LilBabyKitty
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Hello everyone, I am considering a change in my monogamous relationship with my girlfriend, to that of a polyamorous/cucking scenario. We have been together almost 2 years, and have been monogamous, with some short breakups that included sex or flirting with others. I have identified a jealousy kink in my psyche, and I have trouble feeling passion/intimacy for my girlfriend unless she is flirting with or sexting with another man. She has a potential polyamorous suitor that she texted with during our last breakup about a month ago, and we are both on board with re-establishing contact with him with the intent of her having a relationship with him, and threesomes with both of us. We have agreed not to re-establish contact until we process more.
I had a traumatic divorce 3 years ago, in which my wife fell in love with another man, that was bisexual and also in love with me (I am not bisexual). She was very dishonest with me through the end of the relationship, and used polyamory to get me to hook them up together, and then left me for good as soon as they hooked up. However, after leaving me, she led me on for about a year, telling me she wanted to get back together but wasn't ready yet, and didn't want to stop seeing her new boyfriend. So I spent a year miserable in jealousy, and fantasized about having threesomes with them if she would just let it happen, which she didn't. They broke up after 3 months. When she finally told me she didn't want to reconcile, I immediately started dating again, and started seeing my current girlfriend. I wasn't ready to date yet, so all of our breakups since we've been together have been related to my emotional issues with my ex-wife.
Back to my current situation, I noticed the jealous feelings of seeing my girlfriend getting romantic with another man, and instead of feeling miserable as I did with my ex-wife, I feel exhilarated. My girlfriend is more inclined toward monogamy, and has not been pushing for an extra-marital relationship, especially if it risks our relationship. However, she is sexually open and experienced, and we are both getting NRE giddiness about the possibility of this change.
Part of the excitement for me is that I fully prepared myself at the end of my marriage for polyamory, reading whatever material I could find and looking forward to the range of feelings and even the conflicts. I didn't get to act out my preparation, and now I feel like I get a chance to, and it kind of gets me high.
My girlfriend and I both have high sex drives, and we are both sexually satisfied. The polyamory allows me to feel more intimacy towards her, so that is the main benefit we are both looking to achieve. She is 100% in love with me, and we don't see a huge risk of the other man coming in between us.
The biggest pitfall I see, is that my girlfriend is not open to me having any other partners. While I don't really feel a need to see other women, I am fearful that I will become resentful at the unfairness of the dynamic. Does anyone have any experience with this type of situation that might be helpful?
I had a traumatic divorce 3 years ago, in which my wife fell in love with another man, that was bisexual and also in love with me (I am not bisexual). She was very dishonest with me through the end of the relationship, and used polyamory to get me to hook them up together, and then left me for good as soon as they hooked up. However, after leaving me, she led me on for about a year, telling me she wanted to get back together but wasn't ready yet, and didn't want to stop seeing her new boyfriend. So I spent a year miserable in jealousy, and fantasized about having threesomes with them if she would just let it happen, which she didn't. They broke up after 3 months. When she finally told me she didn't want to reconcile, I immediately started dating again, and started seeing my current girlfriend. I wasn't ready to date yet, so all of our breakups since we've been together have been related to my emotional issues with my ex-wife.
Back to my current situation, I noticed the jealous feelings of seeing my girlfriend getting romantic with another man, and instead of feeling miserable as I did with my ex-wife, I feel exhilarated. My girlfriend is more inclined toward monogamy, and has not been pushing for an extra-marital relationship, especially if it risks our relationship. However, she is sexually open and experienced, and we are both getting NRE giddiness about the possibility of this change.
Part of the excitement for me is that I fully prepared myself at the end of my marriage for polyamory, reading whatever material I could find and looking forward to the range of feelings and even the conflicts. I didn't get to act out my preparation, and now I feel like I get a chance to, and it kind of gets me high.
My girlfriend and I both have high sex drives, and we are both sexually satisfied. The polyamory allows me to feel more intimacy towards her, so that is the main benefit we are both looking to achieve. She is 100% in love with me, and we don't see a huge risk of the other man coming in between us.
The biggest pitfall I see, is that my girlfriend is not open to me having any other partners. While I don't really feel a need to see other women, I am fearful that I will become resentful at the unfairness of the dynamic. Does anyone have any experience with this type of situation that might be helpful?