Devon GB

[SealingTheDay]

Hi from the sunny south west of the country.

Love being down here just having to find my feet again and follow the old meat pump.

Late 30s now and hadn't even considered emn a possibility until a few years ago.. seemed to have missed the memo spending my youth writing off my own thoughts and feelings thinking it was an impossible dream.

Stumbling through the dark in the face of straight..ish stereotyping & unicorn hunting feeling moments of completeness, comfort and joy when situations present resembling FFM+ dynamics.

I'm once again single after painful relationships quashing my life values and happiness.

The presence of compersion is a definite but communication proves difficult at times as I'm a free bird valuing being real and open to all walks and experiences of life and I feel some don't completely get me.

Not sure on the next steps yet as I feel I have a mountain to climb whilst the winds of ageing are pushing me back!

Really hoping to connect with a community of like minded people but it's not well advertised or sign posted

 

[JaneQSmythe]

Hello from the (currently cold and snowy, but previously sunny and warm) northeast! Welcome to the forum!

I was fortunate in knowing poly/ENM was an option from the beginning (thanks to Heinlein), even though I am older than you, but that didn't always mean smooth sailing. OTOH, I never expected that most people would "get" me, anyway, since I don't "get" most people. Seek quality over quantity. The best things (like this forum) either spring on you unexpectedly or require some searching.

Feel free to explore, read, ask questions! Enjoy your time here. I hope you find what you are seeking.

JaneQ

 

[SealingTheDay]

Thank you!

Yeah, don't worry think our weather is synced up atm. Wish the summer would hurry up. XD

Bit of an existential crisis day today, with a heap of panic over me being me and accepted by the people around me. Unfortunately, I don't know any poly peeps, and never have, as far as I'm aware.

All I'm craving right now is a big cuddle puddle and having people to talk to who can understand the feelings and emotions and motivations behind them.

Feel like I seek help and comfort in all the wring places, i.e., friends who are triggered or see traits of trauma stuff where it's simply my natural self, with all the bubbling love and happiness to share without expectation or coercion.

Do wonder if it's a bpd thing, or part of my adhd/nd, or my own past, but it's definitely overwhelming and I feel alone in it.

 

[majick]

Hi from the sunny south west of the country.

Love being down here just having to find my feet again and follow the old meat pump.

Late 30s now and hadn't even considered emn a possibility until a few years ago.. seemed to have missed the memo spending my youth writing off my own thoughts and feelings thinking it was an impossible dream.

Stumbling through the dark in the face of straight..ish stereotyping & unicorn hunting feeling moments of completeness, comfort and joy when situations present resembling FFM+ dynamics.

I'm once again single after painful relationships quashing my life values and happiness.

The presence of compersion is a definite but communication proves difficult at times as I'm a free bird valuing being real and open to all walks and experiences of life and I feel some don't completely get me.

Not sure on the next steps yet as I feel I have a mountain to climb whilst the winds of ageing are pushing me back!

Really hoping to connect with a community of like minded people but it's not well advertised or sign posted

Hi – I'm in N Devon, near the somerset border. You're absolutelt right, not all that much going on in this area – did you find any groups or good connections?