Kevin's Hetero MFM Poly-Fi V

I totally understand about the time machine. My last real conversation with my dad was a fight. I saw him a few weeks later and by then he had been diagnosed with dementia. It wasn't too bad at 1st and he didn't suffer long. Almost 2 years to the day he was diagnosed he passed away. I just wish I would have handled things differently.
 
I think you and I were unprepared for the symptoms of dementia. Although that doesn't make us feel any less guilty about our latest behavior with the person.

I think it is lucky ("lucky") to live only two years after a diagnosis. Dementia can drag on many years. LV lasted about eight years after her official diagnosis ... more if you count the less-severe-but-problematic years before the diagnosis.

Anyway, I sympathize about your situation and appreciate your sympathy for mine.
 
Brother-Husband, Snowbunny, and I are planning to go out for sushi today. Not sure yet whether we'll do it for lunch or for dinner.

I've been sleeping really poorly for about a week, and really feeling off-kilter. I am quitting my Xanax prescription so that is a possible explanation.
 
Do you and your dr. figure your anxiety is doing better, or are you going to replace the xanax with something more long term?

Leetah
 
Not sure yet.

I have a thing, though, with medications ... My body seems to build up a resistance to most of them over time. So I think I'd reached the point where the Xanax wasn't having an effect. We may or may not try to replace it with something. I've tried so many medications, there aren't that many left to try.

I'm still dealing with a considerable amount of anxiety. But, maybe I'm managing to function in spite of it. It's hard to tell, I don't know how to measure these things.
 
Feeling rather blah today. Overate a lot. Don't know how to exercise better self discipline in the future. :(
 
Didn't overeat so much today ... so far ... Brother-Husband is off from work so that kind of discourages me from stuffing my face. I guess tomorrow is Thanksgiving so Snowbunny and Brother-Husband will both be off. We'll probably have turkey; Brother-Husband doesn't want to eat out tomorrow.

I had a bit of drinky-drink today, Snowbunny had bought some alcohol and left it in the fridge. But I don't have much effect from drinking, my body has built up a resistance to it. I am going to try to abstain tomorrow and the day after. And Saturday. Snowbunny will be off work on Saturday.

No advice please, I'm not looking for any. Just recording a little of my story as it is currently taking place. Thanks.
 
My mistake, we're actually having ham for Thanksgiving. And we might go out and walk around in a mall, but it sounds like that's as exciting as today's gonna get. Which I don't mind in principle, I'm just feeling rather funky.

I've started taking a new med in place of Xanax; I believe it's Remeron (the generic version). I'm taking it in the evening, purportedly as a sleep aid. One nice thing is I don't think it's a controlled substance, so I won't be monitored so closely (e.g. pee tests).

That's all I have to tell you for now.
 
I've had a bit more to eat today than would be the ideal. Ideally I would skip (breakfast and) lunch and just eat dinner. But I didn't feel up to that today. I've had some cold pizza and cheese, also some to drink (wine, hard cider, and 7up). Brother-Husband and Snowbunny are both at work so I have some freedom ...
 
Brother-Husband and Snowbunny are both home today, but so far nothing "fun" is planned. It's always possible we'll watch a movie on TV, but then again maybe not. They're mostly getting the work done out there. So I can't complain.
 
It has been kind of a rough week for me, I've been tired a lot. Next week Snowbunny and I are flying out to Utah for a quick weekend trip. I hate traveling, but it's the only way I can visit my family.

That's all I have to say for the moment.
 
Once or twice a week Snowbunny and Brother-Husband go out walking. I have been choosing to go on these walks. I want to be able to tell my doctor I am getting some small amount of exercise. And it helps break up my routine.

Today's walk circled around and went through a park near our house. There is a duck pond with quite a few ducks; we stopped to pay them a visit. I pity all the animals that have to live out in the cold. But the ducks seemed to be taking it in stride. Alas that we didn't have any treats to feed them. They came up close to us, just in case we would. Technically we're not supposed to feed the ducks, but we don't take that rule very seriously.

We watched one episode of Oliver Stone's Untold History of the United States. It was pretty interesting, there was a lot of information packed into it.
 
Yesterday my internet went down, it was not a routine problem that could be easily fixed, it was rather complex and I couldn't possibly have fixed it without some seriously expert help. For that reason among others, I'm really lucky Snowbunny is in my life. I did have to wait for her to get home from work. Somebody has to run the credit union mainframe, and that's her.

Hopefully my internet will stay fixed ...
 
The internet broke again, but Snowbunny got home soon after that and showed me how to fix it. She wrote down step-by-step instructions ... how to open a command prompt (on Windows 10), then the exact command to type (ipconfig /renew). It worked last time and this time, so hopefully it will keep on working. Snowbunny thinks the problem's being caused by some bug in an automatic update. Not sure how to fix it permanently.

Just two days til (Friday) I have to pack and leave for Utah. I won't get back til Monday night, probably won't write again here until Tuesday. But I'll still be here tomorrow and probably Friday morning.

Did I mention that I hate traveling? Sigh ...
 
For awhile there it was looking like bad weather was going to force us both to go to Snowbunny's work early tomorrow morning. It looks like we won't have to do that, but by the time I got the news, I had already packed just to be safe. Not the end of the world I suppose.

I'm kind of feeling out of sorts today, moreso than usual. No idea what's causing it. The pending trip is part of it, but I suspect there's also some buried under the surface.
 
Well the weather did turn on us, we got some snow which is unusual even in December. Temps are unseasonably low. The forecast said temps were going to climb today, but I'm doubtful that they've done it yet. Meantime, the roads are in bad shape. I hope it doesn't screw up our travel plans.

Snowbunny was just going to work a half a day today. Hopefully that means she'll get home soon. She leaves for work very early in the mornings, like about 5:30 a.m. (perhaps earlier today due to the road conditions).

I'm pretty stressed out ...
 
I saw some news coverage this morning about snow events in the PNW, and I remember living up there that rare as they are it really messes everything up when it happens.

Honestly, I am not going to say "I hope you still get to travel as planned"...I hope you are safe. If it's safe for the travel to happen, I hope you enjoy yourself. But safety first of course. Best wishes...
 
Thanks Spork.

We got lucky this time, the temps went up, it started raining, and the snow started melting. Which left a slushy mess on the side streets, but the main roads were clear.

After we got through airport security (and we had TSA precheck), Snowbunny did some poking around and found an earlier flight for us. She got a window seat but switched seats with me so I could have the window. We landed in Utah at about 8:45 p.m. (Mountain Time).

We slept in a little this morning, but tomorrow we have to get up really early. Then we'll drive to Gunnison to visit my brother in prison. It's about an hour and a half drive each way.

Today we have a big Christmas party at my mom's house. Bleah. So manic. But to make the family happy.
 
Our plane landed at SeaTac airport just shy of 9:00 p.m. yesterday. All in all we had a pretty good trip. The only bad news is that after we started driving home, I started coughing. A scratchy, dry cough, and it hasn't gone away yet. I'm not super sick, but I do seem to have a bug. Snowbunny is feeling somewhat sicky poo as well, and she still had to get up early to go to work. We didn't arrive home until almost 11:00 p.m., so she didn't get a lot of sleep. :(
 
Yesterday on her way home Snowbunny picked up Mexican to go from a little hole-in-the-wall place called Del Rey Burro (if I remember right). They make really good food and it's not too expensive. I had a veggie burrito. Very good. Brother-Husband especially liked what he got, it was some kind of five tacos.

I still have that cough, an itch deep in my throat, and for awhile there a bit of a runny nose which seems to have gone away. I think I am on the mend, knock on wood.
 
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