___Bella___
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Hear me out. It's getting messy. If the people that I mention in this text ever read this, I will die of embarrassment. 
This is about the two people I kissed at my wedding, besides my wife. But first, a little introduction.
I married my girlfriend in 2024. This year is our 9-year anniversary. In the first few months of our relationship we had our very first talk about polyamory. We've been in a on-off relationship with this topic ever since. Even after all these years, we are still trying to figure out what we want and what not. But that's just the side story.
In this case it's about my feelings for two other people, a couple. (Let's call them A and B.) About 4 years ago we (*platonically*) befriended a woman, A. After three meetings with her, I developed a crush. After a while, this crush turned into very strong feelings. Around this time, she met a girl (B) who she has been in a monogamous relationship with ever since.
Before they officially got together, there was one night we went out to a club. (Her soon to be girlfriend B was not there). It was my wife, my crush A, another friend and me. My wife was in the mood to make everyone kiss with each other, but A and I were shy and scared and on the same level of awkwardness. I knew that she was dating this girl B, and I didn't know at that point how serious it was between them, if it was ok to kiss her, and if she even wanted to kiss me back.
Also, my wife made it soo awkward for us because she was so pushy. That's why I DIDN'T KISS HER.
My wife told me later, she just thought I didn't want to kiss her because of my hesitation.
Afterwards, A and I talked about it on WhatsApp. She told me she would have kissed me. And I told her I would have kissed her too. We both blamed it on my wife that we didn't kiss, because my wife was too pushy. After that, we never talked about it again. I am not even sure if she ever told her girlfriend about this night.
Moving forward, they got together. I was scared that I wouldn't like her new girlfriend B, and that I would be jealous. But it turned out that B is the sweetest person on earth, and from the beginning, I really liked her. I like them as a couple and want them to be together forever.
After a while, I also developed a crush on B. It feels different, but only because I think every connection you have with a person feels different. We all became very close friends. I love spending time with them because it's always so easy and natural.
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About our wedding... I told a few friends about my crush on these two women years ago. Those friends thought it would be fun to make them kiss us at the wedding, so they were always making hints in front of them, "Someone has to kiss them. Why don't you do it? blah blah."
The wedding itself was beautiful, the best day of my life. After hours, after my family left, B and I danced. On the dance floor, it happened. B asked me if I wanted to make out, and without any second thoughts, I kissed her back. It was only maybe 10 seconds, but it was hot. A was not in the room. Shit. After she heard about what happened, she was upset that she wasn't there.
I thought I fucked up. But B told my wife that she should go and kiss her so too, so that they'd be even. It worked. After I went to another room I found my wife and A. Their kiss was already over. I didn't know they'd kissed. I went to them because I wanted to apologize, but A said to my wife: "Now I also have to kiss her, if I kissed you." So she kissed me. It was a very different kiss than I shared with her girlfriend before. It was more shy, gentle and sweet from both of our sides, but I liked it very much. I wish it was longer.
So, nothing more has happened since then. The friendship continued. We don't see each other that often anymore, because they moved to another country afterwards. But A is here every month for her work, so we see each other at least every 1-2 months. And we also visited them twice.
We all have been friends for 4 years now. And listen, I have to be completely out of mind if it's true that all the moments where there has been intimate moments tension and a little bit of flirting (from both their sides, especially when one of them is alone with me) were just platonic and in my head. They both are very good with not crossing any no-go border, because they get jealous. Everyone is loyal and everyone respects each other's boundaries. But you cannot deny everything.
The thing that is stopping anything more from happening is their monogamous relationship, which I respect, even though it drives me crazy sometimes. But don't get me wrong. I cherish our friendship soo much. I just need a place to let my feelings out. Maybe someone will understand.
This is about the two people I kissed at my wedding, besides my wife. But first, a little introduction.I married my girlfriend in 2024. This year is our 9-year anniversary. In the first few months of our relationship we had our very first talk about polyamory. We've been in a on-off relationship with this topic ever since. Even after all these years, we are still trying to figure out what we want and what not. But that's just the side story.
In this case it's about my feelings for two other people, a couple. (Let's call them A and B.) About 4 years ago we (*platonically*) befriended a woman, A. After three meetings with her, I developed a crush. After a while, this crush turned into very strong feelings. Around this time, she met a girl (B) who she has been in a monogamous relationship with ever since.
Before they officially got together, there was one night we went out to a club. (Her soon to be girlfriend B was not there). It was my wife, my crush A, another friend and me. My wife was in the mood to make everyone kiss with each other, but A and I were shy and scared and on the same level of awkwardness. I knew that she was dating this girl B, and I didn't know at that point how serious it was between them, if it was ok to kiss her, and if she even wanted to kiss me back.
Also, my wife made it soo awkward for us because she was so pushy. That's why I DIDN'T KISS HER.
My wife told me later, she just thought I didn't want to kiss her because of my hesitation.Afterwards, A and I talked about it on WhatsApp. She told me she would have kissed me. And I told her I would have kissed her too. We both blamed it on my wife that we didn't kiss, because my wife was too pushy.
After that, we never talked about it again. I am not even sure if she ever told her girlfriend about this night.Moving forward, they got together. I was scared that I wouldn't like her new girlfriend B, and that I would be jealous. But it turned out that B is the sweetest person on earth, and from the beginning, I really liked her. I like them as a couple and want them to be together forever.
After a while, I also developed a crush on B. It feels different, but only because I think every connection you have with a person feels different. We all became very close friends. I love spending time with them because it's always so easy and natural.
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About our wedding... I told a few friends about my crush on these two women years ago. Those friends thought it would be fun to make them kiss us at the wedding, so they were always making hints in front of them, "Someone has to kiss them. Why don't you do it? blah blah."
The wedding itself was beautiful, the best day of my life. After hours, after my family left, B and I danced. On the dance floor, it happened. B asked me if I wanted to make out, and without any second thoughts, I kissed her back. It was only maybe 10 seconds, but it was hot. A was not in the room. Shit. After she heard about what happened, she was upset that she wasn't there.
I thought I fucked up. But B told my wife that she should go and kiss her so too, so that they'd be even.
It worked. After I went to another room I found my wife and A. Their kiss was already over. I didn't know they'd kissed. I went to them because I wanted to apologize, but A said to my wife: "Now I also have to kiss her, if I kissed you." So she kissed me. It was a very different kiss than I shared with her girlfriend before. It was more shy, gentle and sweet from both of our sides, but I liked it very much. I wish it was longer.So, nothing more has happened since then. The friendship continued. We don't see each other that often anymore, because they moved to another country afterwards. But A is here every month for her work, so we see each other at least every 1-2 months. And we also visited them twice.
We all have been friends for 4 years now. And listen, I have to be completely out of mind if it's true that all the moments where there has been intimate moments tension and a little bit of flirting (from both their sides, especially when one of them is alone with me) were just platonic and in my head. They both are very good with not crossing any no-go border, because they get jealous. Everyone is loyal and everyone respects each other's boundaries. But you cannot deny everything.
The thing that is stopping anything more from happening is their monogamous relationship, which I respect, even though it drives me crazy sometimes. But don't get me wrong. I cherish our friendship soo much. I just need a place to let my feelings out. Maybe someone will understand.
