This Again (Persistent Patterns)

River said:
3. Let "the future" unveil itself as something yet unknown in the present. In other words, don't try to manage and control this unfoldment so that looks like the little familiar categories of your familiar/comfortable world/self. In other words, just let it be what it is without so much cartography, mapping and modelling -- and control. Let go. Don't fit it to the familiar and known as a desperate attempt to make the future (present) always resemble the past. It isn't. Let it be. Let "the future" disclose itself to you afresh in each this moment of now. Be courageous! Risk the adventure.

Forget about the map. Leap.
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This one is really the tough one for me. I'm enjoying the post NRE vibe with my BF right now, and realizing that having two comfy cozy relationships doesn't make either one of them less special. But letting go of the "map" is trickier.

I still unconsciously evaluate my relationships through a very traditional mono mindset. The "is this relationship going anywhere?" one, where the only good relationships are the ones that end in marriage and growing old together. If I make up some bullshit excuse to end things after six months, I never have to actually accept being with someone for years and not moving toward the societal norm.

I'm trying to undo 30 plus years of assumptions about what makes a relationship worthwhile. It's not easy. Yoga is my friend ;)
 
GirlFromTexlahoma said:
I still unconsciously evaluate my relationships through a very traditional mono mindset. The "is this relationship going anywhere?" one, where the only good relationships are the ones that end in marriage and growing old together. If I make up some bullshit excuse to end things after six months, I never have to actually accept being with someone for years and not moving toward the societal norm.

I'm trying to undo 30 plus years of assumptions about what makes a relationship worthwhile. It's not easy. Yoga is my friend ;)
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It sounds to me as if what was once "unconscious" is becoming ever more conscious. Right?
 
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