Unburdened8
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Hello,
I was looking for someone to talk to about this. Glad I found this forum.
I am a man in my early 50s. I have often struggled with a feeling of excitement when that I believe I was covering up with jealousy and control. I did not think I was allowed to have these feelings. It is strange because I have never been a person who thought that I cared about what other thought about me.
Have you ever realized one day that you have been wrong about something your entire life?
It is yes, a inherently sexual thing because I don’t get this feeling when my partner is talking to women, only men. She seems excited and very focused. I know what she is feeling because I get it when talking to women all the time. It is natural and nice, a gift of life.
I have expressed to her how that made me uncomfortable, but did it. Yes, only because it got me excited in that way that I felt so strongly I could not express or be rejected as weak or whatever.
Anyway have had an epiphany about myself.
I am treading new water.
I hope this makes sense.
I was looking for someone to talk to about this. Glad I found this forum.
I am a man in my early 50s. I have often struggled with a feeling of excitement when that I believe I was covering up with jealousy and control. I did not think I was allowed to have these feelings. It is strange because I have never been a person who thought that I cared about what other thought about me.
Have you ever realized one day that you have been wrong about something your entire life?
It is yes, a inherently sexual thing because I don’t get this feeling when my partner is talking to women, only men. She seems excited and very focused. I know what she is feeling because I get it when talking to women all the time. It is natural and nice, a gift of life.
I have expressed to her how that made me uncomfortable, but did it. Yes, only because it got me excited in that way that I felt so strongly I could not express or be rejected as weak or whatever.
Anyway have had an epiphany about myself.
I am treading new water.
I hope this makes sense.