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Martinus

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So far I I'm very happy with the tips and help here on this forum.
My apologies for the sometimes strange sentences that I use English isn't my first language and in Holland we only do British English at school.
I,m not used to write in English so its kind of rusty.
Some times I use words and sentences that mean something different in your country my apologies for this I don't want to offended anybody. The cultural differences are difficult for me.

So I like to write about my new discovered sexual orientation.
Before the 11th of may I've never heard about polyamory knew the the word polygamy and had the association with artists painters and cheating.

So I was pleasantly surprised that wat I feel is quite normal.
Always thought I am monogamous because I don't give in to romantic feelings for someone other than my wife, although she is OK with me having a sexual but not romantic relationship with a man.
Also I don't believe that sexuality with out love is satisfying for me.

I feel attraction to people who are interesting to me not especially a man or a woman.
Of course I like to look at beautiful people. For woman I like plus size for man I like manly man and dark or Arabic man.
But my wife I fell in love with because her believes and interest match mine.
We were interested in witchcraft and that's how we met.
Our first date was a month later because we wanted to watch the same movie and she didn't have a car.
Later we went to the zoo with the pagan group where we met this was the first time we kissed.

Long story short.
She accepted me being bi and enjoyed looking at pretty man with me.
Got pregnant this was something I valued before marriage.
Marriage both took each other's sir name so we both have birth name than married name.
Because we value to be equal.
Our 3girls have my birth name because in Holland you can't give children 2sir names.

And now we fell in to a polyamorous relationship with one of our best friends.

We are happy with this but scared to because of the reactions we might get.

I found this forum an now im looking forward to learn more about myself and relationship s.
Already learned a lot from reading the introduction and the names of the types of relationships.
Very good work the mods do here an thanks to everyone sharing stories.

So much for today.
 
Not a great day today. Busy day at work.
Lot's of talking and computer work hate that is not where I have chosen for.
I want to care not to administrate.
One of the kids is sick.
P is on the couch watching net flix.
And D is in his own home feeling bad and watching net flix to.
In the meanwhile we are chatting with the 3 of us.
About feelings and the bad stuff that's happened in our lives.
Being the dead of D's best friend in an accident 5years ago.
He is going to visit this friends widow on Sunday mainly to see our friends child a girl.
He hasn't been on speaking terms with the widow for a while P and I haven't got problems with her and visit them more often.

D is anxious about this.
We also spoke about taking care of ourselves this concerns me and D.
We have to be more careful and accept P's help she is a strong an stable woman.
And D and me are not so stable and have problems with talking about our problems or sorrow's in this life (fun fact D is a psychiatrist by study) works with mentally handicapped kids age 16 and up.
But talking about his own feelings and keeping stable is a challenge.
I,m also not as stable as I wished.
Due to not coming from a warm family problems with being bullied as a kid. Drug use.
As a teen and in more recent years a traumatic incident that happened.
But where my firefighter colleagues helped me trough.

But at least we have been in contact the whole evening and a few sweet things during the day.

Don't think to bad of me I'm quite normal and can cope with life don't have big problems any more. But I need a bit of guidance some times and D needs this to.
Luckily P provided D And me with this trough the years for 14 years now and I really proud of her and super lucky that I married such a strong lovely patient wife.
And now I also can express my love for D together with her I feel more complete than ever.

Hope fully D has time to come over this weekend. And then talk in real life.
 
Yesterday work and sick to bed at 17:00 woke up today went to the fancy fair at the girls school.
D is at his father's birthday. And send us a message he is coming at 19:00
Happy happy we have time to spend together finally.
Bummer I have to work at 23:00.
Looking forward to the company and the cuddles.
P is also looking forward to spend the evening together.
 
On the job and had a beautiful evening.
Talked about the future together and our expectations.
About how to tell the kids.
Made fun of the reactions we are gonna get from others.
Specially my Christian parents.
Had some warm hugs cuddles and trouple fun.:D:D:D
Can't get it out of my head.
D isn't going stay the night because of the children.
Tomorrow evening we are together again.
 
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No cuddling today slept most of the day.
P took care of the kids.
D was out with friends and went home at 22:00 so he went straight to his own home.
I'm working the nightshift again.
This morning the oldest daughter asked P why D went home so late.
We said because we had a good time.
She didn't ask more questions.
Told my colleagues they reached really good got a lot of support, didn't expect this.
They all knew I'm bisexual. So the were not really surprised.
They said that they'd noticed something different already.
That must be me smiling all day.
 
Came home from the night shift.
say'd hello and goodbye to my wife and kids.
working on the firefighter station now. did some workout to here. I can feel my body change sinds I started doing workouts again. been in an accident a few months ago but the pain is now gone.
Really wanna get fit again and make my body beautiful.
make's me happy thinking about my lover's.

next weekend the kids will be at my parents house for 2 days and we are staying at D's house (he has a bigger bed:D) this will be so good.
We really have to talk about our relation and how to make it work.
D wants to have kids for himself. so we hope he finds a girl who is ok with him being bisexual and being in a poly relation.
his ex girlfriend (+-5 years ago) wasn't ok with him being bi one of the reasons this relation didn't work out.

still have to do some preparations for the camping trip so we have to make time for this to.
 
Finally got a day off.
Had a little accident at work yesterday, got hit by an elevator door the sensors failed.
Glad not one of the elderly got hit.
Been drinking tea at D's place he felt a little down because his car got damaged by someone who was parking.
 
D had been working all day yesterday than had a very boring birthday party yesterday (his aunt).
P and I were at home.
D fled the party become a friend of his aunt (a well known politician) was there and it got boring very fast not his political choice.
He came to our place to cuddle and sleep P having her period.
D and I had some casual sex and I fell a sleep D couldn't sleep and decided to go home so I and P could sleep better. Me having to wake up at 6.
He had to sleep in the day because he's doing the nightshift today.
Next week we will try again.
He has trouble sleeping and has been sleeping alone for 5years.
He will get accustomed to sleep with us just takes time.
He will be trying to sleep with P Thursday night and friday when I'm having the nightshift.
Saturday and Sunday we'll sleep together again and nobody has to work kids at grandma's.
We will be in bed most of the day. All three are looking forward to this.
 
Strangest thing last night.
P an I were making fun of the whole trouple relationship and talking about hypothetical future's just for good fun.
So I ask P how about D finding a girl and she being OK with the situation and wanting to join.
How about you and her.
She told to be wanting to have sex with a girl if she likes her.
OK :confused::confused:
I have a feeling that I don't know my wife.anymore
 
Strangest thing last night.
...
So I ask P how about D finding a girl and she being OK with the situation and wanting to join.
How about you and her.
She told to be wanting to have sex with a girl if she likes her.
OK :confused::confused:
I have a feeling that I don't know my wife.anymore

Not SO strange :rolleyes: - having new experiences can open you up to having new experiences. Sometimes over time we don't know our own selves anymore - so how can we expect to always know another person? Sexuality consists of many spectrums - not so odd to find that you are not the 100% one way or the other that you may have thought...
 
D is coming:D:D:D:D:DD right from his nightshift.
Happy happy
His last shift this week so were together at last.
I have 2 nights to go and the kids go to granny.
The whole weekend its just the 3 of us.

Feel like a teen
 
D was here for me to practice massage techniques on him.
Have to do this for school.
So it was serious.
After this we had breakfast together this was nice.
He has gone home to sleep we are going to visit friends to look at they're new baby.

Had some stolen kisses in the hallway.:DD
P to.
No kissing in front of the kids yet.
 
Kids are at grandma's.
Woke up took a long shower shaved myself.
Put on a nice parfume.
Put on my new underwear. P is clearly nervous. :D
Packing her bag.
Finally we are leaving for D.
We have the whole weekend:D:D:D:D:DDD
 
We are so happy and content.
Had a great night D is brewing his coffee.
P and I are making tea.
Just had our breakfast.
Still foggy from last night.
 
We are home again.
D is doing some model work, P is having tea with a friend of her.
I went to the beach with the kids. They're playing in the water now.
Still feeling fuzzy from the love hormones:D:D
My smile is not leaving my face for the coming days.

We have been cuddling on the couch than had dinner together and didn't leave the bed until breakfast.
Talked a lot about everything also the kids we are having the same ideas now about how to cope and how to inform them

P and I slept very well D could not sleep and left a the bed when we were sleeping.
In this we are complete opposite he has trouble sleeping with others where I can't sleep alone.

He came back when we were awake.

Had the best sex I've ever experienced in my life.

Falling asleep in between two people whom i love was the best, better even than the sex.
Six weeks to till our holiday.
Looking forwards to it
 
Heavy work week this week for D.
Mine is quite relaxed having the weekend off again.
We are going on a little trip this weekend with friends D cant join us because he has to work.
We will with a group of 30 people lots of kids around the same age as ours, its gonna be fun.
D is coming for diner tonight finally need some warm hugs from both my partners.
No sleep over :( we all have to work tomorrow.

Still going on the feelings of last weekend feels good.
we should have started this five years ago that would have made things a lot easier for all of us.
We all know this probably isn't going to be forever because D's wish to have a family, but for now its the best.
And it might happen he finds a girl who is ok with us being together and willing to join the three of us and we can start being a family with four parents.
I know this is wishful thinking and not a realistic image of our future but its still nice to dream.
Would be great to have little children around again mine are so big already.
Almost can't remember how it was when they were baby's.

Being hopelessly romantic again.
back to normal kick my butt and going to work.

Mostly like writing here for myself bit like a diary real nice function of this forum.
 
We P the kids and I have been away for a weekend with friends.
D had to work. All of our friends now know about our new relationship.
They were all really supportive and wished us the best of luck.
They all know D.
Our friends are mostly pagan so no real problems with different relationship types.
Still afraid how my parents will react they are Christian and don't approve of gay sexuality.
We are not actively telling them they will find out eventually.
The parents of P and D are open-minded so no problems there.
I think P here mother suspects some thing but she has not asked questions yet.

D and I have been working a lot last week and haven't seen each other D and P have seen each other when D came to eat and play with the kids.
D haven't been sleeping over so we are really exited for to morrow.
I'll be sleeping in the morning after my night shift and D has a meeting in the morning the kids will be at school so we have the rest of the morning to our selfs.
Than well have dinner together than sports.
D is planning to sleep at his place.
Looking forward to tomorrow.
 
On the kid front, if this does continue long term, is P & D having children off the table? Or all three of you cohabitating and raising the children together? Obviously it's too early to do those things, but it's something you may consider for down the road if the relationships are still going strong....
 
P and I have 3 kids.
If D doesn't find a girlfriend to have children with the option is open that D and P have a baby together than well raise the kids with the 3 of us.
I would like a baby in the house again.
In the most ideal situation D finds a girl who's OK with living together or forming a quad and he will have kids with her. And well raise the kids with the four of us.
But that's all long therm and not realistic yet
 
We had diner with all of us:)
D. came over around three the youngest had swimming lessons P took her there the oldest kids were playing outside so we had some quality time together before we made dinner for the six of us.
It was nice to finally cuddle up together.
No need to talk just stroking his hair and being loved.
Best moment of the day.
Well be taking the kids to school tomorrow and than we have some time with the three of us, and than it will be a long week before we meet again :(.
D is going to a festival with a friend.

D had pictures of his new born niece a sweety.

D has gone to the gym and will be sleeping in his own home.
 
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