I love 2 wonderful men.
Firstly, my husband. We have been married for nearly 2 years, together for 7 and have a son together. I have 2 children from a previous relationship who he loves like his own. Our relationship has slowly changed over the years to ‘best friend’ station for me. And I feel horrid, because I know it’s not like that for him.
Secondly, the love of my life. I have loved him for 13 years. He moved away from where I am, but it has never gone away for either of us, through the relationships, the distance. It hurts so much, and saying goodbye to him hurts just as much every time. We have just recently said goodbye again, and I am struggling.
Neither of them would share. I don’t want to end my marriage, but I struggle without #2 in my life just so much. I just don’t know how to handle this. I don’t know how to make the hurt go away. Even if I did end my marriage, I can’t move. I can’t do that to my babies. Everything is so damn messed up…
I guess, at the end of the day, I just needed a place to vent. To say how I feel and what I’m dealing with. To have people hear me that are empathetic and may have some insight.
Firstly, my husband. We have been married for nearly 2 years, together for 7 and have a son together. I have 2 children from a previous relationship who he loves like his own. Our relationship has slowly changed over the years to ‘best friend’ station for me. And I feel horrid, because I know it’s not like that for him.
Secondly, the love of my life. I have loved him for 13 years. He moved away from where I am, but it has never gone away for either of us, through the relationships, the distance. It hurts so much, and saying goodbye to him hurts just as much every time. We have just recently said goodbye again, and I am struggling.
Neither of them would share. I don’t want to end my marriage, but I struggle without #2 in my life just so much. I just don’t know how to handle this. I don’t know how to make the hurt go away. Even if I did end my marriage, I can’t move. I can’t do that to my babies. Everything is so damn messed up…
I guess, at the end of the day, I just needed a place to vent. To say how I feel and what I’m dealing with. To have people hear me that are empathetic and may have some insight.
