Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love

Bluebird

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Today’s the first time that only having one car has actually altered my plans. I was hoping to go to SirGawain’s all day, as he is working from home. Unfortunately, DarkKnight can’t get home from his own work, so I have to stay home and wait to 4 pm for him to get here so I can take the car. I’m really bummed out, but I am glad I can still go and have a sleepover later.
 

Bluebird

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For a day off, I had a bunch going on with the Blessing Box. I’m a little bit irritated because a social worker contacted me a while ago about a woman who she said had a size 58” waist. I got her a winter coat, a hoodie, 4 tunics and 10 pairs of pants. They just stopped by to pick up, and this chick looked like MAYBE a 3x. Not the 6xs that we bought for her. Sigh. I doubt anything will fit and I’m aggravated because that’s a lot of crowd sourcing for sizes that could have gone to someone else. So I don’t know whether to hope that she’s really bigger than she looked or if they ask for help again because they fucked up. I want the lady to have some options!

I also had some dry food boxes dropped off, and lots of baby food that will need to be sorted tomorrow. I had a homeless couple request toiletries, and I put together two bags of that for them - deodorant, body wash, toothbrushes, etc. We are completely out of deodorant now, men’s and women’s, so that has me a little stressed.

Another woman came over and took a huge bag of toilet paper, several packs of diapers and some dog food. She hits me up once a month and delivers to seniors in the area who are home bound. So I shell out a bunch of stuff to her all at once, unlike what I do for others.

Right now I am waiting for a donor to stop by with a desk, some egg chairs and a dresser. I don’t normally have furniture delivered here but the donor wanted to drop off quick. This stuff is going to move into my living room until tomorrow - but it will be gone for sure during the day! All of these things are highly requested items.

I am hoping DarkKnight gets here soon because I can finally take the car and head to SirGawain’s! SG says he is ready to collapse today, even though he worked from home. Lol I was hoping to go out for a bit since I lived in my pajamas today, but I am down to watch some more episodes of Vikings, if that’s all he has stamina for tonight.

I hope DarkKnight is okay. Yesterday evening he was tearing up and crying for like no reason at all. He said he thinks his new medication is making him hormonal! He said he can’t pinpoint anything that would be making him a mess other than the meds. I do remember that the last time they adjusted his medication the same thing happened.
 

Bluebird

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I am soooo out of sorts today. I’m home alone, as MisterMoonbeam had to go into the office. He is on his way home with lunch though, so I should have a boost in about an hour or so. I also have volunteers arriving at 1 pm.

The city zoning department has set our meeting in a couple of weeks. I’m feeling a little defeated but trying not to be anxious, as there is zero I can do to change anything up between now and then. MisterMoonbeam said he will attend with me, so that’s good. When we become an official nonprofit, he’ll be the president, so it makes sense that he goes too.

I’m overwhelmed with Senior Santa letters today, so I’m pretty sick of data entry! I have about 15 or so to put into the database and match up with sponsors. That’s all set really, I just need to do it!

I have some furniture sitting in the middle of my living room that has to move out today. My furniture guy isn’t available, so no delivery means it will sit until I match up with the right person on the waiting list. Right now I’m waiting to hear from my contact at the local recovery house - I’m pretty sure she’s taking most of it.
 

Bluebird

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Oh dear, I just had a young mom break down crying on my porch. She asked me for pull-ups, so I gave her those, with some baby wipes. I asked her if she needed a new crib mattress because we had one without a home, but she didn’t. When I went to go back inside, she blurted out that she did need a car - could we help her with a car?

I turned around and was like, uh…but then she took a breath and said she had a car, and what she needs is help fixing it. Then she burst into tears, saying she was so scared it was going to break and she can’t afford to lose her job - she has to take care of her family.

Apparently it needs a belt and a tune up and it’s getting really bad. She said the quote was $478, and who has $478? She was on her way into work just then, but then they called and told her they had too much labor and they didn’t need her today. “What can I do? I can’t even go in so I can pay my bills. I can’t fix the car. If it breaks, I don’t know what to do!”

Oh she was breaking my heart. I told her the truth - no one funds car repairs. I told her to message me and I would post about it but I couldn’t be very optimistic. I want to help her though, so I am willing to try. I know what it feels like to be in that sort of predicament. ❤️
 

AlwaysGrowing

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Oh dear, I just had a young mom break down crying on my porch. She asked me for pull-ups, so I gave her those, with some baby wipes. I asked her if she needed a new crib mattress because we had one without a home, but she didn’t. When I went to go back inside, she blurted out that she did need a car - could we help her with a car?

I turned around and was like, uh…but then she took a breath and said she had a car, and what she needs is help fixing it. Then she burst into tears, saying she was so scared it was going to break and she can’t afford to lose her job - she has to take care of her family.

Apparently it needs a belt and a tune up and it’s getting really bad. She said the quote was $478, and who has $478? She was on her way into work just then, but then they called and told her they had too much labor and they didn’t need her today. “What can I do? I can’t even go in so I can pay my bills. I can’t fix the car. If it breaks, I don’t know what to do!”

Oh she was breaking my heart. I told her the truth - no one funds car repairs. I told her to message me and I would post about it but I couldn’t be very optimistic. I want to help her though, so I am willing to try. I know what it feels like to be in that sort of predicament. ❤️
I wouldn't give up hope. In my small town, there are quite a few (unlicensed but able) people who are willing to do the labor when people are in real need. The parts themselves always seem so cheap when compared to the labor that others pull together to either give the person in need oddjobs to earn the cash OR just pool resources and make it happen. With your network of helpers? I would find it hard to believe no one will be willing to help piece it together.
 

Bluebird

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It’s actually a common thing here - I really do struggle with finding help with car repairs. They just don’t get funded. 🤷‍♀️ No one wants to help with those, for whatever reason. I’m waiting for her to message me some details - I’m willing to try.
 

Bluebird

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I had a really good date with the OKC guy yesterday evening. We met at Wegmans so we could grab food and chill in their outdoor seating area. There was literally no one there for 98% of the time, so we were able to talk about a lot, which is what I wanted. We talked for 5 hours!

One of the first things he did was bring up his mansplaining on Facebook, which was nice, since I had planned to discuss it with him. He immediately acknowledged he was in the wrong and wanted to discuss it. So I appreciated that lots. He’s not completely clueless - yay!

We talked a lot about general life stuff, and he explained some stuff about his two failed marriages. I talked about my two failed marriages as well. He told me a bunch about the different sort of BDSM, M/s, D/s configurations he’s been involved with in the past - and I heard of some combinations I’d never even considered. I think we are going to be compatible in a lot of ways. I’m not sure where the sexual side of the relationship will end up falling on the spectrum, to be honest.

He went today to get tested - and I asked him to include the HSV-1 & HSV-2 tests, and he said he would. I’m going to go to his place Sunday night, but not for a sleepover. His son is living with him, having moved in during Covid, and he said he’d like to have a no-sex visit first where he and I really just hang out and watch a movie or something so his son is cool with me being there. (The son is 17.) Apparently, he’s never had a woman over since his son moved in. (During Covid - up to this point his son lived with his ex wife.) I’m totally cool with that.

Tomorrow is Ren Faire and I am super excited!
 

Bluebird

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Ugh ugh ugh

I’m a mess tonight. I was really trying to be in a good mood, but SirGawain is in a funk and anxious that his ex and her cheating partner may be at the Ren Faire tomorrow. He set me off emotionally, and I am concerned we may break up. I told him from the very beginning that I can’t handle any sort of contact between him and her - I will not be connected to drama between them, period. Meanwhile he is now once again practicing speeches that he might make if he sees her, about how she deserves to be alone and he’s never taking her back. And she’s regretful, etc. I just can’t. When we hung up the phone together tonight, I started crying. I can’t deal with it.

Also, the rope stuff with MisterMoonbeam has me in my feelings. He’s just been so loving and playful lately, and I feel super connected to him. But I’m getting anxious because here I am finally at one with him and he’s doing so great in therapy, and I am terrified he’s going to leave me. He got a hair cut tonight and he looked hot as hell and I was legitimately just like, well, that was a good run. Which is terribly unfair, and I recognize that. I’m sure this will pass but right now it’s got me a mess inside. He has no plans to leave me and he’s a wonderful partner. I need to shut off the negative tape, is all.

I think I am just wound up right now. I was nonstop today in spite of it being my day off. I had posted some Senior Santa letters, asking for sponsors this morning around 8 am, and here it is after 10 pm and I STILL have 85 people who want to help that I haven’t answered. I just sent a cut and paste generic message to each of them telling them I will match them up next week. It’s a lovely problem to have, but holy shit I am one single person!

Oh and my car went for a 30,000 service this morning and I actually had a tire about to explode and the visit ended up costing $690 that I didn’t have to drop but I had no choice. So that got me emotional too.

I was hoping to recharge tomorrow with the Ren Faire, but now SirGawain is going to be anxious and on edge. I really need a fun and calm day playing dress up and being happy but I am afraid that is not going to be possible. I can tell you one thing, this phone is being shut the fuck off!
 

Bluebird

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Feeling much better this morning, my mood is UP. I’m looking good in my Ren Faire garb and my guys are as well. I wanna lift up my skirts and lift up their skirts! Lol
 

Bluebird

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Left to Right: DarkKnight, MisterMoonbeam, BlueBird and SirGawain

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Here’s my polycule, today at Ren Faire. It was quite windy - we left shortly after this pic was taken and it started raining buckets! Still, we had a long and fun day. Love these guys!

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