Oh my. Mr. Hyde was in the mood to push me a bit more during our get together last night, and now I have a sore butt from all the impact play! Butt (see what I did there?!), he did once again demonstrate how amazing he is at just reading my body language and knowing how far he can push me since he backed down right as I was contemplating needing to throw out a yellow or red call (or whatever weird noises one can muster when gagged that he would know meant I needed a break. lol).
Really though, the nicest thing about the whole evening was that for once we finally were able to get together earlier in the evening, so we even went out to dinner and then ended the night a bit earlier so that we weren't both up way past our bedtimes on a work night! Other than the first date that we went on, which was dinner and drinks and a super hot grope/kiss to end the night, our schedules have just been that we're just getting together for a few hours around 9pm, so it's mostly just a long play session. Or sometimes we take a break and walk to a nearby bar for a drink and to chat. So I'm definitely glad that we were able to do something a bit more date-like. Realistically I know that our relationship is more one of D/s play partners and not a traditional b/f and g/f type deal, but I still care about more than just sex. I know that he does too, but at the same time, I also know that he and his wife at this point are only really comfortable with having partners that they go out on play-dates with a few times a month. Given the crazy schedules and kid commitments, and on top of that over a decade of a pretty serious D/s dynamic that also probably lends itself to a certain amount of possessiveness on both sides, I can't say I blame them. But I'm still pleased about the dinner date! We're gonna have to re-talk schedules though since the rest of the summer is wonky with us both having various trips planned, and then once the semester starts he's on a different teaching schedule so we'll have to pick a new night that isn't Thursdays. I'm thinking now it might be Wednesdays, but I'll know more later. Though if it's Wed I really do hope that we stick to something just a tad earlier since I'll never be able to line that up with my every other Friday off at work to make a late night easier!
In other news, Sudo told me that Peach is finally slowly coming to grips with the fact that she needs to reign in her spending. Apparently she's going to go back to her natural hair color since she recognizes that she spends a crap ton of money getting her hair dyed and cut on a regular basis. She's also been better about trying not to spend a bunch of money on clothes, or if she does need something, to find a decent deal, etc. It's gonna take more than that... but it's a start. He was also going to set up credit card alerts to try and keep her better informed throughout the month of spending, etc. So we'll see. It certainly made me happy to hear that there's at least a nominal amount of progress happening.
Peach is spending the weekend at Joe's since this is his last weekend for a while without Bug, and I think also his last weekend for a while where he's off the whole weekend. So since we'll finally have a bit more privacy at the house, I'm going to make a better effort for us to get our kink on! Especially since I think that insecure part of his brain has maybe been making him worry that our lack of exploring and doing more of the kink that we used to was some sort of indication that I was becoming less interested, or something like that. I have no idea if that's the case or not, but I do know that we recently talked about some stuff and he mentioned that we haven't done that much recently (though it was also in the context of our schedules being busy as well).
The reason this came up is because I asked him about what is feelings were when he messages me "I miss you." That probably sound stupid, but I asked because he says it often enough when we're not together that without being able to read any tone into a message, my read on it is that is sounds very sad, like he's actually really hurting (what can I say, my guy's a sensitive giant!). But maybe he was just saying it casually and lightly and I was reading more into it than I needed? I dunno, I was just kinda feeling bad because of course he misses me during the times where we might actually have a few days in a row where we don't see each other. I miss him too then! But sometimes I get an "I miss you" even the morning after when I just left his place the night before. And that's not to say that I don't love spending as much time with Sudo as I can, but knowing that things are so different between him and Peach, I dunno if maybe going from being all cuddly and lovey with me, to then being home either by himself or with Peach where they cohabitate, but are basically just roomies but have a history of knowing what used to be.... maybe that just makes some of those feelings more acute? Ugh, I dunno. Sudo is shit at talking about his feelings. He never seems to be able to put them into words and trying to get a handle on how he feels many times is like pulling teeth, so I'm totally guessing here! And really, there's not much I can do about it no matter which way he's feeling when he says "I miss you" but I was at least hoping to get a better sense of how he feels so that I can better respond and know if I can send back something light or a simple heart emoji, or if he's hurting and I can respond with a bit more support. Sigh. Men. haha!
OMG, something else amazing... well, to me at least. OK, so Sudo is a furry giant. He has lots of light, kinda blondeish redish fur on his chest/belly (luckily, not really on his back and he has the smoothest cutest little butt!). Anyway, I'm always teasing him when he's trimming me, or if I'm trimming him that I'm going to take a swipe at his chest hair with the trimmer! I mean, I always have fun running my fingers through his fur when we're cuddling, but seriously, if I'm just having some fun kissing him all over, or engaging in some nipple play, getting a stray hair in the mouth is obnoxious! BUT, he never wanted to try just trimming it down because he didn't want to be all itchy and stuff. Well the other night when he came to my place he surprised me and he'd trimmed it! It wasn't so short that he didn't seem to be itchy, but given the curliness of his fur, it just made him look so much more... manscaped? I LOVED IT! haha. The whole thing just sounds kinda stupid, but this is the guy who is THE WORST at giving gifts, planning romantic things, celebrating important milestones, etc. So to me, for him to just do this on a whim as a surprise when it's something he knew I would just totally be excited about was awesome! Don't get me wrong, I shant get my hopes up that he's totally turned over a new leaf and this thing of surprise gestures will be a new trend, but I still just love him so much and was just happy happy happy that he surprised me. (It's the little things in life!) So, extra rewards this weekend. I think I'll refuse to allow him to wear a shirt all weekend. Or maybe any clothes at all
