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Ceedge

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Hello!

My partner (34 F) and myself (36 F) have recently decided to open our relationship of 8 years.

I fell in love with my best friend (40 Trans M) during his divorce and long vulnerable talks resulting from it. My first instinct was to smash the feelings down, but a drunken kiss happened and I told my wife everything I was thinking and feeling. I truly thought it was going to be the worst talk we have ever had and it turns out that she is open to trying this out and bringing some joy back into our lives. We love each other very deeply, but I have been climbing walls in this pandemic wanting to get out of the house. I am an extrovert by nature and have been feeling like I was set adrift after so much time at home and not really having access to our social circle.

Two months later we are still making steps forward but have settled down into a nice little routine.

My wife, (Lion) is seeing a lovely woman (Squirrel) who is also involved with a man in a poly relationship, but we don’t really talk much.

My boyfriend, (Chaos) and best friend still hang out with Lion for game nights and weekend social situations.. but it is complex. I don’t know that she is really to see me share physical affection with him, so I get awkward and just touch no one.

I tend to do things in the most complicated way.. so here we are.

I’m still trying to figure out a lot of the emotions that have been brought up the the surface here. Looking at you, jealousy. I hope to make some friends here to feel a little less lonely about what we are doing with our love loves. I have talked to some friends.. but I am mainly getting told this is too complex and a terrible idea.. but it’s working?

So yeah, that is the situation in a nutshell. Hiya!
 
Greetings Ceedge,
Welcome to our forum. Please feel free to lurk, browse, etc.

I have some links for dealing with jealousy; if you're interested let me know. One quick link is, What If I Get Jealous?

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Thank you for the lovely greeting! This is probably the most communication intensive period of my life.. but I also feel like it has brought my wife and I much closer. I am excited to see where this goes!
 
Welcome.

Poly is all about communication. There is no need to share graphic details about intimate things you discuss or do with other partners, but at the same time, it's best to be open about certain feelings. Of course, you need to identify your feelings first. Many men are taught to squash their feelings, so they don't find it easy to identify them, channel them properly, express them to others, etc. (Maybe it helps that your bf was raised as a girl and didn't get that kind of indoctrination about gender roles.)

If you're not sure if your wife is OK seeing PDAs, just ask her. Maybe she'd be OK with small gestures, and then gradually get used to larger expressions gradually. One step at a time.
 
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