Exhausted

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Dustytx

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Well 2016 has been a tough year. Surfer got through his medical procedures & after some minor complications is almost back to normal. Pixie had major surgery a couple of weeks ago & will be healing for a while. I just got a bout of crazy allergies under control. Cowboy & I have been with them through it all & are glad this phase is nearly over.

The thing is, I'm exhausted. Between work & medical stuff Surfer & I are feeling disconnected. We spoke last night about how we were spoiled in the last 6 months with the amount of time we had together. No overnights in the foreseeable future given everything that's going on. I'm personally struggling with wanting to get on the relationship escalator even though I know it's not a possibility. Guess that is the part of me still stuck in mono land. I want us to be closer but that's probably due to lack of recent time together.

I'm trying to do self care but still feeling a bit sad. Guess I just wanted to vent to folks that might understand.
 
I can relate... This year has been tough on me, too. Medical problems, drama in my birth family, new responsibilities. The latest has been myself having a flu and staying at home for quite a long time.

My last planned overnight with Jeremy got cancelled because of the flu, and there is no new one planned. He is soon going on a trip and I doubt we'll have an opportunity to meet before that. I definitely feel disconnected.

On the other hand, my live-in partners have taken good care of me. I feel very connected and in balance with both of them. Hope there will be better times ahead with Jeremy, too.
 
Even without the challenges you have faced, I can relate to the exhaustion of tending to lots of people's feelings while also trying to tend to your own. Emotional energy is not a bottomless well. It can run dry and that kind of exhaustion is profound. Add to that the energy drain of illness...I feel for you.

I find indulgent solitude--such as a weekend away on my own in a beautiful place--can help recharge me. Not always possible, I know...
 
Hi Dustytx,

Sorry to hear you are feeling tired and frustrated; I hope things improve healthwise and relationship-wise for you in the near future.

Sincerely,
Kevin T.
 
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