Amethystsparrow
New member
Hi everyone,
I hope everyone is doing well, as for me I'm a bit restless and trying to find out why. Coming here helps and being in such a receptive community definitely sounds like a great place to start, even if it's a tiny vent.
I can't place why I'm feeling so restless and unnerved. Granted things with Snarky's parents have not been at all on the mend, I even had a chat with my sister in law which was somewhat better yet it still left me in a tizzy of emotions that later wrecked havoc on me. I find myself irritable watching Snarky be affectionate with Sunshine, I don't know why but I feel like I'm invisible when I know that certainly is not the case. I'm wanting space yet not wanting it, I'm starting to have thoughts of " I miss just Snarky and I, I don't always want to share space. I miss our individuality." yet when it is just Sunshine and I we are more than fine, happy and content. I'm not sure what's going on with me and it would be lovely to have someone to talk to that isn't them. Lately when I bring anything up for discussion I get frustrated at Snarky because he and I are just on different levels, maybe it is due to him being a double major and me a simple house wife with only some college background, who knows? All I know is I want this unrest to go away, for some reason I am vulnerable and can;t voice or place it well.
Right now Snarky and Sunshine are having private time due to her leaving for a week, and I'm not sure why I am so averse to Snarky even coming to give me affection afterwards, I realize these are my problems but tonight I am having a hard time even dealing with my own emotions and lack of knowing where they are stemming from. i really hope everyone is well tonight and having a better time than I, maybe I just need space without having to share space with all three of us, maybe I am overdue to have Snarky to myself, all I know is I want this feeling to go away and it certainly isn't subsiding in the slightest.
Best wishes to all.
I hope everyone is doing well, as for me I'm a bit restless and trying to find out why. Coming here helps and being in such a receptive community definitely sounds like a great place to start, even if it's a tiny vent.
I can't place why I'm feeling so restless and unnerved. Granted things with Snarky's parents have not been at all on the mend, I even had a chat with my sister in law which was somewhat better yet it still left me in a tizzy of emotions that later wrecked havoc on me. I find myself irritable watching Snarky be affectionate with Sunshine, I don't know why but I feel like I'm invisible when I know that certainly is not the case. I'm wanting space yet not wanting it, I'm starting to have thoughts of " I miss just Snarky and I, I don't always want to share space. I miss our individuality." yet when it is just Sunshine and I we are more than fine, happy and content. I'm not sure what's going on with me and it would be lovely to have someone to talk to that isn't them. Lately when I bring anything up for discussion I get frustrated at Snarky because he and I are just on different levels, maybe it is due to him being a double major and me a simple house wife with only some college background, who knows? All I know is I want this unrest to go away, for some reason I am vulnerable and can;t voice or place it well.
Right now Snarky and Sunshine are having private time due to her leaving for a week, and I'm not sure why I am so averse to Snarky even coming to give me affection afterwards, I realize these are my problems but tonight I am having a hard time even dealing with my own emotions and lack of knowing where they are stemming from. i really hope everyone is well tonight and having a better time than I, maybe I just need space without having to share space with all three of us, maybe I am overdue to have Snarky to myself, all I know is I want this feeling to go away and it certainly isn't subsiding in the slightest.
Best wishes to all.
