Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love

What I love most is that he called me a pretty, pretty princess. He says this as a term of endearment - he even bought me a tiara a while back. My ex-boyfriend M called me this as a negative, and said it was the worst thing about me. It's nice that both my guys love me for who I am...even though as shown by this questionnaire that they have differing ideas about who I am. lmao
 
Fun questionnaire. I like the guys' answers.
 
I also would like to say I have no idea what the Viking and the Schoolgirl is. That had me laughing too! My guys are huge dorks. :)

I asked my youngest daughter (17) the same questions, re-framed with mom instead of wife.

1. What is something your mom always says to you? You say a lot of things to me. Clean up after your cat! You say that more than anything else.

2. What makes your mom happy? [PunkRock] and Dad.

3. What makes your mom sad? I can't think of anything. Aliens? You get sad and SCARED of them.

4. How does your mom make you laugh? By doing stupid stuff. You do these...things...and they're just funny.

5. What was your mom like as a child? Sneaky. The stories you tell me - what teenagers do - I would never do those!

6. How old is your mom? 37

7. How tall is your mom? 5'8"?

8. What is her favorite thing to do? Watching stuff on Netflix. You do! You watch more than me, and that is saying something.

9. What does your mom do when you're not around? I don't know, I'm not around!

10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for? I'm not sure. Helping people with science.

11. What is your mom really good at? Science!

12. What is your mom not very good at? Computers. You don't like them when they are slow.

13. What does your mom do for a job? Paying bills and homeschooling me.

14. What is your mom's favorite food? Cheesecake

15. What makes you proud of your mom? All the stuff I am thinking, just by being a good mom, I guess. (Added after - I want to say mom, that some other kids, they LOVE you. They think you are AMAZING. They come here for Game Club, or from the times at Great Wolf, and they wish they had you. That's neat that they think that.)

16. If your mom were a character, who would she be? I guess you could be Zoe from Firefly.

17. What do you and your mom do together? Shopping, you take me places. Games, I guess. School doesn't count because you give me work and I do it.

18. How are you and your mom the same? We have red hair.

19. How are you and your mom different? We have a lot of differences. You don't like stinkbugs - you're freaked out by them!

20. How do you know your mom loves you? She gets me the drinks that I like at the store. I REALLY like those ICE drinks!

21. What does your mom like most about you? My cooking. I usually make desserts and you like them.

22. Where is your mom's favorite place to go? That one jewelry place that you go a lot, in NY. (Adorn)
 
I know, right? :) She came up with it almost immediately too. :)
 
Soooo today was my last visit for my Invisalign! I received my top retainer and the bottom was ordered for me to grab next week - they're putting a fake tooth in it to hide my missing one. I have an appointment in August with the guy who will be giving me the implant in January. Apparently he says my space and the roots are absolutely fine and there is plenty of room for the implant, so I need no further work until then.

Who hoo!
 
I don't even know where to start with this entry. It feels like forever since I've written anything. I am a mess today. I suppose I'll just type stream-of-consciousness since I do that most times anyhow...

So this weekend - my son texts me from work on Saturday that he rescued a kitten from a vending machine. I go and pick it up, and it's wonderful. So cute and quiet and pretty much the best kitten ever. I bonded with it super-fast. DarkKnight spent almost the entire day with it, as PunkRock was at work and I had errands to run. It spent the night with PunkRock and I, and then again the next night as well.

PunkRock and DarkKnight agree to split the vet bill, as we all want to keep it. I had advertised it on Facebook as our lease allows for 2 cats and we already have 3. Still, this cat is so sweet.

This morning, PunkRock doesn't have to work and we take the kitten to the vet. It hit positive for FIV - similar to HIV, but cats. We are all devastated. Thankfully, we had kept the kitten quarantined from our other cats. We took it to the local shelter, and they euthanized it. Today was just awful.

PunkRock was just crying continuously from the time we arrived at the shelter. I was trying to keep it together, but it was so very difficult. We wanted to keep this little guy so much, but we just couldn't do it. We could not locate a cat a different home before it hit positive, and so we had zero hope of locating one afterward. He'd have to be the only, indoor cat, ever. We couldn't offer that since we already have 3, and realistically we knew we couldn't quarantine him.

The shelter said that in the past, they've had fosters who would take FIV cats, but they don't have any, anymore. So they have to euthanize. Oh, it broke my heart.

The thing is too, that it may not have been a true positive, but we'd have to wait four months to see if it would test negative, and then another 6 again. We had no way of isolating this kitten for a year, and neither did the shelter.

Oh, it was so terrible. I feel terrible. PunkRock and DarkKnight have been wrecks and we are all emotionally overloaded now. It sucks worse because we all have a shared goal of opening our own no-kill cat shelter, and it sucks additionally because we can't do this now. We have had discussions about it being a special needs cat shelter, and this has made us all focus on the idea of maybe it being an FIV shelter. That's about the only good I can pull from this at the moment.
 
I'm still very sad this morning. I am in bed and I've cancelled on going to trivia tonight. Sigh.

I do have lots to do today! I just placed an order for groceries, so I have to go pick those up from Weis at 3 pm, anyway. The bottom part of my retainer came in, so I have to go grab that as well. I still haven't picked up the two photo orders I placed last week - my wedding pics are still sitting at CVS! That's going to cost me like $50 so I've been putting it off. I can't really do that anymore though, because I need to create a wedding album, and PunkRock and I will be at his dad's house for July 4. I want it to be done in time to share it with his family. So, I need to mess with my budget and go and get the photos! I also need to color my hair, because I look and feel old.

Oh, today is so shitty. I need to reframe things and focus on the positive, I guess. I need to motivate myself, but it is so hard this morning.
 
I am so sorry Bluebird and family. What a terrible decision to have to make. If it helps at all, I don't see you had any choice given the situation. Sometimes the 'right' decision is a godawful one. *hugs*
 
So many of the shelters around here have separate areas for FIV+ kitties. I'm sad to find out it isn't common in other metro areas. :-(
 
I've been feeling much more domestic lately. I make PunkRock a lunch for the next day, that he takes to work with him. It makes me feel happy inside that I do this. The last few days, my daughter has been coming in and talking to me as I assemble things, so I've been making her lunch too. :) She is almost 18 now, so it may seem a little silly, but it's been so long since I've done anything culinary in the kitchen - even if it's just assembling and chopping up veggies for a salad or slapping lunch meat on bread for a sandwich. I'm making it with love, y'all!

Last night I took my daughter and a friend of hers to a demo of the Star Wars XWing game. PunkRock and a guy from our D&D group were running it. It was fun! I had a good time and afterward we played Betrayal at House on the Hill too, though we ran out of time to finish it.

DarkKnight texted me as we were leaving the game store, so I picked him up after dumping everyone off at the house - he was out for a walk - and we had a quick get together and ate ice cream. :) He was really down though, and needed snuggles. He had witnessed a bunny in its death throes after it was hit by a car, and he was still sad after the kitten thing earlier this week. Gah! We are all such messes. We had a good connection last night though and I have so much love for him. Sometimes when I see him looking at me, it makes me squee so loud! He is such a great husband and life partner.

I am so lucky and my life is so full of love.
 
Today was a strange one. DarkKnight took our daughter and went to go visit his cousin in Chambersburg, to bottle the beer they made a few weeks ago. PunkRock was working until 2 pm, and my son was holed up in his room, ill. I had plans to work on our wedding scrapbook, but I was feeling distracted, so I watched about a million episodes of the show Parenthood on Netflix instead.

Seriously, it was a complete do-nothing day. PunkRock came home and we snuggled on the couch for a bit, then went upstairs, snuggled in my bed, had sex, showered and then went out for dinner. When we got home, it was around 8:30 pm, and he went right up to my room to sleep, where he's been snoring ever since. I spent the rest of the evening watching more Parenthood episodes, before sneaking off with DarkKnight for an impromptu sex session in his room.

Now I feel a little tired, but I'm stuck awake. Ugh. Tomorrow is D&D, and PunkRock has already made comments as if he isn't going to go. It really is his one true day off this week, so I understand. He has some rearranging to do in his bedroom - our cat Gus destroyed one of his canvas closets so the new one is waiting to be assembled. I hope he still attends though - I would definitely miss him.
 
I haven't had sex since Saturday, and tonight is not looking fortuitous. Sigh.

I've made okay progress so far this week with my wedding scrapbook, but tomorrow will certainly be a bust, as I am hosting game club and then going to play trivia. So that leaves Friday to finish the whole thing, since the get-together with PunkRock's family is on Saturday. I feel motivated but tired.

Today I spent $271 on groceries. Sometimes when the total is that high, I wonder if I am buying way too much but then when I get it home it seems like nothing at all. What do peeps here spend on groceries? I have two husbands, so I gotta keep my guys fed! And my son is going to be 26 this month, so it's not like he eats daintily or anything. Round up with my daughter - almost 18. It takes a lot of food to keep my household happy.

100% whole wheat bread loaf
white bread loaf

2 packs of Ball Park bun-size hotdogs
2 packs of bacon
oscar mayer carving board ham (sandwich meat)
2 packs oscar mayer carving board turkey (sandwich meat)
6 pounds boneless chicken breast
3 pork tenderloins

2 packs frozen broccoli
2 boxes lean pockets 3 cheese & spinach
Red Baron singles french bread supreme pizza

pound of black seedless grapes
pound green seedless grapes
head of boston lettuce
2 Cara Cara oranges
celery
cucumber
bag of Empire apples
3 kiwifruit
2 large tomatoes
grape tomatoes
red onion
scallions
zucchini
watermelon
raisins
2 packs strawberries
2 bagged romaine salads

3 cans Bush's grillin beans - steakhouse recipe
2 cans campbell's family size tomato soup
2 jars classico garlic alfredo sauce
vegetable oil
2 bags light brown sugar
hershey's syrup
Flour
2 boxes Kraft mac n cheese

3 lbs Potato Salad
3 pounds Amish Macaroni Salad

2 containers clorox wipes (I usually buy these in bulk, but we ran low)
1 refill pack of ass wipes
25 lb box ScoopAway litter
2 bags Whiskas Cat Treats

6 2-liters of coke (PunkRock)
3 bags whole bean coffee (DarkKnight - Starbucks, etc various brands)
seltzer water, black cherry (DarkKnight)
seltzer water, pomegranate (DarkKnight)
2 Simply Lemonade (ME)
5 Sparkling ICE water (daughter, multiple flavors)
TAZO tea chai - spiced black tea latte (ME)

shredded cheddar cheese
laughing cow mini babybel light cheese
Sliced provolone cheese
Butter Quarters
Dozen Eggs

Tastykake Pecan Swirls
Tastykake chocolate cupcakes
Tastykake Butterscotch Krimpets
3 Tastykake pretzel rods - chocolate covered (PunkRock, all of the junk above)
1 honey bun (ME)
Turkey Hill Vanilla Bean frozen yogurt

So, yeah. I buy every other week from the organic local co-op too - this week I ordered 2 half-gallons of soy milk (for me), 2 pounds of cherries, 3 pounds of green grapes and a box of blueberries. I'll pick all that up on Tuesday, when my fruit level starts getting low. So that's another $30. I go to Sam's Club once every 3 weeks to buy toilet paper, cat food and paper towels - stuff like that. I never get out with less than $100. I had a good amount of meat already in my freezer this week, as well as hot dog buns, hamburger buns, and a ton of fresh-picked bell peppers in the fridge. I had OJ and bottled water already too. All my canned goods and pasta levels were ok.

Sigh. I am sure when I go next week it'll be another couple hundred dollars.
 
I spend only $300/mo to cover both households. 2 adult men, myself, and 2 boys who are garbage disposals. And I eat clean because of food allergies. (Grass feed meats and fresh fruits and veggies.)

All your money is going to the junk food and processed for which isn't good for you. Cook from scratch it is cheaper and better for you. I have lost 15lbs in a month since I was forced to change my diet. I also feel a hundred times better.

I buy my meats from the butcher. Fresh food is bought at the farmers market. I barely buy anything from the regular grocery store. They are WAY over priced.
 
Yeah, we have bought so much more junk since PunkRock moved in - he takes his lunch to work every day and he snacks a lot. What you don't see in those amounts is my dining out budget - I eat out at least once a day as well. I don't cook - DarkKnight does. PunkRock actually graduated from a culinary arts program but he doesn't do much in the kitchen due to time constraints. I am thinking about taking over the cooking again but I am lazy so I don't think it will happen any time soon. I don't think we could get our bill down to $300 a month, ever. I think our paper products are probably around $200. I might pay more attention to this soon.

I finished my wedding album yesterday and I feel pretty good about it. The BBQ today with PunkRock's family was postponed until tomorrow, which is ok, because D&D was cancelled anyway due to the holiday.

I am feeling wiped out and tired today.
 
Wow, so uh, I was showing my wedding album to PunkRock's family, and his stepmom asks me, "So how does this work with your other one?" I totally froze up. I asked her to repeat, and yep, apparently someone told her I am married to someone else already. I just smiled and said that I have to file paperwork to change my name, but that other than that, things are good. I could see that PunkRock was surprised too.

Overall I think it went well. An aunt hugged me goodbye, "since you're family now."

Hmmm.

We are now going to invite everyone over to a BBQ here in August. One with DarkKnight and my kids present.

I spent the morning sending out emails and messages about my Biology class, and helping PunkRock with his medical benefits. He was aggravated at the process, but things are ok, I think. He is waiting for a call. I am sort of stressed out now - I hate math and trying to figure out which plan is more cost effective when combined with a flex account is scary.

Tonight PunkRock and I are going to the Imagine Dragons/Metric concert in DC. I am not sure which band I am most excited to see!

Until then, I need to shower and go to the bank to transfer money around. I am starving too, since I haven't eaten yet. I also need to call in my son's wages for this month to the disability office.

I am seriously all knotted up and don't feel very well due to stress. I need a massage!
 
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PunkRock and I had a good time last night in DC. The concert was a blast. I almost stayed home, as I was feeling out of sorts due to my period. However, I sucked it up and went. Metric played my favorite song by them, though honestly, I was somewhat disappointed in their sound quality, live. Imagine Dragons was amazing, and PunkRock even bopped around to their song, "On Top of the World." That song never fails to bring me way up!

Today I am tired and have a huge headache, so I am just chilling on the couch, cracking out on the last season of Parenthood.

Now next week, DarkKnight and I are going camping at Cunningham Falls together, with our daughter. I haven't done much planning, other than having the cabin reserved. I need to get moving on that!
 
After dinner and a shower last night, I ended up out at the bookstore on a date with DarkKnight. I ended up getting some jelly beans and a cute pin for my oldest daughter, and a pack of Mad Libs. Both DarkKnight and PunkRock humor me by doing those from time to time! :) After the bookstore, we stopped at McDonald's for an ice cream cone each.

I guess I should have mentioned that I started back counting calories again yesterday. Even with the ice cream cone, I ended up just under what I needed, so that was good. I was miserable though, all day. I am an emotional eater and it sucked that I was feeling down and achy and couldn't eat many carbs. I made a dinner list for the week yesterday with DarkKnight, and I ordered all the groceries this morning online again. $270. Ugh.

Seriously though, I am glad to be doing something again about my weight. At the moment that is just counting calories and keeping it under 1,230 a day - no exercise added in or anything. Yet. I cried a little bit yesterday afternoon about how gross I feel. I am officially carrying 20 pounds more than I did this time last year. I had lost 10 pounds in January, but then after my dad died I gained that back plus another 10. Nothing fits correctly anymore and I feel very unattractive and not desirable. PunkRock told me that he would never say it bothers him, but the way his sex drive has fallen lately, I think it must.

I am just as horny as ever, but last week, I went the entire week with no sex with PunkRock or DarkKnight. That is just unbelievable to me. Here I am with 2 husbands and no sex! Of course, at exactly the one week mark, DarkKnight and I had a very fun encounter, and then the next morning, PunkRock gave me so much joy - it was amazing. I shouldn't complain because both of them are worth waiting for!

I guess I am not the ideal partner at the moment, being sad and fat all the time. The issue is me, for sure. Having my period is always a drag too!

Today I have to go pick up groceries, and then I am attending a volunteer session for the Humane Society. PunkRock is having the husband of a friend of mine over tonight - they've been trading services - the guy has been giving both PunkRock and my daughter pistol shooting lessons and free bullets, and now PunkRock is giving him airbrush painting lessons, as he wants to decorate his guns.
 
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