hippielettucesmoker
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So my boyfriend and I broke up about 3 weeks ago or more bc of him not wanting to have anything related with or practice polyamory. He is a monogamous cis male. I came out to him, almost wanting help or to just learn about it in a way, get him to understand the word and it’s meaning. But we just ended up ending things mutually because of Him not being able to see me with anyone else in a romantically/sextual/emotional way.
we have a great sex life (when we have sex which is every 2 months or so. Sometimes every month.) we have a great emotional connection. And a decent romantic connection. I want to continue the relationship with him or wanted to… weird mind blur this breakup it has been. I just wasn’t getting my sexual needs met. I’m the type of person who needs it like at least once a day or even once a week would be great. I enjoy receiving presents and meaningful touch. Or just simple things like holding my hand. I needed more of that too.
I wanted him as my primary, or my LTR. I think realistically I wanted to just make friends initially, get his opinion on them and go from there. I wasn’t trying to rush into anything with him but I think that’s how he took it and ended it.
I was hurting a lot. I met this polyamorous couple on fet. I talked to both of them separately (which they knew about) and connected especially with the girl, as she was a talker like me lol we made plans for about a week later and I went to meet them at their house, they both were super attractive, such great personality, and I fucking clicked with them both. The girl and I ended up having a great time, if you know what I mean. But the guy left us be, and went on a drive. He said we could enjoy ourselves and do whatever. And he saw us kissing, I was kissing him at one point too. But the next day, I get a message saying that her and her boyfriend need to work through some things before persuing anything sexual and we need to pause our friendship.
I was really confused and hurt once again because in no doubt was a connection made. So I really jus hope they do work on themselves and weren’t just using that as an excuse because they Didn’t like me I just don’t get if I did anything wrong or if something is wrong with me, it’s just kinda one thing after another . I’m sorry I’m blabbing idk what I wanted out of this but it turned into just a little rant/story time. Help? Ideas? Have you been through something like this? I feel like I’m not ever gonna find the light at the end of the tunnel.
we have a great sex life (when we have sex which is every 2 months or so. Sometimes every month.) we have a great emotional connection. And a decent romantic connection. I want to continue the relationship with him or wanted to… weird mind blur this breakup it has been. I just wasn’t getting my sexual needs met. I’m the type of person who needs it like at least once a day or even once a week would be great. I enjoy receiving presents and meaningful touch. Or just simple things like holding my hand. I needed more of that too.
I wanted him as my primary, or my LTR. I think realistically I wanted to just make friends initially, get his opinion on them and go from there. I wasn’t trying to rush into anything with him but I think that’s how he took it and ended it.
I was hurting a lot. I met this polyamorous couple on fet. I talked to both of them separately (which they knew about) and connected especially with the girl, as she was a talker like me lol we made plans for about a week later and I went to meet them at their house, they both were super attractive, such great personality, and I fucking clicked with them both. The girl and I ended up having a great time, if you know what I mean. But the guy left us be, and went on a drive. He said we could enjoy ourselves and do whatever. And he saw us kissing, I was kissing him at one point too. But the next day, I get a message saying that her and her boyfriend need to work through some things before persuing anything sexual and we need to pause our friendship.
I was really confused and hurt once again because in no doubt was a connection made. So I really jus hope they do work on themselves and weren’t just using that as an excuse because they Didn’t like me I just don’t get if I did anything wrong or if something is wrong with me, it’s just kinda one thing after another . I’m sorry I’m blabbing idk what I wanted out of this but it turned into just a little rant/story time. Help? Ideas? Have you been through something like this? I feel like I’m not ever gonna find the light at the end of the tunnel.