A New Life

Not yet. But I am working on it. I am really good about taking my vitamins, which includes a dose of 20,000 iusof D a day. The joys of living in alaska. :p
My sister is actually coming over this weekend with another friend who are very nutritionally wise.
We are pulling together recipes for meal plans and supplements to cover all the bases. Its a work in progress.
 
That vitamin D could be why you're sick. Taking that amount of vitamin D made me very unwell. Vitamin D supplementation uses up both magnesium and vitamin A and can make you feel pretty terrible.

http://gotmag.org/the-vitamin-d-controversy/

The best way to get vit D is cod liver oil because it has the correct amount of vitamin A in it to work together. But if you are magnesium deficient (which you likely are if you've taken that amount of vit D) then the vit D won't be used effectively anyway.
 
FieryPhoenix said:
Going ANYWHERE was cause to feel guilty... The last 17 years of my life.
I never really thought about it. I thought it was my duty as a wife and mother to be home with my family (and my spouse was NOT social).

All of these years I was telling myself that taking myself out on a date was a waste of time, money, effort... So I was telling myself I was a waste of time, money and effort. [...] I decided that I need to take myself out more. I need to do things JUST FOR ME more.
Because I am worth the time, money and effort!
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I've barely bopped around on the boards lately, or I've been in read-only mode, so I've missed quite a few things. First of all, GOOD. FOR. YOU.

And this above - THIS resonates so much with me, and I'm still struggling with that loss of self-worth that my own 17-year (plus) relationship helped me do to myself over time (and especially once the kids were born).

I'm not there yet, but I'm also enjoying small changes that remind me that I'm worth it too, dammit. I'm *so* glad you're doing this for yourself, and that it's helping make the rest of your life a bit smoother.

And I'm also very happy for you, relationship-wise. Chops is similar, in that he was my friend before we were lovers/in a relationship, and it's so *easy* to just let go around him. It's amazing how different and wonderful it feels. :)

Onward and upward, FP! (Thought your name was a "Battle of the Planets"/Gatchaman reference when I first saw the blog pop up... LOL!) :D
 
One day at a time, but happy to say most are good days. :) been busy with work and at home work and running off on my days off to explore with my beast.
We are good.
8 months slipped by and we are both into a comfortable groove with each other.
Haven't resolved the limitations created by financial woes that keep me tied to my ex and his idiotic demands because he owns the house. Talked to the mortgage people. Im looking at three years before i can officially assume the loan. But im making small steps.
 
Glad to hear things are going pretty well for the most part.
 
Still alive :)

Crazy passionately busy.
Hired to a nee job April 2015.
The staff have been so supportive of me rebuilding my life and finding myself. The company alleviated 50+ jobs last month. I will get lay off paperwork in october when tourist season ends.
I will be sad to go. But thankful for the ride.

My Beastie and I are still going along steadily in our own world.
He has other ladies online that he shares personal porn videos with but neither of us has taken other in person lovers at this point.

He is happy with one lover and several online play partners.

I am simply not healed from the destruction I am still rising from.

We see each other several times every couple weeks. One week may be three evenings in a row and then two weeks of nothing. It just depends on how each of us is feeling and what our needs are.

Recently he triggered a panic attack by alluding to moving with me when i move out of state. He has made several remarks since. I have not addressed them. I wont be moving for at least another year, probably closer to 2. So its not a critical topic. But our plan never included him moving also.
Him being there doesnt distress me-as long as we have our own places.

I have 8 classes left to finish my bachelors degree. With any luck I will graduate next May.

Life is good.
 
Thanks for that update, glad to hear things are generally going well.
 
It's been a lot to take in. I haven't had time to really think, much less time to be online.
I have pulled back from many social outlets because I needed time to devote to getting my own life on track.

I can see the progress I have made and it's helpful being able to see that I'm moving forward. It's a lot of work to pick up the pieces after spending years being a SAHM, to becoming financially independent while healing from an emotionally devastating loss, and not letting the kids suffer because of all of it.

This last month I finally reached a place where I can start building my own savings account. That's a huge step. I have paid off several major debts in the last two years.
Unfortunately, the same week, I also got informed that my position at work was abolished, which means I will be looking for a new job by October.
But October is a ways away and I'm not going to make myself sick worrying.

:)
 
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