I imagine myself inhaling the things I wish to focus on: love, abundance, serenity, etc. And exhaling the things I wish to let go of: fears, insecurities, etc. We'll see if it works!
Also, I don't think of Blue as emotionally distant but emotionally preoccupied when he's with others...so not withdrawing his love and affection, just not focused on it at the moment. It's weird...I genuinely feel strong compersion... it just all depends on where I'm at headspace wise...If I'm in a negative headspace, I'm less likely to feel it, if I'm in a positive headspace, I'm more likely to feel it...and feel it more strongly. And, of course, it depends on how fulfilled I am with our relationship at the moment. I know there's some jealousy and envy (within my insecurity and fear), and yet, there's lots of love and compersion. That's why I'm hoping meditation will help - focus my attention on the positive things so I attract more positivity...
For me, it's wholly dependent at this point on who the person is. But I will definitely try this! I hope to be able to post some kind of progress here. I feel like I am reaching some sort of "poly rock bottom" right now that I luckily get this break to process. And the weird thing is, there isn't even a person right now. It's the IDEA that I am becoming increasingly weirded out by, even as I have been living it. I was so sure the opposite would happen, that it feels weird to be wrong.