep in touch, please do. Friends are so very important.
