It sounds like you are in a better frame of mind today and got some sleep. It's hard when low on sleep to function well. Hang in there with that.
With all the nurturing and caregiving you have to provide for the children, it's normal to feel cranky/tired/fussy yourself on low sleep. Who cares for the caregiver?
Maybe you were hoping that he could provide some of that in terms of a "thinking about you" text, or similar, to let you know you are cared about too?
Do you have another friend you could call to support you in single-mom land? Any time you need a "There, there!" they could "There, there" you? Maybe have several friends on call. Could that help in future, since you don't want to get too attached to BF, and have him be your everything, but at the same time have this comfort, reassurance, encouragement need met?
Teething is a drag. When I went through that parenting stage I was fortunate enough to find "lunch box ice" shapes that were easy for my kid to hold/gnaw on, but not choke on. They were flower-shaped, so a "petal" could go in the mouth, but the whole flower was too big. I just kept several "flowers" handy in the freezer to swap out with when they stopped being cold. They were less mess than ice cubes in a mesh feeder. Though if you don't mind the melting wet, that works. Get a mesh feeder and put ice it it. Or tie ice inside the center of a long flour sack cloth.
If your kid will take them, you could try frozen breastmilk popsicles. Then you get a two-fer-- more nutrition and soothed gums. But keep in mind that frozen raw breastmilk can get a "soapy" taste some kids mind, if not boiled first. But then boiling changes milk too. It's a toss up.
All the above with supervision, of course.
There's Orajel too.
I can't remember more from those days, but I offer these ideas in case they help.
With all the nurturing and caregiving you have to provide for the children, it's normal to feel cranky/tired/fussy yourself on low sleep. Who cares for the caregiver?
Maybe you were hoping that he could provide some of that in terms of a "thinking about you" text, or similar, to let you know you are cared about too?
Do you have another friend you could call to support you in single-mom land? Any time you need a "There, there!" they could "There, there" you? Maybe have several friends on call. Could that help in future, since you don't want to get too attached to BF, and have him be your everything, but at the same time have this comfort, reassurance, encouragement need met?
Teething is a drag. When I went through that parenting stage I was fortunate enough to find "lunch box ice" shapes that were easy for my kid to hold/gnaw on, but not choke on. They were flower-shaped, so a "petal" could go in the mouth, but the whole flower was too big. I just kept several "flowers" handy in the freezer to swap out with when they stopped being cold. They were less mess than ice cubes in a mesh feeder. Though if you don't mind the melting wet, that works. Get a mesh feeder and put ice it it. Or tie ice inside the center of a long flour sack cloth.
If your kid will take them, you could try frozen breastmilk popsicles. Then you get a two-fer-- more nutrition and soothed gums. But keep in mind that frozen raw breastmilk can get a "soapy" taste some kids mind, if not boiled first. But then boiling changes milk too. It's a toss up.
All the above with supervision, of course.
There's Orajel too.
I can't remember more from those days, but I offer these ideas in case they help.
